Thank you to everyone at
@pcgamer
for making the last 2 years rad af. I'm looking forward to taking a break from guides and entering my Malcolm Tucker era.
You're all dead to me now. Also, I have never felt more seen in my entire life ❤️
A group of women started making fun of my accent on the train to London yesterday and said I sounded like Shrek.
So I told them to get out of my swamp, which they obviously didn't like.
Super happy to announce that my third red son arrived safely yesterday. Baby and
@TheGoldhawk
are both doing well. I'm also fine and even put lippy on this morning.
Canny describe how in love I am 😻❤️
So I've got Coronavirus. I am constantly out of breath, my lungs are very sore and it's just not very fun.
But I'm back at my desk and feeling positive, in between all the coughing.
Stay inside if you can. If not, wash your hands and look after yourself.
This is my last week of Mat Leave before starting my new role, which means I finally get to announce where I'm off to!
As of Monday, I'll be the Deputy Guides Editor
@pcgamer
and I am suuuuuper excited about it 😻😻
Had my final review and got some great news to round off my birthday:
I've been completely discharged from mental health services and no longer meet the diagnostic criteria for EUPD.
Recovery IS possible. It took three years, but it was worth it.
Before, when I felt shite, I used to enjoy just being like "fuck it - pint?" any day of the week. Now I exercise, have a healthy snack and take half an hour to myself to talk to the baby, read or have a wee tea.
I would choose the pint 100/100 times, mindfulness can suck an egg.
Been sitting on this news for a while so I'm thrilled to be able to announce that I'm the new guides writer for
@VG247
as of Monday!
I'm like
@MckKirk
only smaller and angrier.
As of tomorrow, I'll be a permanent member of the
@VG247
team and I'm 100% ready to upset people on the internet.
I mean, write quality guides, news pieces and op-eds as an open-minded video game journalist with impeccable integrity.
Super chuffed to be able to say that the folk over
@VG247
have decided to let me stay as a permanent member of the team! It's been a blast so far and I'm so grateful to be working with such talented people.
Shame they've got to put up with my dulcet tones forever, though.
Genuinely can't believe that some Nintendo fans are giving them abuse because they dared to reschedule Nintendo Direct because of a literal fucking earthquake in Japan. If this is you, throw yourself in the bin and flip the lid over, would you?
Mother's Day is a very sensitive subject, so I'll keep this brief.
I never thought I'd celebrate Mother's Day - we spent years saying "maybe next year!" - and it's made me way more emotional than I thought it would.
Infertility is baws, and I am very grateful we have chonk.
Scottish games Industry folk!
Doing a thing where I want to talk to folk who either are Scottish or live in Scotland & work in the video games industry.
Please give me a follow and I'll fire you a DM.
Doesn't matter if you're a journo, games dev, HR - I want to hear from you!
After almost three years of fun, I'm leaving
@VG247
after the weekend. I'm not quite ready to reveal where I'm off to yet, so instead, I'm gonna do a shout out to the best team I've ever had the pleasure of working with.
We talk a lot about toxic masculinity but toxic soft boys are the other terrifying end of the spectrum.
If you think you're being all lovely and nice but go in a huff when a woman rejects your hugs/ doesn't give you attention, maybe re-evaluate your core beliefs.
If there's anything the industry can take away from today it's this:
Don't fucking prioritise hugging/ touching people at events over being a decent, boundary-respecting human being and don't be a CREEP.
I've had a few folk laugh like"you gonna play the switcher on the plane to Korea hahahaha" and see to be the honest, what the fuck else would you do on an 11 hour+ plane journey? Watch a shite film?
Fuck off, let me get fired into a sexy RPG and drink 20 gins in peace.
Will be doing a narrated let's play of Pokémon Shield so all you fakers can hear a real Scottish accent.
No Glasgow uni accent, no posh voice, just be shouting "GET TAE FUCK YA WEE DICK!" repeatedly.
So many of my pals, who I didn't anticipate were fans, are going to see Harry Styles at the weekend and I hope you all have a ball, you beautiful nerds.
My first video for PC Gamer went live today and one commenter said I have a lovely accent so that's me away to cry at people being nice on the internet for once
So, that's it all over! My family have been spamming my WhatsApp and Facebook all day with photos, so here's one for my Twitter pals.
The weather ended up brilliant, we had a great time partying with our nearest and dearest and I can still smell Sambuca.
It's fuckin wild to think that this time four years ago I was on benefits, slowly recovering from psychosis and anorexia, and now I'm sat here watching my silly and beautiful wee baby wriggling around in his bed.
I'm still not super well, but I'll get there eventually.
I've been nominated for two
@thegamehers
awards this year! For Top journalist of the year and Rising Star - Rising Leader!
Which is impressive considering I was on Mat Leave for most of the last year 😻✨
Found out today I've been nominated for
@GIBiz
100 Women in Games.
Can't believe some of you think me and my shouty boys are influential. Even if I don't place, I'm so proud to be nominated amongst queens.
Doug is well chuffed.
Passed my probation at work, marking 6 months since I left games journalism.
Sometimes I really miss it, other times I'm glad nobody is asking me about guides while I'm on leave, but I mostly miss being able to write the most unhinged shit.
Then again: a liveable wage!
Good news day: I finally got my ADHD diagnosis. She asked did it come as a shock and pals, it absolutely did not. It's good to feel validated that my brain really does work differently and that it's perfectly okay to do so.
I've wanted to have my words in print for years now and I've finally achieved it. Super chuffed with myself for getting that bucket list item ticked off.
Women in games? Ridiculous. Old, clunky weapons that reload super fast with easy ammo insertion? Now that's REAL historical accuracy.
Fuck off, boys of Battlefield.
Delaying sex ed until 16 is the worst fucking idea because yes, even your privately educated wee shite of a wean is probably fingering his bird when you're out at Harrods or whatever.
Tories are fuckin dedicated to destroying women in this country, clearly.
See if you're gonna growl and shoulder me at a gaming event don't fuckin expect not to be blacklisted after it.
Grow the fuck up; I canny help I'm a woman that succeeded in the industry when you didn't.
I did quite a lot of good shit this year:
👶🏼Had a baby
🎉Got a new job/promotion (while on mat leave!)
🏵️Stayed in therapy
💃Made new pals and reconnected with others
⌨️Wrote *a lot* about The Witcher
☀️Didn't end it all despite being very unwell!
📽️Presented for the first time
Talked with my psychologist about a discharge plan because she thinks I'm nearly ready to be free.
For the first time in my life, I can say that suicide doesn't feel like a valid option anymore. I'm allowed to feel, to react and will get through whatever life throws at me
First night at home was fuckin HELL but all was forgiven this morning when boy was cooing away in delight while getting wrapped in a warm towel after a bath.
Crying forever, brb.
Considering everything is in London and the UK is a much bigger place:
How would women in Scotland who work in the video game industry feel about a monthly/ bi-monthly meet up to drink, eat and talking about g a m e s.
NB: I will scream at you about Geralt, Garrus and Twitter
My psychologist this morning said that the fact I'm managing to stay in work, manage my relationships with folk, set boundaries, deal with health concerns and stay so positive and productive is something she wouldn't have been able to expect of me last year.
Is this... Recovery?
In an excellent turn of events, we got some good news about chonk and we know when he'll be yeeting himself into existence.
Can't wait to meet my genius son after eating everything in sight this Christmas. That's me happy again, AMA.