I know y'all been waiting for this (okay, maybe just me), but my TEDx talk, "Learning from One Another: Lessons in (Educational) Excellence" on the importance of humanizing pedagogies is finally out on TEDx youtube. Check it out here:
My therapist today had a beautiful reframe, "What if instead of asking if we've done enough to deserve rest, we ask whether we've rested enough to do the things we're committed to in a loving and sustainable way?"
Update: I woke up in the middle of the night and saw a message from my sister. As expected, it’s been absolutely brutal. They shot into her house. And are in her street. The military is shooting randomly at any sign of life, trying to scare people into the streets 1/
Hi, I just wanted to let folks know that in light of Monterey Park and now Half Moon Bay, I am really not okay. I don't really want to talk about it & if you see me IRL, I will probably seem okay because I am surviving the way I've done for a very long time. 1/
My heart is for my family and the
#Burmese
people. We and they need your prayers and there needs to be international pressure to stop the continuing human rights violations in
#Burma
#Myanmar
This is not an internal affair.
#March27Coup
@BadiaAhad
I'm so sorry, Badia. Sending love. I have a whole thread about my experience w/ this during my doctoral students' defense last week. He started a petition to Zoom to take greater responsibility for protecting its users. Sharing here in case it's helpful:
As of a couple of hours ago over 150 have died just today. I’m sure it’s more now. Please continue to pray for her and her mom, the people and the country as they undergo this terrible violence and humanitarian crisis. 3/
In the streets, they will be arrested, shot or killed. My sister said someone in her neighborhood was killed and two of her friends were arrested. She is still safe but they are lying on the floor to avoid being seen because the military is still outside in the street. 😢 2/
Work is an addiction that will literally kill you. We are all replaceable to institutions, but not to those who love us. Reminding myself because I need to hear it.
For now, the military has left her street but they warned that they will be back at midnight. At that point, the Internet will be cut off and she won’t be able to give me updates. They have prepared for an emergency as they fear the military will go house-by-house shooting. 4/
Another article on the “Day of Shame” and the mass killings by the military. The number of dead is in unverified and likely underreported, given what my sister is saying about how they are collecting the bodies of victims: 7/
They cannot leave the house as the military has said that anyone in the streets between 7pm and 5am will be shot. Their only option is to stay at home with the door locked & hope for the best, listening outside for when the military leaves. 5/
Let me share some data with you on teachers & mental/ physical health. This is data from a recent study (2022) that I conducted of nearly 1000 (N=981) educators & former educators in the US. 🧵 (Please cite this thread if you cite this data) 1/
Hi Friends, I have an announcement to make:
Beginning January 1, 2024, I will be the Boeing Endowed Professor of Teacher Education at the University of Washington (Seattle)
1/
Update: My family made it through the night, but the terror is so real. The images from Yangon are horrific. There must be an end to this brutal military regime and its attack on human rights.
My sister is safe! She's out. Thank God.
And I know there are so many others that don't have the option to get out loved ones, and I can now go back to advocating more openly, but friends, I am just right now so thankful.
Omg, my 6yo’s kindergarten teacher is doing a lesson & facilitating conversation w/ the kids on anti-Asian racism and I am 😭😭😭listening to this. I cannot even tell you how much this means to me as an (
#AsianAmerican
) parent & educator.
Update on my sister in Burma: Please keep praying 🙏🏽 Military shot citizens just outside their home. While they were talking w/ our dad (by phone in Thailand), line was cut. I have not heard from them or seen posts in 24 hours despite reaching out. Stomach & heart in knots.
If you pray, please continue to lift up my sister and her mother, in Burma. Got an update today, but it's hard to get communication out bc wifi is so spotty. Situation is still dire. And pray for me too. This week has been a lot. Thank you.
Those who love me can help by making sure I'm eating, drinking, resting and by holding space for me & showing grace. It is a hard personal grief time as well as holding these collective tragedies. I'll reach out to my close circle when I'm ready. Thanks. /2
Well Friends, Here's my happy Friday news! It's official!
@FlipProf
& I have been awarded a Spencer grant to fund our project "Moments & Movements: Challenging Asian American Invisibility in Racial Justice in K-12 Education Conference" 1/
I sometimes find it "funny" (like I'm laughing to avoid crying) how people outside of education think that curriculum development seems "pretty easy." I mean, you just read the kids a book and ask them if they have any questions, right? 😅
Hi Friends, small (big) professional news: I am the 2023 recipient of the
@AERADivisionK
Mid-Career Award. Deeply grateful to the awards committee, to
@deckman_sherry
for the nomination & to Roland Sintos Coloma for his letter of support. 💜
I want to be 100% clear that being pro-Palestinian ≠ being Antisemitic or taking away from the suffering Jewish people have experienced. Anyone trying to conflate the two and take away from the current and ongoing persecution of the Palestinian people is sealioning.
I'm going to keep living my life & doing my thing, but let me tell you, between worry for my sister, her mom, and myself, it is exhausting, heartbreaking, frightening living in my skin right now.
