happy 2024! after taking a few months off to refresh & rejuvenate, I am officially on the job hunt. i am looking to make the transition from swe into technical program management! please reach out if you are looking for someone who can bring tech skills with a dash of whimsy! 🎉
Hi, I'm a junior software engineer. You might know me from my hits "sorry, I have a question," "sorry if this is a silly question, " "sorry if I asked this before, " and the chart topping "sorry to bother you again."
Hi, I'm a Developer Advocate. You might know me from my hits "in this tutorial", "hit me up if you have any questions", "I'll be in town next week", and the chart topping "thanks for the feedback, I'll pass it on to the team".
is there anything worse than a swe trying to flirt with you by pointing out that you do frontend and they do backend so you could make an app together 🥴
Recently, I spoke at a local meetup about my experience breaking into tech and things I did, that people can do too. The fact that I said contributing to OSS can be a great thing to do, I got flagged for breaking CoC because it was a "microagression." I am absolutely appalled.
being a software engineer doesn’t make you special, being a senior engineer doesn’t make you god. do we forget this is an occupation not a personality type?
Was nodding off and my sleep brain was visualizing a component <Ramen /> and I was debating what kind of "broth" prop I should pass in and I hate myself. Goodnight.
Dear tech industry,
Please treat junior engineers and aspiring junior engineers with respect. These are PEOPLE with families, medical needs, financial burden. This idea that juniors are cheap and replaceable sickens me, truly. TREAT PEOPLE EQUALLY YOU COWARDS.
tfw it still feels like you are battling burnout related brain fog but your pto for the holidays is coming to an end and you start to anxiously obsess over being “recharged” come next week 🥴
two years ago, i decided that i hated the direction my life was going...so I decided to do a complete life pivot. now, somehow i am working
@webflow
as a software engineer. i have experienced a new level of happiness in the past few months i never thought i deserved. wild.
as a jr swe who doesn’t live and breathe code (i wouldn’t even say it is on the top 10 list of things I enjoy), i often grapple with guilt, wishing i was driven to do more learning and side projects outside of work. it’s hard to not compare with others who seem to LOVE it.
seeing a bunch of my code school classmates purchase homes over the past couple years really shows how life changing learning to code can be. for as flawed as tech is, there is no denying how it can give people opportunities they never thought they’d be able to have.
i swear some developers forget how hard it is to land your first role. the process for me was arduous, frustrating, and incredibly disheartening. my sense of self-worth plummeted. show some kindness and empathy for developers who are going through that process during a pandemic.
Is being the most tired and busy person in the room a flex nowadays? I feel like people try to one-up each other on who is the most exhausted.
Let's not glorify burnout, friends.
MORE EXCITING NEWS ALERT!🎉 I am happy to announce I will be joining
@webflow
at the end of the month working on their design system team! In the end, I didn't have to compromise my values or integrity to get my dream role. Thank you to everyone for all the support along the way!
me when someone i respect follows me: wow okay only smart content from now on i have to look smart, don’t blow it...i am an educated queen
me five minutes later: tweets about gravy again
Below is my 1 slide on OSS. I am hurting. This is further distancing me from the Portland tech community. It makes me want to quit going to meetups and quit speaking.
the scariest people are the ones who say things with such conviction that even when they have no idea what they are talking about end up making you doubt yourself when you, in fact, know what you are talking about
Reminder that on this day in 1942 Franklin D. Roosevelt signed Executive Order 9066 which displaced over 120,000 Japanese Americans on the West Coast and put them in internment camps. We often don’t think about the lasting impact that this had on the Japanese American community.
when a company you were bullied out of posts an inspirational post about how they take mental health seriously so all employees got world mental health day off 🥴
DESIGNERS! If you have web page mockups that don't involve a lot of different pages, I will help you build it and deploy it for you so you can use it on your portfolio. No fancy functionality, but it is something you can actually link to. I need to practice for some interviews.
we don’t talk about how long-lasting the damage is when you have a bad manager. a manager can make or break you. i had a manager 4 years ago who would belittle me so much, ever since then i’ve been trying to rebuild my confidence and am terrified every time i get a new manager.
I gave a talk last week on how to be your biggest advocate so you can work more efficiently towards promotions. One thing I pushed in this talk is having a progress doc, so I wanted to share how I have organized mine and how I maintain it. Hopefully it'll help you in some way!
Ending a 9-year relationship that started in HS is so weird. This person was such a huge part of my life for a huge portion of my life. Looking at old photos is a little sad. On the flipside, I am glad we can both start living our lives as independent adults for the first time.
tbh it feels extra lonely being an asian american who lives alone in a non-diverse city like portland during times like this. aside from just self-isolating, the anti-asian, xenophobic messages flying around makes everything just a little more tough.
the fact that i can live my life and not constantly worry about finances or my future is life-changing in itself. while making >$100k doesn’t guarantee you a lavish lifestyle nowadays, the ability to live comfortably is life-changing.
