Listen y'all, one thing we are NOT going to do is pretend men can't get raped by women.
I found his video to be as insincere as many of you did, but we are not going to be that kind of community.
Cut that shit out.
If you can’t handle yourself when drinking or smoking, don’t drink or smoke.
You know how many folks I’ve smoked with over the years? Fuckin TONS and guess how many acted like creeps even after getting ultra high - just ONE.
Don’t blame this on my pal Mary Jane.
I’ve been debating on whether or not to share this, but complete honesty is something I strive for with the community so here goes:
I’m 7 weeks pregnant as of yesterday!
My story is invalid to some because it has too much detail & therefore must have been imagined.
My story is invalid to others because I don’t have enough proof.
Also got told that I must be lying bc I smoke weed & couldn’t possibly have a good memory.
Some of y’all are a mess.
Found out today that after I told her I’m pregnant, my mom called my childhood best friend to thank him again for saving my life after my suicide attempt at 15.
He literally kicked my door down to save me. So glad to know him still.
😭💜🙏🏼
The doctors did the best they could but the damage from the stroke was too severe.
My Dad passed away peacefully last night.
I’m devastated by the sudden and unexpected loss of my father but so grateful for all the time I had with him.
Thank you for all the kind messages.
Yesterday was without a doubt the best day of my life.
Alina Joy was brought into the world at 3:57pm and I have never felt happier.
She’s perfect and Alex is already the best Daddy ever.
This is so surreal still and I’m just so very grateful.
That was quite a non-apology though, and still doesn't explain why even after therapy he couldn't grasp the notion that when I said "please do not contact me again...even if it's to apologize" I fucking meant it.
He approached us just last summer at GC.
No means no. That's it.
He got banned for a transphobic slur and has learned absolutely nothing from it and his community likely won’t care.
It’s wild to watch how many streamers and celebrities seem to have realized appealing to the absolute worst base offers lucrative opportunities.
Gross.
So many of my guy friends who I met online are probably understanding now why I start off conversations by saying explicitly that I’m not interested in them and only want friendship.
Sure it’s awkward leading with that, but I’ve been burned too many times.
@DawktaJawlz
Thank you for speaking up. I was also harassed repeatedly by Lono. I'm ready to share my experiences as well, but I'll need a moment to compose my thoughts.
I don’t know how to even begin to talk about the tragic losses my family experienced yesterday.
My heart is broken in a way I never thought possible. I need time to process.
I don’t know when I’ll be back. Please pray for my family & respect our need for privacy at this time.
If your eyes have only recently been opened to the level of injustice in the world and in your community, don't beat yourself up over it.
Learn the lesson & keep moving forward.
Your guilt and shame don't serve these causes or these people.
Let it go, refocus.
You got this.
I don’t need or want any validation from anyone, believe me or don’t, I give none fucks.
Also, y’all can suck my nonexistent nuts if you think I’m gonna read your long ass threads dissecting my story when you don’t even know me.
Don’t tag me into your bs devils advocate shit.
My Dad’s services are today. Would appreciate some extra thoughts and prayers that everyone who wants to attend can do so safely.
We got hit by a bad snowstorm here and the timing couldn’t be worse.
Hoping for safe travels for our family and friends. 🙏🏼
Look y'all, I don't give a FUCK about Biden. He was not THE choice for this.
I care that a racist, white supremacist supporting, hate crime pushing, propaganda peddling, covid and science denying FOOL is going to be OUT of the highest position of power in this country.
You deserve relationships where you feel seen and heard.
You deserve relationships that leave you smiling over all the little things they do to show you they care.
You deserve healthy relationships filled with joy.
You deserve real love and compassion.
Accept nothing less.
Fake tears and entitlement. That's all I saw.
Whatever, I said what I said. Done with this.
I told y'all to draw whatever conclusions you wanted from everything I shared.
Do whatever feels right to you.
Also, the line from my post about lono that made me think he hasn't learned anything was when he said:
"They were not unwanted advances, they were jokes and flirtations that crossed a line, and when made aware of it, I immediately stopped and respect her request."
unbelievable
Saw a post of someone accusing me of "robbing him of his agency" by "sitting on my story" for 2 years.
Robbing HIM of HIS agency.
Bitch, why do you think I sat on it for so long? Because that's how *I* fucking felt.
I tried to do things "by the book" with limited options.
My mentions and my DMs are a mess, apologies if I miss anything from any of y’all. I’m doin my best to work my way through everything.
Thanks for all the messages of support.
Especially considering everything that's going on, you're really doing great.
It may not feel like it, but you're hangin in there during a hard time and that's something to be proud of yourself for.
Keep going. Keep taking good care of yourself and keep evolving.
You got this.
He didn't "deserve to be heard" simply because he didn't like my reason for telling him to leave me alone.
"I think it's fair to let me explain and apologize" - this was what he wrote back to me.
I told him to leave me alone, and he felt that was unfair so he kept pushing.
This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to experience, and I’m ready to get it off my chest.
Please don’t read this if you’re not in a good headspace to hear something traumatic.
Thank you for all the love.
My website needs some updates, but if you want additional context as to why women don't come forward, I could probably write 10 more stories like this.