Check on your Asian (American) women friends.
Hi, Friends. I'll be writing on this, but in the interest of sharing findings in publicly accessible ways, particularly w/ the generous educators who participated in our research study on teacher experiences, a thread 🧵on physical/mental health taxation of teachers 1/
Update: I just got a message from my sister. It may be my last for some time. She reports they are cutting all Internet tomorrow. It has already been very bad the last few days. So now, we wait, advocate & pray on this side
#Myanmar
If you pray or if you have extra energy that you could send my way today, I’d appreciate it. I didn’t sleep well last night bc I am grieving my friend’s death, it’s my daughter’s 1st day of (online) K & I have 4 hours of PD to give today. I am exhausted & heavy hearted.
When we talk about the "teacher crisis," we must begin talking about dehumanizing conditions our teachers are facing. These findings are emergent, compelling, undeniable. They are heartbreaking and relatable. And this short thread is just a very brief summary of the data.
Hi Friends, so now that it's official, just letting you all know that I will be serving as the Teacher Education Department Chair for the 2022-23 AY. Grateful for the trust of my colleagues to lead during this pivotal time for the
@CSULBCED
💛🖤
Hopping on to share this anonymous quote from a teacher participant in my study: "The last two years have made it abundantly clear that my district doesn't really care if we live or die and that we are cogs in the machine. 1/
We cannot keep demanding more from individual teachers, blaming them for systemic failings of students, families & communities, and/or making them into superhuman saviors. Teachers are human. Education is experiencing a crisis of dehumanization. 6/
Negative PCR on Wednesday. Very clear positive rapid test today. 😭😭😭Hoping 6 & partner stay okay. 15 better. I feel not great. Thanks for tuning in to my daily update.
It's my 1st book unboxing video EVER! I'm so grateful to my partner-in-(academic) crime
@jungkimphd
to working on this project w/ me. E-books/hardback out tomorrow. Routledge has a Black Friday sale going so it's 30% off:
Last thought for the day because I’ve been up 19.5 hours and need to sleep. It costs NOTHING to show grace to someone who is struggling & you may not know who is struggling so show grace to everyone, particularly if you DO KNOW that they’re in the middle of a family crisis.
Friends, I am back on very briefly because I need support.
I am feeling so deeply helpless right now. I need encouragement. Will you tell me how I have touched your life? Why you are connected to me & my humanity. Or drop encouraging gifs.
Texts & DMs from mutual also good.
These words from
@AlexSVenet
speaking to my soul tonight: "Schools need to change so that children and adults can bring their whole selves w/ them. What is more, schools need to be places that increase our personal & community wellness, not deplete it"
If you are a US teacher or former teacher willing to take a 20-30 minute research survey on your personal/ professional identity, experiences in teaching & thoughts about current/ future teaching, I would appreciate it so much:
Just got news from our dad that my sister checked in for her flight from Bangkok. She'll have a stopover in Singapore and then be on her way to us. By this time tomorrow, I will either be waiting for her to clear customs or be crying tears of joy and relief.
Hey y'all,
@jungkimphd
& I are excited to announce that we have a book contract & our book examining Asian American teachers' experiences through an Asian Critical Theory (AsianCrit) lens will (hopefully) be coming out in 2021!
My uncle died today in China. I have a complicated relationship with the men of that generation in my family, but he had a lot of affection for me as a child & an adult. As today comes to a close, I'm feeling the loss deeply.
200+ Palestinians were wounded on Friday night when Israeli police fired rubber bullets at the Al-Aqsa mosque in occupied East Jerusalem. At least 1 lost an eye.
"They are throwing bombs at the Muslim worshippers."
Palestinians are protesting planned evictions of 30+ families.
This is happening tonight at the
@AERADivisionK
business meeting 😭😭😭. So very grateful to the award committee, my nominators, my community & my family. I still really can't believe it sometimes.
#AERA23
Okay, friends, can I tell you that I am teary because I am sharing clothes with my little sister and we had never met before last night, but she is really, REALLY my sister and I just feel so incredibly lucky and I just love her so much. 😭😭😭
My sister was able to post something on social media. I still haven't heard directly from her, but she and her mom are alive which is some measure of comfort. Thank you all for your prayers for us. I am grateful. Please continue praying.
We have to start by acknowledging what is and we have to stop (as educators in any capacity) blaming people for their humanity and trying to take a break before reaching their breaking point. A broken system breaks people. /8
#AERA21
friends, listen. Y'all know I've been going through a lot & you probably have too. So, if I can't show my screen or if no one shows up to my session or if things aren't academically perfect, let's just show grace, roll with it and have a convo about our work.
In case this is helpful, I wrote a practitioner piece on making & holding space following collective trauma for educators & teacher educators (that I forgot about until
@dphelps1113
reminded me last night). It is available here:
Friends, I need your prayers and support for the people of Burma. My sister and her mother are 1 street away from the violence today. Right now, they are alright but this is terrifying. She can hear the gun shots and yelling from her home. Please pray, amplify, advocate.
