Cool science stuff: I gridded 8-day mean N2O ratios using satellite data in the stratosphere. 🛰️
You can see the polar vortices from depleted N2O (purple) AND splitting polar vortex (wavenumbers 1&2) in the NH winter due to sudden stratospheric warming events in 2008-2010. 1/
Grades came in:
- I withdrew from school last semester after attempting to end my life to pursue treatment
- Less than 5 months ago I was sitting in a chair in treatment
- Now my GPA is the highest it’s been
- For the first time in years I’m genuinely proud of myself
Hi, I’m Ariana, a PhD student in Earth & Planetary Sciences at Harvard studying stratospheric dynamics & climate by looking at the transport of long-lived molecules via satellites. I’ve been told I got here because I’m a Disabled Latina but my header says it all 🤍
#WomenInScience
Today I graduate from THE Texas A&M Univeristy:
• B.S. in Meteorology my DREAM
• Got a 4.0 my last semester
• 2 NASA Internships
• Only ~2-3% of Atmospheric Sciences degrees awarded are given to Latinx women... I AM ONE OF THEM
People are saying grad students need hobbies, but what if I feel too isolated, depressed, and exhausted to have the energy to do these things? All I want to do after work/ school (other than taking long walks and going to the gym) is lay down in bed.
#PhDChat
#DisabledInSTEM
After I came back from mental health treatment, I asked a mentor to write a letter of rec for internships. They told me I should reconsider applying bc of my mental health & may not be able to handle it.
Today, I finish my 2nd NASA internship & my bosses want me to come back💃🏽
Y’ALL.
To the prof that told me my GRE scores were a “disqualifier” + people that told me I should have applied to backup schools:
I got into the only two dream schools I applied to! I’m in shock & too anxious to eat chocolate because I have a decision to make!
Reality of being a PhD student with mental illnesses: I’ve had ~9 (lost count tbh) panic attacks in the past few days. I’m exhausted but advocated for myself to get an extension on something and all I can do is cross my fingers. I’ve done everything I can ❤️
For those attending accepted/ prospective student weekends for graduate school, I highly encourage you to have candid conversations with current graduate students about the culture of the department, institution, work environment. Ask questions but also ask for honest answers. 1/
I’m excited to announce that I accepted an offer to pursue a PhD at Harvard starting this Fall. I will be working under Dr. Marianna Linz (
@clim_dynamicist
) with research involving atmospheric chem, stratospheric dynamics, climate modeling + more.
I’m going to be Dr. Castillo!
When I was applying to grad school last year, I was told to wait until my condition(s) improve.
Anyways, I finished my first semester as a PhD student at Harvard. My disabilities aren’t liabilities, they have allowed me to thrive in my own way. Take that ableism!
#DisabledInSTEM
I’m hitting the point where my attention span doesn’t last for more than a few minutes, I have zero motivation, my insomnia is worse, and I just want to have some boba and pizza.
I WANT to work because my job is so cool, but my brain is being stubborn. Am I the only one?
Minority women in STEM consistently get criticized and invalidated by men. Apparently my admission into Harvard was because I’m a minority woman and got “lucky?”
I seriously can’t!
Mentors + professors: Never tell students they have a better chance of getting into graduate school because they're in underrepresented groups. We are already navigating a system that was not built for us and to invalidate years of their hard work is just... Don't do it.
I say this a lot but I really want to reiterate that many of us are involved with advocacy because of experiences, trauma, and we are trying to survive, not because it’s something to put on the resume. I speak out because I don’t want anyone to experience what I have.
A year ago I attempted suicide. I was heartbroken with a slew of mental illnesses. Since then:
-2nd internship @ NASA
-Made new best friends
-Started my dream hobby ⛸
-Got a new student worker job after being unfairly fired by my last one
There’s hope. Don’t give up.
Hi I worked my a** off to get to where I am when people consistently told me I got success + positions because I’m a minority woman. I’m a scientist who EARNED my successes while having jobs, enduring life changing trauma + mental illnesses.
