Edtwt, 22 years old, they/them.
HW: 270lbs
CW: 89.8lbs
GW: 70lbs
Height: 5'3
Please DNI if you're a minor and/or not edtwt. Thank you! Have a good day!
@die4thinspo
Still got some work to do. I didn't have a scale when I took the second pic, but I was probably in the upper 90s. Please ignore the messy backgrounds 😞
@yagamisleftnut
@die4thinspo
I was addicted to food, ESPECIALLY sugar. I was in the 160lbs range for months, had enough, then in January 2024, I cracked down on my diet. The first 1-2 weeks were HELL, but after that? Smooth sailing. Here's what I do:
@invisiwhip
@die4thinspo
I actually have A LOT of loose skin. When I bend or move, it's much more noticeable. It hurts to see, but I know that everyday is another day closer to the day I won't have it anymore. I just gotta keep going! Every day is another step! :D
@LuvBwunny
@die4thinspo
I don't mind to show my loose skin. However, when I say it's bad, I mean that it is BAD. When I bend over, it's especially noticeable. But like Ive said: everyday, I get a little bit closer to it all being gone. That lil saying makes my heart feel a lil better
Tbh, I don't think I'm as thin as those around me claim I am. I live in the fattest state. Everyone's perception of a healthy weight is shit lol. And since I'm being honest, I don't think I'm disordered. Idk I yoyo between "I may have a slight problem" and "I'm not disordered"
I love helping people. I love giving hope to people. I hope that I've accomplished both of these things as of late. I want to make the world happier. I want to make people's souls brighter, their hearts beat with more love, and I just wanna be a good person, man.
Today's Total: 978 calories
I got one of my spoons in yesterday! It's a soup spoon. I microwave a protein bar, cut small bite sized pieces off of it, put it on the spoon, dunk it in my tea, eat it, and then take a drink of the tea. Fucking perfection!
Today's Total: 997 calories
I'm addicted to cereal lol but at least two of those bowls have 22g of protein per serving. The other one has 51.3g of fiber <3
@2sexylai
@die4thinspo
Im not sure, but I do have quite a lot of loose skin round my tummy area. I'd say somewhere in the 110-130 range? It's been a bit and my memory is shit, so this may not be accurate, and I apologize for that. I'm sorry.
Today's Total: 997 calories
I wasn't planning on having the fiber one brownie, but I was still hella hungry, and I couldn't find anything else that would fit my budget. My mom walked in on me cutting it to where it would weigh out properly. She didn't say anything, but still 😰
She gave me a tour of all the food. Not much of it is in my guidelines, but I have found some. I also have more money than I thought! I think I’ll be ok. I just gotta plan carefully. Gotta be sneaky.
“Yeah, there’s no way I can do that with my legs.”
I’m sorry I had to
I know I shouldn't weigh myself during the time cuz it'll hurt my heart to see the number on the scale, but not knowing my weight is equally painful. On a good note, I already know what I'm having for breakfast AND I get to have an Epsom salt bath when I get home from work today!
@6ulimia
May 20, 2021 was when the first pic (from a video) was taken. I went from 160 in January of this year to (unofficially as of a few days ago) about 95lbs. I'll know my official weight come morning. I just ordered a scale : D I hope this was a good answer. Let me know if it wasn't.
@AthenaBody
@die4thinspo
No lol if anything, I need to do more. Theyre still bad. You can't tell because they're down and not out stretched to show the fat that they currently still have. Im planning on getting dumbbells soon to fix that.
I'm so fucking tired. I just got done with work. I can barely think rn. I want a shower and to lay in bed and watch mukbangs til I fall asleep. I can't wait to go home. I'm exhausted as hell. I'm trying not to fall asleep lol
I had a nice, long morning. Great breakfast, great YouTube vids, and I got to take my time and relax. I'm about to go to the dentist. My only 2 fears: needles + accidentally coming out to my mom due to anesthesia or whatever I'm given. Idk why, but I've been paranoid about that.
I just remeasured myself.
I'm 5'3.
Dont fucking talk to me I am in MOURNING like WHAT THE FUCK???? I WAS 5'5??? I LOST SO MUCH WEIGHT THAT I LOST INCHES OFF MY HEIGHT????? WHAT THE FUCK?????
I WAS 270LBS, 5'5, AND NOW I'M 92.2LBS, 5'3???? HOW?!
Today's Total: 911 calories
I've been having unholy cravings for beans these last 2 or so hours. I gotta rework my morning and evening routines. It's about to storm. It's been a decent day, I must say. The pic of my potatoes is fucking gold XD
Update: this. This. $1 for this. Well, $1.06 (tax). I feel younger. I want to dress fancy and cunty and dance in a gorgeous ballroom.