If You Really Want to Make a Difference in Black Lives, Change How You Teach White Kids “...Because that’s where the problem is—with White children being raised from infancy to violate Black bodies with no remorse or accountability.”
I’m going to need you all to pray for me. Today in therapy, I realized that my whole life has been about honoring everyone else’s wants and needs over my own. 1/
We can hold space for immense gratitude and the mourning of indigenous friends, family and communities.
Today is complex, celebrated on occupied land, in a year when we have so much to mourn, and also so much to be grateful for.
Sending you love & gratitude this morning.
Health Update: Biopsy results posted early. No evidence of cancer. Nodules are benign. Yearly ultrasounds to monitor nodule growth. Thank you for those here who held me up this week, esp.
@WhitneeGarrett
💛🌻
I was in a serious car accident this morning. I will be okay, but I won’t be posting for a minute. Still planning to be at the conferences and do the things & advocate offline. Prayers appreciated.
I am appalled sometimes at the absolute lack of respect that people have for the very real and important work that I do. Teaching & teacher education = professional work that requires my full attention which means I can’t “step away” for 15 minutes to attend a volunteer meeting.
Hi Friends, so my former student died in a way not especially dissimilar to the way my mother died. Trying my very best to stay in my body & present, but this is really a lot. Covet your good energy & prayers. It's really a lot.
1st time in 13 months that I am dressed up & ready to go somewhere (to my faith community’s Easter service) & clearly my selfie game is slipping, but I love this dress and am sharing this to document the sheer length of my hair before I put it up 😂🤣
Hello Friends, today my
#31DaysIBPOC
#blogpost
drops & I'm dropping it here too. This was the hardest piece I've ever written, but it is also the most human. Humanity is often borne of suffering others don't see. I don't want to be in the shadows anymore:
Update: I was literally in the middle of my update on my family in
#Myanmar
when a message came in from them. It's the 1st I've been able to have a chat conversation with them in 4 days. Thank you for your prayers. I really needed to know they were okay & was so worried.
Do not EVER take my trauma and grief & turn it into a platform for your anti-Blackness. That's gross and traumatizing in another way. My safety is grounded in solidarity, community and structural equality. We have to take care of one another.
Looking over teacher candidates' lesson plans & it occurs to me how deeply socialized we are to see students through deficit lenses. It makes me so sad bc I am a broken record about asset-based framing & affirming who students are & what they bring to classrooms 1/
For those of you following along w/ the concern I raised to 15's English teacher regarding a lack of ethnic diversity in the curriculum, I put together this list of titles which I thought I'd share here too, in case folx are interested:
Almost 3/4 of survey participants cited multiple, competing demands placed on teachers as a factor contributing to challenging working conditions; nearly 2/3 cited lack of respect for teacher professionalism. 2/
"I am reminded that rest is resistance in a culture that is built upon exploitive over-productivity.
I am reminded that I want to live a joyful life, and that a life that has no room has no joy." 1/
How do we transform educational systems in ways that honor & acknowledge the humanity of students, families, communities, and educators? How do we work in coalition to support the greater development & sustainability of our world, our work, and education as a field? 7/
Okay, Friends, going to try another blog post tweet to see if it is the algorithm. If you see this, even if you don't want to read my Fathers Day post, can you just let me know? Thanks. Thread ahead 1/
Cell phone set up 📱, welcome sign made, snacks packed in case she's hungry when she clears customs. Just 7 more hours until my sister's plane lands 🛬...
People have all these ideas about what education SHOULD BE but rarely talk to teachers about what they're already doing or what challenges they face."
This is the overwhelming message from my data. We have to do better for our teachers & students.
Well, it’s now been a full week since I responded to
@gofundme
’s review request. I still do not have access to the funds for my sister. She arrives Sunday. I honestly don’t know what else to do.
As this most unusual spring semester ends, with incredible gratitude to
#EDSE457
&
@CSULBCED
, I am ready to share that I have accepted a new position. Beginning Fall 2020, I will be the Director of Teacher Education & Professor of Education
@LaFetra_ULV
Today was our last department. The
@CSULBCED
Teacher Education Department honored me with this plaque. It’s been such an incredible (and exhausting) year of service but I am grateful to be seen by faculty that is family. 😭😭😭
Holding space for all of us for whom
#MothersDay
is a challenge. While I’m blessed in so many ways, this day always tests my humanity to its limits, of joy and sorrow. This morning I woke up sobbing at 1am & in a bit I will celebrate my 6yo birthday Princess. It’s a lot. Hugs.
Oh Twitter family, this mama is about to unleash some fury about the importance of representation on an unsuspecting English teacher because this is not going to happen today.
I’m too tired to say much except that every time a school shooting happens, I feel a depth of sadness and fury that we know what to do & then don’t choose children and teachers’ lives. I’m no longer surprised just always deeply sad.