After surgery yesterday I came home tired to nap then started caughing blood clots and I was uncontrollably bleeding into a black bucket in the car back to another hospital to get some clots re cauterized I feel like shit but at least I'm home now and am resting just an update :/
I don't know what the drama is about man be happy the rust devs have worked their butts off and this is a way to get a lot of great exposure to a game we all love just chill get free skins and have fun :)
right after ending stream i peter panned an ak guy from my roof with a pipe LOL then he said hes coming with his clan to raid me... anyways heres what their shit looks like in my inventory :D
i love all my friends and everyone ive formed a relationship with i just want all of you to know you are all in my heart and i appreciate you and you've made me better as a person thank you
Sometimes you are gonna feel like shit, but it's important to understand that it's ok to feel like this sometimes it's like your brains stuck in some rush hour traffic you'll be home again soon it just takes time don't worry about the small shit just keep driving
unfortunately Noelle the dog we got from the shelter was starting to show signs of aggression and needs a lot more space than we have in our apartment because of the aggression etc we are very sad that we had to return her today but im sure she'll find a suitable home fast :'(
I got a tube in my right lung and it feels like someone's fucking my rib cage with a pencil and I have to stay for a day or 2 BUT I MIGHT LIVE STREAM IT HAHAHAHA
Today is me and Mariah's 3rd year anniversary and tomorrow we are going to celebrate my little sister's birthday so no stream till wednesday see you then! :)
This new rust patch makes me sad roleplayer outpost with no pvp aloud and scooba gear npc's raiding you if your base gets to big lol I miss 2016 rust where you could hit a barrel get a gun and make a play or even find rockets they are taking away the RNG excitement of the game :(
The fact people count on me for daily entertainment and also am able to help make people happy when their sad means the world to me I love you nerds even if you hate me for no reason kiss kiss little kiss big hug little hug big kiss little hug thank you your welcome ((<3))
making mistakes and failing is the only way we can learn we are not robots we all have our own problems nobody is perfect and all we can do is learn how to get better over time and love ourselves for who we are
I'm crouching about a foot lower just so my head fits in the mirror and this sink is so short I felt like I was gonna break my back and maze runner 3 wasn't that good :/
i try to stay as positive as i can but im feeling worse and worse its like every day im just waiting for the panic attacks to start and i cant control anything so if i dont stream tomorrow its just because i need to try and clear my head ill cya guys later
Going for my morning walk and I was thinking maybe in the future before my actual gaming stream maybe I could do a walking irl stream what do you guys think?
Past failures drive me to become better I will never stop learning and my future failures will only grow the flame Inside me to become better I wish I knew everything but im only human and nobody's perfect never give up you idiots believe in yourself itll all workout in the end
I'm so excited for the future I cant wait to do standup and improv comedy I'm scared which is a good sign nothing good in life comes easy except your life because we all came out a cock anyways I love you all and I apreciate everything in life God bless AYYYMEN
People always are shocked at how I crack jokes about my dad being dead, but comedy is a sad man's therapy and it's my way of coping with it my dad wasn't perfect, but who is I miss him but I'll keep joking because it's who I am
It's so cool to me to see how many different people from so many different places and so many different ages follow me and enjoy my content YOU FUCKERS ARE AWESOME THANKS FOR BEING GODS WITH ME HEHEHEH <3
Sometimes things happen that are out of your control but thats OK successful people are always the ones that can roll with the punches in the most uncomfortable situations and learn from their past mistakes and move forward
sitting in a puddle of self pity wont get you anywhere in life WE ALL HAVE HIGHS AND LOWS if your waiting for the motivation to make a positive change you've already failed... you have to ask yourself are you who you want to be? if not make a change and be your own motivation
When I wakeup tired but I know I can't go back to sleep or I'll FUCK my sleep schedule I pretend I'm a rocket and count down from 5 and the at 1 i fly out of my bed like Peter pan
Thanks to the (())s who massively support me and also met me at
@twitchcon
hungout with some really cool people if you took a picture with me tweet @ me id love to see em :) be back streaming soon