i want more "run errands with me" friends. no i do not want to spend $85 on a dinner to catch up. but i will go to costco and an estate sale with you and then some tacos
if you ever need to cry on cue, what works for me is thinking about the fact a queer person once would call every gay bar they had a number to just to hear the sound of other queers laughing somewhere, just listen, say nothing. as to not be alone. every week. for fourteen years.
From an interview with Myrna Kurland in Baby, You Are My Religion: Women, Gay Bars, and Theology Before Stonewall, by Marie Cartier (2013). Myrna passed away in 2014, at age 86.
May those police officers never find peace, never rest, live in abject terror and shame and humiliation the rest of their days, may every curse find them and follow them home and may their home refuse them.
i remember reading that interview like, six years ago, and FEELING this knowledge integrate itself into my cellular makeup. i can never unknow this window to someone's loneliness and need. and now you have it too. godspeed
what i would give to have the honor of answering the phone for her every week for years, what i would give to have invited her in. i hope her afterlife is an endless party in the places she never got to see.
so there are THREE simultaneous plagues in new york right now, no mask mandates, no UI stipends, and the police are arresting people for swimming without a lifeguard, do i have that right
A lot can be said about therapy (I love it) but my life would also simply improve and my anxiety would temporarily disappear if I had an extra ten thousand dollars
The Tumblr girls are just actresses and editors now and their followers are on tiktok doing what we did before them… we were never gone just booked and busy 🧐
May those police officers never feel safety again, May their senses fail, may their bodies betray them as they betrayed every child they policed instead of protecting, and still none of this is enough to articulate how much they have failed.
Sorry for making you all cry, here is a pic of the sunset right now, I am pretending the old couple walking by is this person and someone she loves lol
May every lie those police officers tell to try to save themselves strangle them in broad daylight, in the very streets they thought they owned, and let the vultures eat them. Let them at least be dirt, their highest calling, and only then will they be worth anything at all.
The impossibility of ethical consumption under capitalism isn’t an excuse to care less, it’s a challenge to rise up to and navigate together. But anyways enjoy the fraying seams and shit
Thinking about how kind my HS English teacher was. When she was dying of cancer she spent the yr teaching us about debt and scholarships and we made college binders for class in between shakespeare. It avoided disaster for a lot of us. While she was sick, the whole time.
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The tiktok teens don’t know this that well yet. Out here opening their mail with the address on screen and taking neighborhood panoramas of their apartment views. 😭
I put a little beauty bowl (hand cream, cuticle oil, lip balm, face mist, head scratcher, etc) next to the couch for when I’m fidgety watching Netflix and it has made me 500% more happy and moisturized
There’s a world of difference between your relationship to clothes being one of accumulation and one of story. Luxury clothes are cool because the time and craft spent on them. Having a lot of clothes that fall apart is just collecting detritus when you could collect time.
One thing I’m grateful for as I grow up as a writer and person is letting go of the framework of “why is nobody talking about this?” Or feeling like I’m like, watchdogging new territory. Trust me. You just haven’t been looking hard enough. Don’t let your ego speak too loudly 💐
i like living in los angeles because no one can humble me for my outfits. the bar is on the ground. when i wander soho in nyc i always end up eye-fucking-fighting some dude in yohji and getting sexually confused
I don’t expect to win arguments of logic with these politicians anymore. I simply hope they lose everything they hold dear and value most in this world and that it happens very thoroughly. May they get exactly what they deserve and nothing less.
The people making fast fashion clothes also deserve for their time to matter more than it does. You should be able to make a life out of craft and not only get one day off a month. You should be able to take your time. You should be able to afford to rest. Everyone deserves that
People saying thrifting and mean vintage shopping all the time and it drives me bonkers. Baby if the shop doesn’t smell suspect and vaguely resemble Mordor it isn’t thrifting you are at a boutique that sells you grailed price matched Levi’s we are not talking about the same thing
My dad texted to see if it was ok to throw away my old fruits magazines and journals and I hopped on the phone so fast. He was like “I was never going to I just wanted to chat 😬” what a devious little drama queen. Love that
Some teens on Fairfax just said “those aren’t REAL margiela sms” at my tabis and I have never felt more like a mother in my life. You can’t gatekeep tabis from me I wrote the history of the shoe for your favorite retailer lmfao
i'm pretty solidly sapphic but jake johnson doesn't count because he's written by a woman and it is SO obvious he LOVES to make out. we appreciate a craftsman
i don't want to go to mastodon. i want my friends to come over to bake things with me and us not need to be on various abusive social media platforms to survive
Her family offered to take me in when my family didn’t take me being queer very well. Immediately, effortlessly. I went back home but I never will forget that. Like care was effortless to her. What a family.
