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ash ✶ | edtwt

3 months

edtwt intro ｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆ ⌦ she/her, 22 ⌦ not new to edtwt ⌦ lw bmi 13, hw bmi 32 ⌦ restrictive anorexic with bpd, ocd, gad, mdd ♡ / ↻ to be moots!

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@beautyrexic

3 months

his hand vs my thigh 🤭

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@beautyrexic

2 months

thankful for the difference

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@beautyrexic

4 months

⋆.ೃ࿔* low calorie safe foods to save your life ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･:･ -ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ a thread for ricecaketwt, edtwt, anatwt ♡/↻ are appreciated!

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@beautyrexic

4 months

bmi 32 > bmi 13 bodychecks

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@beautyrexic

4 months

can’t tell if i looked good here or if my thighs look fat

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@beautyrexic

4 months

yk ur peak anorexic when u start posing weird for bodychecks like this

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@beautyrexic

2 months

@Kittykanibalz it gets to a point where you need to be locked away

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@beautyrexic

2 months

⋆.ೃ࿔* what it’s honestly like living with a critically low bmi ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･:･ -ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ a thread for ricecaketwt, edtwt, anatwt ♡/↻ are appreciated!

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@beautyrexic

1 month

demi lovato’s bodychecks from like 2008 live rent free in my head

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@beautyrexic

4 months

alright first up i’ll get some basics out of the way. most of the time i’m lazy and rely on tv dinners and the best low cal brands are of course lean cuisine, healthy choice, and smart ones. i compiled a list of the best ones (imo) with the cal amounts!

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@beautyrexic

2 months

p sure i’m losing my job so last work bodycheck probably lmao

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@beautyrexic

4 months

the best and only protein bars: so many either aren’t worth the cals/macros or taste bad, or both. imo the BEST are barebells (literal choc bars) if you can afford the cals. fulfil are a bit less and good too. i’ve grown out of quest but the hero ones are a must. 150-170cals

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@beautyrexic

4 months

some more basics, frozen sweets: yasso bars (80-100cal), nicks (250-390cal), frozen farmer frobert (70-270cal), and the beloved halo top (270-380cal)

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@beautyrexic

3 months

my thighs are fat but somehow they don’t look fat when i bend them or am sitting

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@beautyrexic

4 months

chips and salty snacks: most chips nowadays have a “baked” version if you must, but i LOVE veggie straws (130cal), snacklins (100cal/310 a BAG), and lesser evil popcorn (110cal)

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@beautyrexic

3 months

the best salad to have ever lived. 250cals

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@beautyrexic

4 months

for my trader joes hoes i gotchu too. here are some of my safe foods that are a MUST

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@beautyrexic

1 month

@lolarena_ @bunnyykichi there’s literally subtitles??

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@beautyrexic

1 month

@avaricenotava girl they could be inside eating hot cheetos. you gotta start somewhere. nobody cares how long it takes you to run or walk a mile you’re on edtwt.

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@beautyrexic

4 months

lastly some other random specifics that are a must for me. gc is literally the best cottage cheese and the waffles are 60cal EACH, atkins also has some chocolates i get from time to time, and the special k pastry crisps are just poptarts that are 100cal

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@beautyrexic

4 months

some other quick necessities. reddi wip fat free (5cal), maple groves sf syrup (5cal), extraordinary bites bread (30cal a SLICE), zero sugar water mixer packets (5-10cal)

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@beautyrexic

4 months

light progresso soup is a lifesaver oml. the chicken noodle i always have on hand (130cal) and they’re generally around 200cal for the others

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@beautyrexic

4 months

th3ft haul lmao

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@beautyrexic

4 months

oatmeal. quaker’s fruit ones and lower sugar are generally pretty low but betteroats is where it’s at. i usually do two packets (200cal) for a big ass bowl that keeps me full for hours. imo cinnamon roll wasn’t rly good but the brown sugar is ooooof

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@beautyrexic

2 months

i’m gna be toxic n say i wish i knew how to purge

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@beautyrexic

4 months

gatsby chocolate. this is honestly my favorite find ever. 180-200cal a BAR, which i usually just have a square or two. the fudge brownie and cookies & cream are the best but the sea salt is good too. don’t bother with the other flavors tbh

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@beautyrexic

4 months

veggies made great their egg bites (70cal) are very good but they also have muffins (90-120cal) that are made from vegetables which might sound odd but i really like them

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@beautyrexic

4 months

285cal 26g protein big ass pint of ice cream i made with my creami ft my nosey cat

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@beautyrexic

4 months

now for general and brand specific. i’ll start with yogurt. fage 0% is best for cals/protein (90cal) but ppl don’t like the taste. mix sf syrup/honey in it. also light & fit ofc, but there’s now a sf version (50cal), drinks, and now a “remix” (120cal) which is just a chobani flip

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@beautyrexic

4 months

for drinks, ice is my favorite. i’m pretty sure they all are 5cal each but they recently came out with starburst ones that you need - not want, NEED - and i recently may or may not have bought 40 at once but that’s ok they’re a dollar

