@MiaCathell
I was groomed and sexually abused by a man when I was a boy. I could not read the whole article. The memories are still too painful, but healing is always possible. All I can offer the victims is my prayers.
I was not born gay. A male predator singled me out. Then, he groomed and abused me. Later, I thought to myself - I must be gay; everyone says I am. Those who stand-by silently and force an identity on an abused child are complicit enablers.
Never count anyone out. When I was a wasted gay street hustler (male prostitute) in San Francisco - almost everyone who knew me thought I was a lost cause. They'd find me dead in an alleyway one day. But Christ never abandoned me. My dad prayed for me. Pray for lost souls.
I was molested by a priest; became a would-be porn actor; gay hustler; drug addict; bondage slave; and occultist. Christ can not erase our past, but He can heal our old wounds and give us a new future. Its never too late to start over.
When I was a gay porn actor, part-time prostitute, drug addict, HIV infected, and Aliester Crowley devotee - pretty much everyone rightly thought I was a lost cause. Except Christ Jesus. He never gave up on me. And He will never abandon you.
Tomorrow morning- I will be Baptized in the Russian Orthodox Church (ROCOR) at Sts. Peter and Paul in Santa Rosa, CA. I would appreciate the prayers. Thank you.
Porn is the devil's way of grooming children. By age 11 - I was a porn addict. At 19, at was at the bathhouses. When I was 20, I was a gay hustler. A few years later, I was almost dead. Satan lied to me - through porn. Jesus saved me.
24 years - drug free and gay-sex free. Recovery and healing is always possible with God. Never let anyone or anything lock you into an addiction or an identity.
I was a Satan-worshipping, drug-addicted gay street hustler in San Francisco; and Jesus loved me when I didn't even believe in Him. Conversion and salvation are possible. Turn away from the darkness - and open your eyes to the light of Christ. 💟
Never count anyone out. No one is a lost cause. I was that freak at the rainbow-parade; I was the guy crawling on the floor with a dog mask; I was the wasted wreck passed-out on the sidewalk. In the end, I hated everyone - even myself. But God Loved me.
@thisisfoster
Prayers for everyone involved. As a survivor of suicide attempts - I know this very dark place that seems inescapable; this officer did everything right - he kept calm and showed compassion.
I often wondered why so many of my friends, who were far less wicked than me, died of AIDS, ODs, suicide, and I did not. For the most part, their families enabled them and flew the pride flag. Mine did not; and my father prayed ceaselessly for me. Maybe that made the difference.
I've often been haunted by one reality - Why did I survive the gay male community in the 1990s and so many of my friends did not? Because everyone in their lives - accepted/supported them. No one challenged them. I had that. I had a father who challenged me. And it saved my life.
Prayer, fasting, and sacrifice are not for the weak, but for warriors. Every day that I wasted as a gay man, my father prayed and sacrificed for me. Enduring all sorts of hardship and pain - on my behalf. At the time I didn't know it, but he helped to save my life.
"True Orthodox Christians have a natural sympathy for the traditionalist Roman Catholics and fundamentalist Protestants who, even in error, at least stand against the times in their faithfulness to what truth they have..." - Fr. Seraphim Rose
God loves us as we are. - Pope Francis
No. God loves us as he made us. When we're abused & corrupted by the world—we become something else. When I was a strung-out diseased gay hustler, God loved me—not as I was, but for what I could become. He didn't want me to die in a gutter.
For most of my life, since I was abused as a boy, I have been carrying around an indescribable amount of hatred, anger, and rage - it was almost killing me. Today, following my Baptism in Orthodoxy, its gone. I know they can't hurt me anymore. Thank you Our Lord Jesus Christ.
I was in a long-term same-sex relationship. We loved one another. But that love came from a profound place of childhood sadness and injury. We trauma-bonded. But we were physically damaging each other. That love could not be expressed sexually. And it can't be blessed.