MY NECK. MY FUCKING NECK. THAT FUCKING STIFFNESS IS GONE. STRETCHING DIDNT DO SHIT OH MY GOD Y E S FUCK YOU PAIN.
I’m only 22. I’m so fucked.
@6ulimia
It fits my budget, research is well documented, your personal experience is a wonderful addition of information. My only concern is the possible interaction with my Wellbutrin + birth control, but I think I can avoid that if I take it 5hrs+ after my meds? Thank you for your help!
I may have a problem brewing. I'm underweight. I'm under 100lbs (w/ clothes and after eating). I have a doctor's appointment come Thursday.
I think I'm cooked. I gotta find a way to fake my weight. I can't get found out. They're also doing labs, too...fuck I think I AM cooked.
My mom has both changed for the better and the worse. She won't stfu about religion. It's given her peace and hope through her battles, which makes me happy, but the things she says sometimes kinda...kinda gets a little... questionable....
Today’s Terrible Total: 1,083 cal, 58.2g protein
I have to go to work like 3 hours early so roomie can go to the dentist tomorrow, my mom has surgery, and I’m probably not gonna get enough sleep tonight due to time.
Fuck.
I want to take the nutrition out of the food and inject it into my brain. No weight gain. No constipation. It fuels my mind. It leaks into my body. My body has fuel now. We can work and make money and daydream about our comfort characters. We have energy. We are no fatter.
768 today 😎 we are SO back.
Got 82 planned for lunch tomorrow. Idk about breakfast. The only problem with working is I have to have x amount of cal in order to function, so I can't restrict too much for too long, and i usually end up finding out how low is too low the hard way.
I'm omading breakfast to save on time today and tomorrow. I'm so tired from working so much, but it's SO worth it. My mom said I can have 2 protein bars instead of one today and tomorrow :D
I'm lowkey kinda lightheaded and brain foggy, but it just translates to skinny in my brain
Today's Total: 743 cal
I hope you all know that that's a protein bar and a protein sweet roll. Legendary Foods makes sweet rolls and pastries with good amounts of protein! The cal:protein ratio on this one wasn't great (220 cal:20g), but it was really yummy, at least!
I saw my aunt for the first time in a few years today and she asked me, point blank, if I was anorexic.
Who tf is gonna ever say yes to that question????? Like????
I feel like I'm making better progress ever since I started going to an 850 cap. I can't wait to get a scale so I can properly set a cap! And know how much I fucking actually weigh!
@Imguiltyfrl
@die4thinspo
Do I really not look like a woman anymore? Because, I hate to break it to you, but that's not an insult to me. That's one of my favorite compliments. I'm not a girl lol. I'm not gonna let your negativity mess with me. Anytime you post anything online, you'll have haters and fans.
Drink water, wear compression socks, take ibuprofen/Tylenol, soak my swollen feet in Epsom salt, and my white blood cell count is low.
I fucking lost 4 hours of work for fucking nothing.
But my heart is working fine and I have no blood clots. Yay I guess. Still lost hours :(
I wanna fast longer, restrict harder, workout like a mother fucker, but I have this thing called "work" that I gotta do to get this shit called "money" for this odd little thing called "living." Being skinny would make me feel more alive tbh. I want exercise equipment, damn it!
My mom got mad at me for eating so much oats so often :( I love my oats. Why is everyone trying to take away my safe foods???? Like you worry that I don't eat enough and then you try to scare me away from food???? Huh????
It feels like, when I think about how much of my weight is loose skin vs not, that I’m trying to find ways to say, “Some of my weight doesn’t count, so I can slack a bit!” That’s why it feels like a fat thought to me. I know it counts. Otherwise, it wouldn’t show up on the scale.
Today’s total: 994 calories, 33.7g protein
I keep having cravings and binge urges, but I’m trying super hard to be strong. Gotta be strong to be skinny. Emotions suck.
I want to lock in. Reading, exercising, information gathering. I want to stop doomscrolling and viewing certain types of social media. I want to consume content with more value. I want more sleep, more friends that share my feelings, more water. I’m dehydrated.
Today's Total: 993 calories
4 protein bars and 3 fiber one brownies, all paired with tea. I woke up feeling awful. My mom said the right side of my face was swollen.
My new job can't get uniforms for a bit, so I got temporaries. I ain't been clothes shopping in like 4 yrs. I got a set that're XS, and they're a bit big. Which is good. I like baggier clothes.
I never thought I'd see the word small, let alone next to extra, on my clothes EVER.
I found the perfectest lil spoons ever to eat with! I'm gonna order them as soon as I can! I'm so excited! I just hope they're as small as I believe they are! I checked with a tape measurer, but I'm still nervous that they won't be as small as I'd like them to be.