I am a qualified candidate. Period.
Hi. I just wanted to let you all know that I’m queer and if you don’t accept and support that that PLEASE unfollow me. Wow I feel like this weight was lifted off of my chest. 🏳️🌈
#LGBTQinSTEM
My experiences as a PhD student with depression, anxiety, panic, and anxiety disorders for
#MentalHealthAwarenessMonth
to raise awareness: a thread 🧵 1/
Hi. I don’t have my life together.
I’m struggling with classes. I put my research on hold for the time being. Despite this, I’m *still* drained. Balancing school and my mental health has been a huge challenge.
If you’re struggling, know you’re not alone 🖤
Three years ago I was told to reconsider grad school because of my mental illnesses, then I started my PhD program in the middle of a pandemic as my life was falling apart & dropped almost all my classes.
I kept going through the adversity this past semester. 4.0 let’s go 😭🤠
We’re not struggling with productivity, we are working/ studying in the middle of a year-long pandemic, a period of social and political unrest, and other external stressors while trying to cope and process all of these things at the same time. You’re not alone. 🖤
#PhDChat
What sucks about being consistently burnt out is that a rest day or weekend isn’t enough and I can’t self care my way out of it. If you’re also struggling with this, know you’re not alone ❤️
#AcademicMentalHealth
I have a lot of new friends so I thought I’d re-introduce myself! Hi, I’m Ariana & I tweet about:
- my journey in academia as PhD student with mental illnesses
- my love for coffee, hiking, breakfast tacos, Rachmaninoff
- making academia more accessible
- a lot of chaos✨
I submitted my final project, I’m done with this semester. Last fall I dropped all my classes as a result of the pandemic and my life falling apart for 5+ years. I sometimes feel like I don’t belong at Harvard, but the way I tackled my mental health & classes this semester: I DO.
TW / suicide
This photo was taken the night before the worst day of my life. Today marks 3 years since that day. I’m glad I’m still here and living a life I couldn’t possibly imagine. Depression affects those who are “always smiling” too. Check in with your loved ones ❤️1/
Sorry if you’ve seen this 10000 times I’m just so proud of myself for staying consistent and falling back on my routines even when depression + anxiety were debilitating.
Fitness is a hobby that has helped me cope with grad school!!! 💪🏼
Context: About a year ago, people told me I got into Harvard because I’m a disabled Latinx woman + “luck.” Being the lovely human she is, my fantastic advisor wrote this lovely letter for me to show them.
Reminder: Struggling with mental health does not diminish your capabilities to be a great scientist, student, and/or researcher. If anyone tells you otherwise, they are feeding into the stigma.
#AcademicMentalHealth
#PhDChat
Hi, new followers! I wanted to introduce myself. I’m Ariana & I tweet about:
- my PhD journey at Harvard as a Latina &
#DisabledInSTEM
- mental health, hiking + nature adventures, food, lots of coffee ☕️
- some meteorology/ atmospheric science
- prequel memes
Welcome to chaos!
Institutions don’t pay their student workers and graduate students enough and ask “what can we do to prioritize students’ mental health?”
I dunno, maybe compensate us accordingly so we don’t have to worry about funding, taking care our ourselves, and fighting for our rights??
I don’t know how many times I’ve tweeted this in 2020, but I’m doing it again:
Racism and hate are NOT tolerated in the Meteorology/ Atmospheric Science community. Period.
Hi I’m Ariana I use she/her pronouns. I am a Latina meteorologist & PhD student studying atmospheric and climate dynamics at Harvard.
Super proud to be
#QueerInSTEM
& love the community here!
#LGBTQSTEMDay
This is what a scientist looks like 🌈
Hi, new followers! I want to introduce myself:
-I’m a proud disabled Latinx woman
-I’m an atmospheric scientist & PhD student
-I’m here to talk about mental health, science, & advocate for our marginalized friends in STEM
-I like StarWars, Avatar & coffee ☕️
Happy to announce I accepted an offer to hopefully intern at NASA Langley working on “Developing new perspectives on inventories of VOCs” under Dr. Katie Travis, who got her PhD at Harvard. Small world!
