@Sillygoofes
When the hyperfixation gets so bad you constantly think of it anywhere and everywhere, daydreaming about it at school, start picking up characters style/how they do their hair or smth, only ever talk/post about the media you’re hyperfixating on, etc.
Hello, for those of you who don’t I’m Vee. I’m one of two victims of Ash/Degrad3d. I’m here to share my experiences and such with Ash and give perspective.
@whatabugh
This is THE worst take I’ve ever seen. Yes, some people may do it for attention, but that’s still a cry for help??? Self harm can be from numerous different things, no one’s life is the same.
Imagine trying to use BPD and such as an excuse for predatory actions then thinking adding “but I will not use that as an excuse for what I did” will make it NOT an excuse. 💀
Okay… but what if I wrote a band AU with Kelly being the one to bring them together? We always see writings of Nicole kinda being the lead/main focus, but what about KELLY? 👀
People always talk about Nicole having insomnia, but what about Jecka? Didn’t she say something about needing sleeping pills at one point in one of the games? I like to imagine that when neither of them can sleep they just stay up and talk, getting progressively more unhinged.
Being visible with my gf for all the lesbians who couldn't in the past and for those who still can't. Gonna be loud and proud about it. I LOVEEEE MY GIRLFRIEND. <33
I knew Prometta was extremely reliant on me, calling me his only friend and saying I was the only person he could really go to. He went as far as saying I saved his life and such. (which is alot to put on someone, much less a child when you’re an adult.)
I’m gonna keep this short and sweet because reading this alone is a fucking waste of my time and energy… I hate you. I hope you fucking die in a fire you waste of space. You had no chance at redemption from the very start. Goodbye, see you in hell bitch.
“If she uses that thing to kill herself, I’m gonna haunt you for the rest of your life.”
“Fuck you, bitch. I’m trying to keep her ass alive for you. ”
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@Degrad3d
’s Apocalypse AU!!)
Yo, I’m Vee. Never thought I’d be making a thread like this so soon but here we are.
For some context, I’ve been struggling with extreme apathy lately. Prometta knew this. He was one of the first people I opened up to about the issue, which at first he was there to support.
@jeckoIeism
What is the shame in being like “I’m bi!” If you’re a lesbian and like a trans guy…. I don’t think your a lesbian honey 😭 (coming FROM a lesbian.)
Ash and I met through the fics she wrote. Her writing has been seen by many, and has inspired people, including myself. Ash inspired me to start writing, to branch out, and to form my own writing style.
This got to me significantly and this comment of me being a sociopathic abuser and how Max expected to endure the same abuse caused me to spiral. Apparently, he found this amusing and messaged Max. (so much for ME getting amusement out of peoples suffering).
He also brought up the woman that groomed me, using it to prove that our friendship was real because I trusted him enough to come to him about the issue. However later in the argument this is what he said.
From these comments, we moved to Twitter. It started out as her serving as a mentor to me. I learned stuff from her, and looked up to her a lot. After a while, it moved to Instagram.
Because of this emotional reliance, I pulled away a bit. Shortly after, I began experiencing the apathy, and pulled away almost entirely. Apparently, because of my newfound apathy, he was scared I was going to kill myself.
After bringing up Ashley, he later made a point to bring up my current relationship. He made a point to call me a sociopathic abuser due to my apathy and inability to care about alot of things in situations.
This caused him to lose sleep, lose his appetite, and apparently lose his happiness. All of which he later used against me to guilt me and make me feel bad in an argument. He also used this to gain pity from others.
Recently, we had an argument. In the argument we had, a lot of stuff went down. A lot of different things were said. I will admit I didn’t handle the situation the best I could have. However, I was not the only person affected by this argument.
He then started getting pretty aggressive with me, saying stuff about how I wasn’t “tough” because I wouldn’t be able to win in a fight. Saying how I wouldn’t last a second in the real world with the attitude/outlook I had on feelings and “acting tough”.
What fucks with me more is she told me she’d never do anything like that after I opened up about my trauma with my ex. She KNOWS I hate being vulnerable and still did this shit. Fuck her.
I only decided to have the conversation with him because he told me he was sober, which I asked him in the very beginning. Later, he told me he was not.
