39 on Sunday.
I don't believe it... How am I actually that old?
This year, to be frank, was shit.
Here is hoping Sunday will be the start of a cancer-free year around the sun.
#selfie
Not a bad selfie for being in constant and consistent pain post-radiation. I still look at myself and can't believe I have - but can't wait to say had - cancer.
Cancer is the fucking worst.
@MusicOfLee
We used to have sessions to read student composer works in uni orchestra and it's seriously laughable how many people had no idea what instruments couldn't do. Like helloooooo.
@rcholerton
This is also something I have contemplated. I would be so excited getting to vote for
@NicolaSturgeon
and the
@theSNP
- people who actually care about the land they govern.
Colonoscopy was a success. I feel high af ATM, lol.
But saw the surgeon and he said I have nothing to worry about it hasn't spread to my colon! Fuck yeah.
@SixofOne9
@brandonhli
@Lunens__
@Airbnb
I work front desk and for the love of god, yes, always book direct. I'd be here all day listing why but mainly because you are not out priority for anything hotel related if you book Expedia etc. And it's rarely the cheaper option.
@beejangles
Met a guy in the city for lunch, afterwards went shopping at Burberry (his choice, not mine) and proceeded to text me for an hour (by accident) bitching about me and how I made him spend all this money. And then tried to backtracked when I was like wtf?
@ElleRows
@Bhytes1
when we are asked at like 5 years old "is she your girlfriend", when you're in high school "why don't you have a girlfriend? what's wrong with you?" or you do anything odd and your peers tell you to not be so gay- the teacher with a pride flag really isn't the fucking issue.
@MusicOfLee
We also had a program when I was an orchestra librarian where the music arrived and everyone went "wtf" - spent weeks getting it re-arranged (by someone else) - what a nightmare!
Apartment application has been submitted. please cross all fingers and toes for me. I really want this place, and considering the shit hand I've been dealt lately... everything is falling into place. Please send Good vibes.
As I was standing in the shower this morning, now let's be honest it was this afternoon... I was wondering why I felt weird. I have no pain today. like none whatsoever.
Selfie From while I was waiting for the proctologist.
He has scheduled an urgent colonoscopy as the PET scan shows their also might be ... I... I just can't say it.
What is happening? This is so fucked up.
So today. Had a chest x-ray I didn't know about. My amazing nurse had the idea that I try to get to the wheelchair without any help. I fucking did it. and I did the x-ray stuff without any help. What a fucking good Easter. Then
So my radiation oncologist told me the last time I saw her, that I need to lay in bed with a fan in my crotch. She said I could use a hair dryer instead. No. That makes it feel even weirder...
*I whisper to myself repeatedly* It's nearly over
*As I position the fan in my crotch*
Quick general update.. had pneumonia, went to the ER, collapsed, Changed hospitals, had a bronch scope, was in ICU for a few days. Have changed Hospitals again to get better and for physio on my legs b/c bedridden. Scary but I am alive.
#ilovenurses
The effects of radiation seem to be starting to appear... This is the bit I've honestly been dreading and have been in denial over. Pardon me while I have a good cry and get that out of my system.
I feel better about yesterday, saw a copy of the report and he says I am a "pleasant patient" and my "bowel prep was excellent".
I had a nightmare the night prior that was polar opposite all of this.
Lol
They told me I could ring the bell today after my injection, but I declined as I am not done treatment. Also, I only had two days of chemo injections so it's a bit weird (in my brain anyways) to do that. My goal is the radiation gong. Can't. Wait.
Oncologist this morning (e-visit) is done. I see the surgeon on 19 Jan. Biopsy for my lymph nodes is next week. Please please please come back with nothing. I just want to have surgery and then be done with this on a 'keep an eye on it" basis
To buy or not to buy? That's not a question I am asking myself as I am buying this awesome white shirt. White is a super dangerous colour for me as I spill everything on myself when I wear it.
So much good news this morning: don't need surgery. I can keep my car (so happy about this). I can start putting weight on my leg. Start weening off the crutches. Will need to star physio.
Bloodwork. I hope this shows an improvement... Otherwise, I am not really sure what will happen.
That sounds super ominous, but I am more than a little worried about what the results'll be.