Little girl me couldn’t possibly imagine I’d have 3 NASA internships!
Still can’t believe this happened just over 3 years ago. This letter is framed in my office now.
Super thankful for the support I’ve had from my friends and colleagues since I’ve been at Harvard.
Here’s to 3 years of proving people wrong! 💃🏽
Well.... I completed my final presentation for my internship at
@NASA_Langley
!! It has been such a pleasure to spend my past 3 summers at NASA. Thanks for all the support!! Now I have a few weeks to breathe before start my PhD program at Harvard!
I decided to pull out of my poster presentation for AMS due to my longer recovery from COVID, which has impacted my mental health. Before starting grad school, I made a promise to myself to prioritize my mental health. This isn’t a failure, but a commitment to that promise 🤍
Nothing says “Happy Valentines Day!” like getting into a graduate school program at a dream school! I can’t believe it. I’m in awe. I think I’m going to eat some chocolate.
Today I put on an outfit I was a bit scared of wearing, but I did anyways because I’m ready to demolish the insecurities I’ve had since I was a kid. I feel pretty badass!!!
I just ordered my graduation dress online and I can’t believe this is happening.
I can’t believe I’m going to be one of the ~2% of Latinx women with an atmospheric science degree!
CW / weight loss
Stepped on the scale today and I hit +76lbs down since September 1st, 2020. I’m in awe that I’ve made it this far in a way that’s sustainable for me. Gonna get some pizza or a burger tonight bc I was gonna do that regardless of what the scale said!!! Whoop!
@arianaelena97
This must be so exhausting.
I just wrote an official thing that you can copy and paste in response before blocking them. I'll send you a PDF version, too.
Last post I promise. I almost didn’t want to chase yesterday after 3 years of messy setups & mistakes. Even in discouraging moments, I have fond memories. It took 3 years to see another ‘nader. This is why I keep going - I’m chasing the dreams 7-8 year-old Ariana had. 🌪
Tw / weight
What a difference a year makes. I’ve posted a bit about my weight loss journey here: I’ve lost over 60 lbs in less than 11 months. I’m just as beautiful as I was a year ago- but I am stronger, found more confidence, and learned to love myself. Now it’s time for cake!
I was rejected from a fellowship. A critique:"This application could be improved by.. increasing or demonstrating engagement w. communities that are underrepresented."
Reviewer 2, this is why I advocate for marginalized folx in STEM. We pour ourselves out & it's still not enough.
The audacity that “women, under-represented minorities & people with disabilities are encouraged to apply” when reviewers say racist things like this.
We are “encouraged” to share our experiences only to be told we aren’t enough. The system is broken, where’s the accountability?
Being a Disabled + Latinx woman in Earth Science has been such an adventure. Sometimes I wake up and wonder if my life is a dream. From Texas A&M, NASA, and Harvard: I wouldn’t have it any other way!
#WomenInScience
#InternationalDayOfWomenInScience
My roommate works at MathWorks. Knowing I do a significant amount of my data analysis via MatLab, we stopped by MathWorks headquarters on our way home from errands & he gave me a lil tour. I felt like a kid in a candy store tbh 👩🏽💻
This isn’t discussed enough but: I’m burnt out from science because I’m burnt out from things going on in my life. Oftentimes, I don’t have energy to be passionate about science + do research. But I’m doing the best I can even when it doesn’t look like a lot. 🤍
#PhDChat
I didn’t realize that it’s May and
#MentalHealthAwarenessMonth
I was diagnosed w. depression, anxiety, bipolar, panic disorders in undergrad & was hospitalized after an attempt. It’s been a rollercoaster of a journey, but I am thankful that I am still here. You are not alone💜1/
weed out classes are unnecessary and push out capable students. we should be giving students the tools and concepts they need to thrive in their prospective fields!