I AM GOING TO FRIENDSHIP THE FUCK OUT OF YOU ALL AT GUARDIANCON SOON HOLY SHIT
ALSO I'M GETTING ALL MY FUCKING CURSING OUT NOW SINCE I BARELY FUCKING SWORE DURING THAT CHARITY STREAM AND THAT SHIT IS DAMNED CHALLENGING
FUCKING SHIT WOW FUCK BALLS AMAZING HI I LOVE YOU
For the passive aggressive folks in my mentions/dms:
Yes, I typically utilize cannabis & psychedelics for recreational & medicinal purposes. No, I’m not doing them while pregnant.
I don’t care if you’re a believer in not having kids before marriage. That’s your trip, not mine.
So...this is me without makeup. I don’t have the confidence yet to stream without it, but maybe when my skin finally improves & my brows are done growing back in. 🙈
I like my haircut though.
Cut the shit RIGHT NOW.
Quit beating yourself up over the past.
What’s done is done.
Learn the lesson & let it go.
Who you are in THIS moment matters most.
Give yourself a fuckin’ break.
Refocus.
You got this.
“I don’t care who you voted for, I’ll still fuck with you.”
Nope, not this time. This isn’t a political thing, this is human rights.
People are terrified of dying due to the gross mismanagement of a pandemic or horrific (and very racist) policies from this administration.
New broadcasters:
Please, take your chats out of follower-only mode.
I get what you're trying to do, but personally, I like to talk to people for a bit before I decide to follow.
If you're under 30 viewers with follower-only mode on, you're hurting yourself IMO.
I’m at a coffeeshop right now doin a little work, and this man who was sitting near me got up to leave.
Before he did, he stopped by me and asked if he could ask me a question.
I took my headphones out and the guy said “Do you like my pants?” very sincerely, with a shy smile.
"Your stream is dead like your sister."
Someone actually said this to me today. I don't need apologies or anything like that, I was able to shake this off easier than you'd expect.
This is why I feel we need more mental health awareness.
Please do not write in a vote for Kanye.
This is serious.
People's lives are at stake.
Please vote Biden.
Please vote for someone who believes in SCIENCE.
Please.
I’m lookin’ right at you.
I want you to know you’re a super dope human and you are loved dearly.
Now drink some water.
Sit up straight.
And quit chewin’ on those nails.
Refocus.
You got this.
I’ve spent countless hours in this (messy) space, and I’m so grateful for every moment. It’s still crazy to me that I’m 33 now and this place is where I work AND where I’ve been able to build an amazing second family.
Thank you for another amazing year & for all the bday wishes!
I keep getting messages and questions from folks asking if I'm ok.
As weird as it is to say, I am. I feel great.
I've worked really hard to make my peace with the situation over the past year especially, so I'm grateful to feel present and ready to help in any way I can.
I think you’d be happy to know that the phrases “my community thinks______” or “an idea one of my community members had was______” were heard frequently during this summit.
This wasn’t just us voicing our opinions, we all brought yours too.
I woke up like this and realized I’m 32 now! Cool cool cool.
Ready for another year of learning, failing and kicking ass.
I’m lucky to be where I am and to have all of you in my life. Thanks for making my 30’s amazing so far. 🤗
Remember S.H.A.D.E.S.
Sleep
Hydration
Air (go for a walk)
Diet
Exercise
Stillness (add some wind down time before bed, meditate, build more mindful habits)
Give yourself your best shot at feeling healthy and well balanced as we all work together to change the world.
I hope you know that I'm proud of you, and I know I'm not the only one.
You've been doing great with all the challenges you've had to face.
Keep going and continue to manifest dope shit.
Myself & some of the other women who had bad experiences with Lono had talked in the past about coming forward, but we struggled with wanting to speak out.
The conversation arose again after something we saw on Twitter & I recorded this on impulse.
I'm unfollowing anyone who RT's anything from this horrific excuse of a president.
This is not a political thing, the man is a white supremacist and I will not support anyone who spreads his insane messages.
Disgusted by folks still trying to excuse or justify his behavior.
Heartbroken and also filled with love from yet another reminder of just how special the Destiny community is.
RIP Zavala. Thanks for being an incredible part of our community.
Hi GuardianCon frens
Please don’t make me feel bad by saying “Hi, remember me?”
Just go with “Hey Snaps it’s [insert your twitch name here]” even if we’ve met before.
These events can be overwhelming already & this just adds to my anxiety.
Pls be nice 2 me am nerviss
I dare you to unfollow 5 accounts that you know only bring you down or make you angry.
Then, follow 5 new accounts related to science, music, art or whatever you’re passionate about.
Clean ya feeds. ✌🏼
Got a call from my mom that my dad is in the ER on a ventilator with a crazy heart rate and they’re not sure what happened or what’s going on.
Heading to the hospital now. Good vibes please.
We were robbed last night.
Someone broke into our home while we slept and stole our laptops, my purse & one of my cameras. They even stole our diaper bag.
I’m so shook over this. They were in our home while we slept with our baby.
I lost my older sister in March 2008.
Some days it still hurts like we just said goodbye.
Last night/this morning were rough on me for that reason. I miss her.
For the record: time doesn't heal shit. Some days are better than others but the pain of loss never stops hurting.