Just because it’s the last day of the strike for Palestine does not mean you should stop talking about them. Do not stop tweeting about Palestine and other places in need. Do not stop sharing threads and speaking for those who can’t. No one is free until everyone is free.
In a recent argument that was the final nail in the coffin between us, he used everything I trusted him with against me. My relationship, my suicidal thoughts, etc.
I told him various times that I felt as if he had the wrong idea about me over the couple months we’ve gotten to know each other. He was very persistent in saying he knows who I am and that this apathy is unlike me.
Are you guys sick and tired of adults in the co09 fandom being absolutely incompetent in functioning like a normal human being? Because SO AM I guys this is the THIRD FUCKING TIME
Prometta, you seemed like a nice guy. But then I find out you're a Nice Guy so now You make me sick
It was a learning experience. A brutal one, but an experience to learn from. Don’t trust everyone you meet online. Please, be careful with what you trust them with, especially if they are adults.
“No, I think I got the name!” She exclaimed excitedly, her eyes even widening as she sat up fully, almost practically standing. “What do you guys think of Sounds of Sabotage?”
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@Degrad3d
’s Band AU that I’m fucking obsessed with.)
I relapsed to pleasure her on multiple occasions. We engaged in very vivid and descriptive sexual conversations. Five days ago now, I sent explicit photos in a group chat the three of us shared.
She enjoyed every moment of it. I have screenshots of messages that will be at the end of this thread, however if you’ve seen other threads, such as @/Memeframe_01’s I’m sure you’re aware of them, but I’m adding a few more.
@jeckoIeism
She literally despises men, calls Emily hot on multiple occasions (and I think Jecka too?) says “what’s gayer? Wanting to be with a girl, or wanting her to have s3x with your dead body?” HER LINES W/ PRINCIPAL LYNN? AND her VA reading twitter comments and saying “any girl who-
Some time later, Ash, Max, and I were in a very messy situationship. She looked to us for various different things. She relied on us a lot. It was insanely inappropriate for her to do. It elevated even more after this, specifically the sexual things.
On Instagram, we got closer. Once we got closer, a lot of sexual things started to happen. Due to past traumas and experiences, I sexualized myself for her. I felt like that was the only thing I could do so I didn’t get left by someone I cared for.
“I’m so glad I’m out of school for summer! Finally time to write fics! Highschool sucks 🙄” -I say as I haven’t written a word for any fics I’ve planned in the week I’ve been off of school??? 🤦♂️🤦♂️🤦♂️
@nomix_xx
El oh el, yeah. Guys, please please be careful. Please. If you feel unsafe with ANYONE or anyone is disrespecting you and your boundaries, speak out about it. The real ones will stick around to defend you. Promise.
MOOTS DO IT!! ^^
name: Vee
height: 154cm
star sign: Virgo
nickname/s: Anything is fine
age: 15
siblings: 2
relationship status: Taken by wife
crushing on: My wife, duh
pets: 1 cat, 2 dogs
fav season: Autumn
fav color: Blue and Red?
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These lyrics are too real💪
It’s normal to feel this way after situations like this. Just know that if you’ve experienced something similar, you aren’t alone 🫂💕 no matter how long ago, no matter how close you were, no matter how aware you were or not, it isn’t your fault. <3
@Memeframe_01
Perfectly said Skye. I regret more than anything not tearing her a new one, but I had to be mature for the sake of the situation 😊 thanks for this. <3
@Pprincthesecond
Why am I just now seeing this oml… ilysm :(( you’re so amazing. You’re the one good thing I got out of this shitty situation. I’m so glad to know you, and know that we can both get through this situation together.
“She gently cupped Megan’s cheek. Using the last of her energy to silently mouth three words to Megan while she grazed her thumb along Megan’s cheek.
I love you …”
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@Degrad3d
‘s Apocalypse AU 💕)
@Pprincthesecond
I’m so proud of you for speaking up about this, especially so soon after the fact. It’ll be okay. We’re gonna be okay. REALLY okay. Without ash, without her creepy bullshit. We’ll have a place we’re both safe. I promise you. I’ll always be here for you, always. I love you <33
It’s over for you guys when I make poet Ari angst. Let’s just say… it’s worse than Nothing But Poison. No, I will not be uploading it until it’s finished. No, I will not be sneak peeking… good luck 🩷