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@OutcastBIue

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Age: 23. She/her| pro-recovery Anorexia + ARFID. Backup: @BerryBIuee Priv: @DeezCaIs

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Joined July 2020
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my villain origin story is when my coach took my body fat % in gym class and she said i was overweight but i looked like this
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@cla1r3delune she’s retired now so at least she’s not there anymore to make another student feel this way
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@aubsnubs yeahhh i look at these pictures now and realize wtf was wrong with these high school coaches
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January vs May.. finally seeing progress
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I was taking a pic of my strange looking dinner but look at the background
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tw bodycheck finally able to do this
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guess who reached their exact original gw for their bday..
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more bodychecks why are my thighs so BIG…
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@strAwbeRry_Fizi i have always been a bit on the smaller side, but at this time i had developed an eating disorder called avoidant restrictive food intake disorder (ARFID) caused by severe anxiety over adverse reactions to food
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@dreamyriotz she would also weigh the whole class and call out the numbers out loud even if someone requested a blind weight which was also messed up
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i look so bad lately idk how much fight i got left in me chat
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Not me immediately running to find the lighter.. HOWW
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@r0rysbones
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fit check. bought myself a birthday dress after work!!
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had to do a quick double take.. i made it frrl
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𓍯𓂃 。。。♡
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@0calbongwater high school was a blur
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late night bodychecks i got some new shorts today cause they were cheapp $2.98? yes pls
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bodycheck chestbones are poppin.. (this is a repost cause the auto enhance feature on iPhone sucks!!)
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evening bodychecks 🧍‍♀️
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babe we are the same bmi. i will go be fat with my husband now bye
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my hubby unknowingly bodychecks my leg like he just grabs on to it 😭 i don’t want it to be so squishy
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bodycheck i need prominent chest bones asap pls (am i imagining things or are those tiny little abs starting to show at the top)
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who knew body dysmorphia gets worse when your disorder is at its peak. i hate some of the replies im getting rn. no i am not fishing for compliments i just really hate myself. am gonna log off for a bit ✌️✌️
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had a whole ass breakdown over therapy, food, and work and now im bodychecking i hate myself smmmm. sleeping in the guest room tonight cause i made hubby upset lmaooo
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what does 2 dollars even get you nowadays. i found 2 dollars in my pocket and it’s like oh cool i have enough for.. nothing
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has anyone ever actually tasted a goo goo cluster
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lil b-day photo dump. stitch and burrito guinea pig for the win
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we got em bois
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mother.. mother please
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@il0v3st4rv1ng god i hate American healthcare. i had spinal fusion surgery and i could’ve been discharged on the 2nd day to go home but i was in the hospital 7 days instead because i refused to eat and got billed 753,166.14 from the hospital 💀
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leg bodychecks i should be sleeping but insomnia hit again🙃
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late night bodychecks before i go to sleep
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very green outfit of the day bodycheck 🌿
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morning bodycheck I’ve gained so much in the time I’ve been out here I can just feel it
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just me n my lavander scented trees
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mirror bodychecks
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bodychecks post shower n laying down to try n not pass out 😐
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🧍‍♀️ called an ED clinic in NY that offers free inpatient treatment and i have an assessment scheduled on Tuesday. y’all pls pray this works out
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oh i detest people like this frrl
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chestbones bodycheck
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todays weigh in.. new lw bmi 12.6 today
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tw bodycheck leg checking is my current obsession
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guess who tried in n out for the first time today
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when u get paid for the first time in half a year and go on a safe food grocery trip..
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it’s happening..
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arm and outfit bodychecks i hit bmi 12.5 and can barely wrap my fingers around my arm 👎👎
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bodycheck y’all i got the perfect matching socks for the sweatshirt
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happy stitch day!!
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new lw just dropped
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helppp my mom posted these pics of me as a child and then current me.. always have wanted to take pics with my animals 😭😭
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arm bodychecks
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bunch of bodycheck dumps i can’t recognize my worth outside of my body anymore and idk what to do
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i look tired af. let’s get this bread or whatever v
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little does he know im actually married 💀
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measurement bodychecks
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yawl he’s licking me??
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bodycheck finally wearing this cute sweatshirt
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the bloat after eating a normal meal is insane. i am in so much pain my heart is racing 🫡🫡
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@archcherubluci I could walk to a total of one grocery store it’s .5 of a mile away, except the sidewalk just stops?? like there’s sidewalk and then suddenly it’s road 😭😭 like wtfff. also cars don’t stop at crosswalks for pedestrians here so it’s like a game of crossy road
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in news that surprises nobody i am bery cold
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how do you guys wear claw clips without looking like a palm tree
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me feeling invalid for a second and then remembering i got to where i am eating 800+ everyday
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800 is not restricting you fucking FATTIES
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it’s taking everything in me not to snap at this person so im just gonna 🧘‍♂️
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i just weighed myself after lunch and drinking water and reached my second gw. bmi 12.3..
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bodycheck the arm worms are out again
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@lost_and_moody you say whatever and then I swear they always say “that’s not food”
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september of last year vs may of this year
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i always hold olaf when i feel upset and he will lick tears away
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from bmi 13.5 on 4/20 to bmi 12.2 in june. im just sitting here wondering how the heck that is possible because i eat way too much
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my arm used to fill out this shirt but i guess not anymore
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late night arm bodychecks
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ana belly button got me u guys...
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late night bodycheck ft my crochet
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holding my strawberry jar and it’s giving
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random bodychecks from earlier today in my camera roll
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did some stuff n things yesterday
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post work arm bodychecks
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not me taking bodychecks as soon as i got home 🧍‍♀️same pose different lighting
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.8 of a lb down. didn’t weigh myself yesterday or tuesday. last time i weighed this much i was 14 years old holy shit
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before ED vs now wait a damn minute.. i think i am almost at the same weight i was at as a 12 year old
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fit check for today’s outing. my dress has pockets 😛
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hubby sent me this pic and is like you look beautiful. im just out here wondering why do my eye bags also have eye bags
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cuddle time with my boi olaf
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fit checks for today.. my spine pops out in an odd way LMAO I had to double check
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tw bodycheck low rise jeans and hipbones yehh
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dee stop bodychecking with every item and reflective surface you see challenge.. failed. my upper arm is approximately the width of one barebell
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left arm = bad arm right arm = the good arm
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new jeans that fit without a belt?
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guys.. I GOT THE JOBBB
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leg bodychecks is there anyways to lose anymore weight to make this smaller or do i just have an unfortunate build
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