Today's Total: 941 calories
Those are peanuts in my oats btw. I have to go back to breakfast omad due to how my schedule is now. Transportation has changed. I gotta get up earlier now :/
Todays Total: 887 calories.
I'm having two potatoes for break today : D
I think I might take a protein bar break to save on them. I want to hoard. I decided to bake this one today. I did it too high. I'm gonna try a lower temp next time I do it. 350 ain't it, cheif.
Today's Total: 721 cal
Yes, I had 2 bowls of cereal (weighed milk seperately, then combined). No, I'm not proud of that. I love that new cereal too much + I'm too used to large breakfasts now. I hate and love this. I can fast longer that way bc it's the only time of day I eat.
I overate this morning, so I "unate." I forgot how much I missed it. I got some on the porch lol.
I dont want to fall back into that bad habit, but damn was it nice!
Today's Total: 980 calories
I hate that I'm addicted to nicotine. It's ruining my lungs. I want to workout. On the plus side, I may have someone willing to give me a free treadmill, so long as it folds up and my landlord can fetch it for me.
I want to do a 950-999 range on workdays for energy to work + still lose, but I also want to do 450-550 those days to lose faster. Ik I shouldn't because I'm getting the shakes more often now, but skinny ;_; me want skinny more than energy. Fucking hate being an adult, man.
Today’s total: 973 calories, 78.1g protein
Did NOT mean to get so much protein. I just wanted to try to make chicken salad from the Greek yogurt I got recently.
Today’s total: 785 calories, 45.7g protein
Today was stressful! Let’s make sure tomorrow is better!
*screams loud enough to break every lightbulb in a 4.2 mile radius*
Im not sure how to go about the next few days. I think I'll keep the 999 limit tomorrow, fast through the next day (teeth work), then go to a 1,099 limit on Tuesday to promote the healing of my mouth, and return to my 999 limit on Wednesday, but keeping protein high for healing.
I wanna post a comparison pic of my face when I was 270lbs vs now at 88.6lbs, but I'm scared someone will recognize me, but the fucking difference is crazy. Might do it and then delete after x amount of time?
Broccoli and green beans : D
Today: 445 cal babyyyy!
Id post pics but my camera is dog shit. I have to use my old phone for a while :/ oh well. Better than no phone!
Everyday, I see progress. Everytime I see it, be it in a mirror, be it in a picture, be it through clothing, be it through wrapping my fingers about my wrist, it all brings a smile to my face, no matter how small. Small things add up. Every little bit counts!
My fucking heart. Is going. Bananas. MyFitnessPal kicked me off (does that sometimes) but wouldn’t let me log back in. I almost screamed. I tried so many times. Wouldn’t let me log in. I’m so sick to my stomach. I’m shaking.
I reset my phone.
I was able to log in successfully.
Today's Total: 978 calories
I have an interview. I gotta be ready at 1pm for pick up. I was gonna have a nice, long morning, take my time with my food, watch YouTube, and my fucking grandpa visits out of NOWHERE for 3hrs. I'm fucking pissed. I love him, but this is bad timing!
Today’s total: 1,191 calories, 66.4g protein
Metabolism weekend! Limit is 1,200! Idk if it’s actually gonna help/if I’m doing it right tbh. That’s why we hypothesize and test! Science!
@bluecatpop
@die4thinspo
I promise you: I do. It's just not noticeable due to how I'm posed, I believe. It may be more noticeable if you zoom in and turn up your brightness just a touch, but it is, sadly but truly, there.
The battle as old as time: increasing my intake to keep up with work vs keeping it low so I know I'm burning off what I ate and more to get skinny faster.
It's Hell.
The urge to lock in super hard before I start my new job so I can be the thinnest person there increases within me each day. The only thing keeping me from it is the fear of passing out.
I know it'll just take one time of me passing out for everyone to find out.
I love the exhaustion. I’m exhausted from the exhaustion, but it’s so worth it. The exhaustion makes me happy, which unexhausts me temporarily.
Talking is hard
@6ulimia
Thank you! Your words mean a lot to me! I want to bring hope to as many people as possible! I want to spread hope as much as I can! Living like that for 20 some years was a Hell I was blind to! I want everyone to live happily in bodies they love!
I got a small ramekin for $1!
Other than that, the shopping trip sucked. I barely got to do anything and I was rushed the entire time. He always complains I’m too slow at everything I do :(
This fucking fitness tracker has lifted some invisible yet hefty ass burden off of my shoulders. I feel a lot better in some place in my mind I just can’t quite reach yet. My fingers aren’t slender enough. I need more knowledge to constrict and tone them so they can slip in.