Having a moment of what the fuck is my life even right now. 4 months ago I was going through one of the hardest periods of my life, and somehow I'm now in Mexico living in some sort of fantasy reality. With some of the nicest people I've ever had the chance to meet.
THIS IS TOO RELATABLE I'M UNCOMFORTABLE
"where are you from?"
"oh uhh I'm from Hawai'i"
"ahh so your parents are Hawaiian?"
"oh no, they are uh Japanese"
"not Hawaiian?? so they're from Japan?"
"oh no, they are American"
"🤔"
"so I'm a 4th gen Japanese American..."
coding isn’t exclusively for geniuses, but it’s also not easy. it’s normal to feel confused and to not understand concepts immediately. you’re basically training your brain to think in an abstract way you’ve probably never had to do before. be kind to yourself!❤️
If you aren't already, you should be using brag documents at work. If you're a manager, make one for your team. If you're IC, make one for yourself.
Then when you finish something send it to your manager and their manager.
yes, i am a well-adjusted person who turns 27 today and just stress-made a mini living room for my dog
(the painting is a portrait of him a kid painted)
Apparently I have >5k friends now following my tech journey. Many of you have been around from when I was in a coding bootcamp, witnessed my long struggle to find my first dev role, and celebrated when I finally found my perfect fit. I always wake up grateful for this community.
It's AMAZING how much working remote has helped with my mental health. While I love interacting with coworkers, I have always experienced crippling anxiety when going into an office. This definitely affected my performance in the past, and would make me feel terrible as a result.
everyday i struggle with the fact that i feel like im doing a job that doesn't use the skills that i am most proud of and that i'm not being challenged in ways that i want to be. changing careers to be a swe was purely for financial stability, and now im left feeling unfulfilled.
- always assuming "good intent" will keep you in toxic situations longer than you need to be
- you have needs and they are worth prioritizing
- you aren't actually overreacting
it's been about 4 years since i quit my last full-time job before pursuing a career change, cut to now and my salary has almost tripled. i think more than the salary, what brings me the most pride is doing a job that hs or college me would have never considered an option.
Just wanted to clarify things. The reason why I didn't directly @ the meetup is because the ppl in my community who I am warning can easily figure out who it is. But I wanted to avoid a MASS roast. I acknowledge that they help some folks in the community, just not people like me.
Cw: suicide
4 years ago I was hospitalized in a psychiatric ward because I wanted to kill myself. Today, I am the happiest I have EVER been, seriously.
Hey, you, stop for a moment and think about where you wanted to be 4 years ago and where you're now. Give yourself credit for how far you've come and pat yourself on the back for everything you've achieved along the way.
Now go on with your day & shine even brighter. ✨
white mediocrity is when i, a japanese major who lived in japan, have never and will never tell anyone i can speak japanese fluently or claim bilingual status, but a white dude who took a few classes and can say “my name is trevor” will gloat about being fluent 🙃
found out that i inspired my dad to take interest in dei efforts at his work, so today he gave a presentation for his company called Words Matter, a talk on how language matters and the dangers of making assumptions. i’m so freaking proud 😭😭
something that’s interesting is the choice of words in certain dev tools. as an example ‘git blame’ has always sounded so accusatory to me even if it’s a helpful and neutral tool. part of me wonders if these words being baked into our vocabulary contributes to toxic environments.
finally feel like i understand what white ppl exp when they go to an asian grocery store. was trying to make banana pudding and didn’t know what half the ingredients were or where to find them. like wtf is a frozen whipped topping???
Not to sound like I am being rash, but can people point me in the direction of excellent tech communities outside of Portland? One that is actually diverse and doesn't just do performance inclusion? Seriously considering moving after some of the things I have experienced here.
For me, the most frustrating kind of depression is when everything in life is going wonderfully but my heart carries this deep sadness and there is this fatigue that I can't shake. It reminds me that depression isn't just situational...it is actual brain chemistry.
s/o to all my conflict-averse people who have created a brand around being "easy going" because it's easier to ignore your own needs than to possibly stir the pot, and now you're trying to learn, as an adult, how to set boundaries and prioritize yourself 🥴
Are you a conference speaker? Are you tired of getting audience statements instead of questions after your talk? Do you wish you could somehow politely decline post-talk conversation?
Hello, I am an extrovert/bodyguard for hire. I will engage with people, so you don't have to.