I’m SICK someone recreated the atonement dress perfectly and it ISNT ME I need to lie down dramatically on a fainting couch and cry into a vintage hankie 😭😭😭😭😭😭
Age gap romance is so funny to me as a genre. It’s like…of course a woman would date a man 10 years older, have you met men?? They need more time to marinate and even then it’s embarrassing
i love my book editor. i love getting to write a book. to be told i can write at the pace i need and to keep things close to my chest rather than be encouraged to foist my traumas on the audience. it's a grand unlearning of internet writing. a true joy to experience 🥲
why does annie leibovitz keep taking photographs of black women as if she herself is being held against her will and must take photographs with tinfoil and a lighter in order to provide proof of life
when you forgive yourself for knowing your taste and your skill aren't in sync yet, and that all you can do for either is to practice, things go a lot easier. it doesn't have to be good yet. you just need to know where it's headed, and have faith you'll get there eventually
Revising something you’ve spent like a decade working on is so weird. You’re basically having dinner with all your past selves and trying not to be embarrassed by the conversation
Half the places I’ve ever written for are dead and I’m not even 30 yet. Writing is but a sand castle of words and ego. Godspeed to all who enter the arena
I just think it’s wild that sometimes you can love someone so much you just stare into space praying people know how to drive so they don’t get hurt when they’re away from you. You can just be doing dishes and start praying. Obscene
when you turn thirty the universe should gift you $10,000 for the therapy and trauma-oriented bodywork you will need to survive yourself for the following year
truly comical how health insurance is supposed to cover covid testing but it just means covid test places bill 3X the cost of what insurance will cover so i'm getting bills for $700-900 FOR A TEST. THAT SHOULD BE FREE.
i actually hugely appreciate people sharing their bad EEAAO opinions on this site because it makes unfollowing people effortless and guilt free. farewell bitter bitches with bad taste :)
i deeply love wandering around a city i know so well that i don't need a map, knowing exactly what to order at every restaurant, if it's cash only, what time is the best time to get fresh pastry or rice noodles with the grandmas. an orchestra of earned wisdom, what a delight
I am having a hard time sleeping so lately I’ve been giving up at 6am, making myself a gorgeous elaborate breakfast in the dark, by candlelight, and then going back to sleep like it was all a fever dream
it's 2022 why are brands still packaging vitamin c serums in clear glass dropper bottles. :') should i just pour it directly into the toilet, is that what you want
i think i'm going to document my outfits for my birthday week since i have literally nothing better to do. tune in for a rare chance to perceive me like it's 2014 again
Read an essay where the author was like “I don’t like earnest people” and it made me sad and also isn’t writing an essay about what you like or dislike not the most earnest thing you could do 🥹
For the people who are like “why didn’t she just go” in the comments… happy pride month please read a book on queer history 🥹💐 I wrote a children a book called queer heroes you can even pick up! Xoxo
whats a beauty product with packaging that feels legendary to you? remember when YSL's touche eclat came out, and guerlain meteorites? i feel like chinese and japanese brands go way harder on elaborate packaging
my tax refund splurge was just buying a lot of tiny objects to gift my partner as a surprise whenever i want, for weeks at a time. an arabelle advent experience. kekekekeke
i hope michelle yeoh knows many of us would die for her and she never, ever, ever, has to wait in line ever again, that all her flowers never get bugs, and the fruits she buys are the juiciest
i don't care at all about the bieber jenner gomez beef to the point of tears but i would absolutely read the entirety of the hundreds-of-pages lawsuit and counterlawsuit between the beckhams and their wedding planners
There’s not a potent enough idea of hell for where these motherfuckers belong. May they suffer a humiliating death where they witness everything they believe in fail and know all their descendants will spit on their graves. 🥰
I can’t believe I seem to be reading the one vampire series where all the vampires are heterosexual?! You telling me not ONE of these men is GAY??? After THOUSANDS OF YEARS??????????????
just wrote a lil short story where all i did was have the characters eat whatever they wanted whenever they wanted. it was fun i like being a little magician to people i made up. you get dimsum. you get some spaghetti. whatever you want baby! aren't u cute. have a snack
moving from the discovery and foundation of grief as a space of loss to a place where it is the essential ladder to joy and curiosity is so blissful man. you can live forever in ways that are surprising, if you try
i'd like to get paid a large sum of money to write a history of asian blondes. there would be graphs on politics charting the likelihood of finance boyfriends
I recognize that most young people want all their clothes to both be $20 and ethically made somehow but seeing young designers showcase at fashion weeks and their knits and custom pieces only be $400 online does not add up. You will not survive even five years 😭
I’m muting this thread so I’m not swimming in ED land all day (boundaries ❤️) but yes, ozempic parties exist, sometimes I forget not everyone knows access and beauty are the same thing to wealthy people. It’s weird! They’re more hush because the shortage but still exist, yes
Todays level of anxiety is one of the gym girlies had to give me a pep talk cause I burst into tears 😌 this world is crushing us all ☺️ If you’re handling it well the return from disassociation will break u eventually too 🥹
One of my fav neighborhood joints has a giant photo of Anthony Bourdain visiting and I just want to burst into tears every time I see it. I still miss him.
Unfortunately don’t worry darling could never live up to the conspiracy hype and drama of its press tour even if it were an Oscar contender. Needless to say I can’t wait to see it on an airplane
Was in the sea earlier today and a whale came up for air a few meters from me. Intrusive thoughts have nothing on watching a large mammal emerge from the abyss beneath you
the particular smug delight of someone borrowing a pen from u and really liking it. yes, i know, my taste is impeccable. no, you may not keep it 😌 but you can think about it the rest of the day
weed strains should have way more specific warnings like: gives you the shoppies, gives you the urge to scrub your floors, you will begin a DIY you will not finish for 3 weeks, etc
I scuffed my fav boots (McQueen babies I’ve been obsessed with for years) and my partner whipped out a a buffer and launched into leather care instructions at the airport 😭. This is fully the person for me. No doubt about it
giving how horrible dating seems to be for my heterosexual friends i am considering doing "exit-interview" monologue videos they can send to the horrible men that disappoint them that outlines why they will never go on another date with my friends. ill include graphs
LA singles take note, there is a werner herzog retrospective coming to the los feliz 3, you will definitely find your next 1-3 mediocre film boyfriends there if you'd like to catch a stray