Unfortunately I don’t get over things quickly , especially things that have hurt me deeply. Those wounds simply don’t heal as fast as I’d like them to.
It's been 2 hours since we got the news that my father passed away and it still feels unreal. It's so unfair.
Rest easy, my King. Thank you for everything 🕊 🕯️❤️🙏🏽.
This season of my life has completely humbled me. I feel like all my efforts are in vain. I’m trying so hard but I know things will come together eventually, they have to. I won’t give up. 👍🏾
I’m moving to Cape Town for Accounting purposes but deep down in my heart , I suspect the greater purpose is for me to explore the food market & culture more than anything. Growth and expansion 😍 can’t wait for the learning experience 🤍
- Moved to a new city and started a new job.
- Started therapy and finished all my sessions.
- Got my driver’s license.
- Registered my NPO
- In essence , I started living intentionally for the first time in 2 years. 🌸
Ever since I’ve stopped being the initiator friend , I’ve lost contact with so many people. You don’t check up on me, you don’t show up for me and that’s all because I’ve stopped doing it. It sucks but oh well.
I really want to learn how to be a better friend. Present and intentional 🌱. Distance & time remain my biggest struggles but I would like to work on it.
It really just dawned on me that I work for the second largest professional services firm in the world, one of the big four Accounting firms. Guys, re tsene. What a win 😭
I’m dedicating this whole year to myself. Taking care of myself , loving myself , healing , learning , going out more , connecting with people and just giving myself the full experience because I’m so deserving 🥺 ✨
People moving into their new apartments , getting new jobs and cars. I love it. I love that there’s some bit of restoration and hope in the midst of this chaos ✨🙏.
Got a phonecall from one of the managers in my group and guys, I really am a big deal. It must be grace to have an impact on people who have not even known me for 6 months. The recognition is unreal. Everyone shares the same sentiments about me and that's just a blessing.
The next 7 months of my life are crucial. I need to lock in today.
Psalm 18:2 “The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.”
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My father’s death really changed me. I pretended like it didn’t , a part of me actually continued to live like it didn’t happen. Grief has honestly been something that I’ve never been able to make sense of but I’m ready to process it.
I honestly need the last quarter of this year to bring massive & positive change in my life. I feel like I’ve been putting in all this work and it needs to pay off somehow. I’m exhausted.