@MinoritySTEM
Hi! My name is Ariana & I’m a Latina🇲🇽 atmospheric scientist. I will start my PhD program at Harvard this Fall! My research w. NASA for three summers was related to wildfires, and I’ll be working on stratospheric structure using trace gases for my PhD. Nice to meet you!!!
This is what a scientist looks like: I felt pretty cool wearing this shirt while studying stratospheric dynamics today. Despite all the obstacles I’m still here. WE are still here! 🤍
#DisabledInSTEM
#LatinaInSTEM
Career update: Excited to announce I will be a visiting scholar hosted by
@AtmoScientist
at OU starting in October. I will continue my stratospheric age + tracers work while learning about troposphere-stratosphere exchange & in-situ observations ✈️
Thrilled to return to Norman!
I’ve said this so many times but: Institutions love recruiting underrepresented + minority students and say they prioritize DEI initiatives but provide little resources & support once we get there, then ask us to help with these issues when many of us are burnt out and exhausted.
A day later I’m pinching myself and wondering if yesterday was a dream. April 23, 2021 will be an event to remember 🌪 Photos 1 & 2: Tornado
#5
, Photo 3: meso right before Tornadoes
#3
& 4, Photo 4: Tornado
#6
#txwx
Finally got a Costco membership and I love it?!!?
I got a fuzzy sweater, a fresh rotisserie chicken, Greek yogurt, sparkling water, pop corners, and espresso in bulk. Is this what the good part of being an adult is like?
Hi, new followers! I’m Ariana and I tweet about:
- my journey in grad school
- disability, mental health, DEI advocacy in academia
#DisabledInSTEM
- Star Wars, coffee, hiking, daily struggles, storm chasing
- sometimes I tweet about science ☁️
Anyways, welcome to chaos!
CW: weight
Idk if anyone cares, but I’m wearing a bikini for the first time since I was 8. I stopped wearing them after a family member made a backhanded comment about me (a child) wearing one and my weight. This is a HUGE step for me & I’m so proud of myself!!
#DisabledRollCall
Hi, I’m Ariana. I’m a meteorologist + PhD student. I have a few mental illnesses & was officially diagnosed 2.5 years ago. Being in STEM with my illnesses hasn’t been easy, but my struggles have inspired me to speak out & educate others.
#mentalhealth
1/2
I really wish people in academia could be more understanding when people have struggles and things to take care of outside of school + research.
We are human. We have lives outside of academia too. There’s more on our plate than academic-related stuff.
TW / suicide and depression
It finally hit me today. Two years ago, I was in so much pain I wanted a way out. Today, I’m crying tears of joy because I’m still here and I’m happy to say that I’m not faking this smile.
#MentalHealth
#SuicideAwareness
I really wish folks in academia would acknowledge and appreciate the fact that people are going through invisible struggles and stressors — what may “seem” like the bare minimum is really us doing the best we can despite struggling
#AcademicChatter
I don’t know if anyone cares, but I officially set up my Harvard email today, which is a step closer to starting my PhD journey. During times like these it’s the little things. I still can’t believe I’m going to be a Harvard PhD student?! ✨
Today is my first day at my third NASA internship!!! So here’s a picture of me on my first day on center at LaRC last summer not wearing a baggy shirt and sweatpants! Super thankful I still get to do what I love from home.
#LatinaInSTEM
#NASAintern
I don’t want to hear anyone saying how much “better” Canada is. The last residential school closed in 1996. Canada is built on white supremacy and genocide - don’t forget that.
Authorities in Canada uncovered the remains of 215 children, some as young as 3 years old, at the site of a former residential school for indigenous students
TW / suicide
This photo was taken the night before the worst day of my life. Today marks 3 years since that day. I’m glad I’m still here and living a life I couldn’t possibly imagine. Depression affects those who are “always smiling” too. Check in with your loved ones ❤️1/
For context to this tweet: I had the wake-up call to start prioritizing my physical health on my birthday 3 years ago. Since then, I’ve lost 85+ lbs and continued to maintain.
Still the same person, same smile, I love them both! 🤍