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@beautyrexic

4 months

green giant has great vegetable options that are low cal (a bag of broc & cheese for 130cal / seasoned veggies for 180cal) and more but those are my faves

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@beautyrexic

3 months

y’all pls buy a treadmill/walking pad i got mine for around $250 and it’s like the best purchase i ever made i can get 10k steps in a lil over an hour easy and just watch youtube

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@beautyrexic

4 months

@itsumorena it’s luckily not too bad, being a low bmi for so long i think it kinda just shrunk to me or something. u can def tell the difference between it being fat vs skin tho

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@beautyrexic

2 months

they really made the pink one sugar free for the edtwt girlies

molly ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

@molsherro

2 months

guys i have never had a redbull before which one is the best

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@beautyrexic

4 months

my bf in the other room playing games with his friends and he hears the toilet flush five times

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@beautyrexic

4 months

thinspo + aesthetic ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ⋆.ೃ࿔* a thread for edtwt ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･:･ 🏷️: thinspo bonespo edtwt thread modelspo bodyspo averagespo runway motivation dietspo edspo ricecaketwt anatwt th1nspo

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@beautyrexic

4 months

i miss these nails so bad

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@beautyrexic

2 months

@Kittykanibalz isn’t coke meant to help lose weight

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@beautyrexic

3 months

@Amber802028519 yes

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@beautyrexic

3 months

getting my exercise out of the way early in the day is so satisfying

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@beautyrexic

4 months

i’m sorry but imagine not caring what you put into your body like this jfc

☄︎ 𝑚𝑎𝑥 ☄︎

@max1ecal

4 months

wieiad as a f @t person w/ commentary + counting ca|s! 🧵

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@beautyrexic

2 months

also, most ppl this low of a bmi didn’t plan on getting here. my first gw was bmi 18, then 15, then kept dropping; with an ed this severe u can’t control it. this isn’t to scare you, bc you can’t help it either unless you seek help, but this is what to expect if u do. stay safe🫶

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@beautyrexic

4 months

@madssmii a lil over a year

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@beautyrexic

2 months

same with even family. this could be bc i’m an adult but i dropped 100lbs in a short time and nobody talked to me directly. if ur a minor there’s more to worry about but as an adult nobody’s gonna care like that bc you’re grown. if you’re a minor u’ll definitely get admitted too

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@beautyrexic

2 months

going along with my self consciousness, i’m always bloated. this could be constipation or having a tiny body and putting remotely anything in it just pops out like a sore thumb but you’re not going to have a completely flat stomach. it’s obvious if you need to poop or if you ate.

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@beautyrexic

2 months

i’ll start with social aspects ppl expect. strangers aren’t going to worry. i’ve gotten stared at (which makes my loved ones embarrassed to go out) and nasty looks, but nobody’s gonna walk up talk to you about ur weight or ask if ur ok. this is a fantasy i feel like y’all have.

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@beautyrexic

3 months

@tiiredyumz thank you!! it is, it’s mickey mouse ears but as fruit 😭💖

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@beautyrexic

2 months

i’m more self conscious now. if u think you’ll “wear whatever you want”, that’s not the case. u’ll feel disgusting about yourself still, u’ll either be embarassed or feel not skinny enough still. at being bmi 13 i wear hoodies and sweatpants - i don’t show my body like i thought.

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@beautyrexic

2 months

this one is an unfortunate one for a lot of y’all but not only will you lose all of your boobs (if you have them) you will also get anorexic ass and it’s the most embarrassing/disturbing part of my body i think. iykyk.

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@beautyrexic

4 months

when sonic said “gotta go fast” i don’t think this is what he meant

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@beautyrexic

4 months

@annarexxibackup she can have her opinions on us looking like “bags of bones” but we can’t have opinions on her looking like a tub of lard?

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@beautyrexic

2 months

about constipation, i go every TWO weeks and that’s only bc i take lax to do it. i don’t abuse but it’s the only way for me to go anymore. my body lost the ability to go on its own. expect to be constipated a lot (and tmi but yes u can SEE it thru ur stomach if ur small enough).

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@beautyrexic

2 months

emotionally i feel nothing. i’m numb; i never laugh. when something happens idk how to react bc my brain lacks the ability to feel anymore ig. that’s the best way to explain it. i feel literally dead, like stone. when something crazy/tragic/scary happens i lack any reaction too.

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@beautyrexic

13 days

dirty mirror bodycheck, seeing longlegs tonight

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@beautyrexic

4 months

@onoplea tbh i’ve never fasted more than 15hr on average i just have always had a low cal diet 😭

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@beautyrexic

1 month

pro tip: keep a drug scale in your bag to weigh small amounts of food

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@beautyrexic

2 months

not only that, you start to become irrationally angry at anything and everything, and everyone, for no reason. anything sets me off. not sure if it’s constant hanger or malnutrition or both but i’m basically always in a bad mood.

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@beautyrexic

2 months

disclaimers: this is MY experience as a low bmi (13), and what i’ve experienced in the past four years of being severely uw. most ppl tend to feel these side effects starting bmi 15-16 but it can start at ANY weight. you don’t have to be underweight to be malnourished!

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@beautyrexic

2 months

if u have a very physical or even social job, don’t expect to keep it. work performance will severely decline and u’ll either get let go or have to quit bc of how bad your health is. at one point i was working 8hrs a week rather than 30-40 and still struggled. you will struggle.

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@beautyrexic

2 months

this goes for sex drive too. with ur loss of period (if u get one) u won’t have a libido, and anything sexual will make you uncomfortable and feel icky. even making out or anything romantic. if ur in a relationship, there’s a 9/10 chance it won’t survive and that’s the truth.

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@beautyrexic

3 months

@seokcalsx ofc! 🫶

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@beautyrexic

2 months

(what i’m trying to say is, ppl will ofc care/worry but not in the way u think they will. they’re not gonna be deadset on making sure u get better every single day unless ur young and they want to get u inpatient, and their life isn’t gonna consist of being all about you).

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@beautyrexic

2 months

this also - ur relationships will decline. ur whole life will be food and ed. if u feel like it already is, u have no idea how worse it gets overtime. u won’t want to go out in fear there will be food or it interrupts ur meal time (if u have one), along with fear of how you look.

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@beautyrexic

4 months

@plethoraofnoor a little over a year but i lost more than half in the first 6 months, i wasn’t active and mostly just had a very low cal diet and my metabolism slowed a bit

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@beautyrexic

2 months

@Lucys_d1ary @Kittykanibalz makes sense why it wouldn’t be working

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@beautyrexic

4 months

walked 5 miles despite being sick. hot girl shit

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@beautyrexic

4 months

i deserve to starve why do i eat

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@beautyrexic

4 months

whenever i fast my brain can’t stop thinking about food even if i’m not hungry and i can’t focus on anything bc ik how many hours away my meal time is and it feels so long

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@beautyrexic

3 months

i’m losing my mind did she get rid of her ribs?? how is this possible? is this an illusion? am i living in another dimension? look at her thicc thighs and her boobs then look at her waist it’s like someone put together a mf collage

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@beautyrexic

2 months

u’ll be too cranky/embarrassed to see anyone, time goes by so slow and ur motivation is nonexistant. this is excrutiating too bc it’s not like i can sleep my time away. my free time consist of meal planning days in advance, looking for new foods or browsing random menus. sad.

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@beautyrexic

3 months

why do these women and op think the boyfriend “fattened” up these girls?? take accountability, the boyfriend did nothing and you were the one willingly eating ? happy or not. your actions on yourself have nothing to do with his love for you

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@beautyrexic

2 months

get used to 3-5 hours of sleep, at most. even with sleep meds i just can’t sleep. i can’t get comfortable physically and my body can’t stay asleep. it’s not even hunger keeping me awake, it’s literally just being this unhealthy and malnourished keeps me sleep deprived CONSTANTLY.

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@beautyrexic

4 months

@nymphvomit even at that weight i knew i was skinny so i call bs lowkey

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@beautyrexic

2 months

i love fasting but i also hate fasting yk

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@beautyrexic

2 months

i hate my body so much i want to perish

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@beautyrexic

4 months

@imyoursnom4tr @jellypurgez 800

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@beautyrexic

3 months

hello i got hospitalized and ip for a couple days bc i cut too deep so that was fun had to get stitches eee

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@beautyrexic

4 months

stress binges are fucking annoying

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2 months

end of thread, thank you for listening to my experience and i hope you don’t have to relate, please stay safe and practice good harm reduction 🫶

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@beautyrexic

4 months

wouldn’t it be easy if we could cut our tastebuds off

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@beautyrexic

3 months

@Amber802028519 for weirdos?? 🤔 baby i love looking like this for myself

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@beautyrexic

1 month

k so bf of 6 yrs and i broke up for good and i have a job giving me 18 hrs a week so i can’t pay rent on my own which is gna leave me homeless. i don’t care i’m not eating anymore i’ve officially lost everything.

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@beautyrexic

3 months

zero sugar cherry lime sprite is so good oh my i need it in my veins at all times

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@beautyrexic

4 months

doing a 🧵for my weekly steps starting end of feb til now ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

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@beautyrexic

3 months

@Amber802028519 i don’t care enjoy ur maccies<3

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@beautyrexic

3 months

i’m more active than i tweet lmao i just don’t want to be annoying oop

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@beautyrexic

4 months

@dietyunaa @CanadianAether nothing terrible, mostly just my thighs and my upper arms but i wasn’t terribly big to where my skin stretched out too much for it to not kinda shrink with me

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@beautyrexic

2 months

@JackHillchurch beauty

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4 months

@splattersk1nny i feel like i kinda did at the start but overtime of being that low it kinda became used to my body

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