When I was a hustler, I got so wasted - I'd fall asleep in a guy's car, and when they were done with me, they'd throw me onto the sidewalk. Where I would sleep it off. Everyone thought I was a lost-cause; except my dad. He prayed for me. One prayer can save a life. Never give up.
35 years ago, I was doing porn. Now, television commercials bother me. You can regain your sense of purity. Give it time. Work. Christ can heal all wounds.
A "man cave" is just an adult-sized playpen. Men - grow up. Turn your cave into a home-chapel; with an icon corner. Instead of playing videogames with your kids - plant a vegetable garden, build something, or simply go for a walk.
57.5% of men who identify as gay or bi experienced same-sex molestation. But society tells these abused boys that they were born gay. I wasn't born gay; a man molested me when I was a boy.
“Roman Catholics, in the midst of a disintegrating church structure, are finding that Orthodoxy is everything they once thought Roman Catholicism to be." - Fr. Seraphim Rose
@MarkyGAG
Gays Against Groomers
@againstgrmrs
claims that they are against sexualizing children, but they also say that kids are born gay. That is sexualizing children.
The blind man did not know that Christ would heal him on that day. Neither did I know, when I stumbled out of gay sex dungeon in San Francisco - bleeding from every orifice, that God was going to heal me on that day. You are never too far gone or beyond the reach of Jesus.
Grateful to be alive. I should have died of AIDS, after a couple of suicide attempts, OD-ing about 100 times, laying drunk on a sidewalk all night, or slashed to death by that guy who put a knife to my neck. Thank you Jesus for saving me.
@elizableu
Priest sex abuse survivors like myself - when we speak out - we are going against the oldest, richest, and most powerful organization on Earth - the Catholic Church - and almost no one believes us.
I'm ex-gay. Never married. No kids. No plans. But some friends of mine did have an idea. We'd all grow old together; watch out for each other; and take care of each other. 20 years ago, sounded good. Now, most of them are dead. Never let anyone convince you that gay is okay.
Fr. Seraphim Rose ultimately is the one who brought me to Orthodoxy. Turn to him. Ask for his intercession. Those who suffer with temptations of the flesh, gender confusion, and false identities - he will guide you out of that hell.
“Roman Catholics, in the midst of a disintegrating church structure, are finding that Orthodoxy is everything they once thought Roman Catholicism to be." - Fr. Seraphim Rose
Radical conversion is always possible - I was a drug-addicted gay sex hustler; I haven't partaken in either for 20 years. Jesus Christ can heal anyone.
@Michael_Voris
God bless you Michael. Much love to you. Don't be so tough on yourself. You always treated me with kindness. And I know other survivors who feel the same way.
Something about
@Michael_Voris
and
@ChristineNiles1
. For myself, and for many other priest sex abuse survivors, they were the only two people in the Catholic media who respected and listened to us. That so many Catholics hate them, speaks volumes about the haters.
I wasn't born gay.
I was a sensitive unathletic boy.
My male peers didn't like me.
My dad was distant.
I was exposed to porn at a young age.
A man molested me.
Most gay men have the same story.
Roman Catholics think I am doing the easy thing by going to Orthodoxy:
I gave up 45 min. masses on Sunday for a 2 hour standing liturgy;
Meat on Friday for strict fasting;
Rose petals from heaven for a complex/challenging theology.
"...narrow is the gate, and strait is the way."
An internet guru with a large young male following.
A neo-con Jew.
A gay same-sex married Christian.
A Jungian Orthodox.
And a corrupt Roman Catholic bishop.
How do you spell PSYOP?
Its the victims of childhood sex abuse who truly serve the life sentences; and who get the death penalty—not the perpetrators. I'm a survivor. After multiple suicide attempts. Mental hospitalizations. Drug addiction. I'm still in therapy. Still haunted; but many others are dead.
Never give up hope. No one is a lost cause. I was a drug-addicted hustler sleeping on the sidewalk, but my father prayed for me. Conversions can happen overnight. One day I was bound and beaten in a San Francisco sex dungeon - the next day I was home. Pray.
If any adult (priest, minister, teacher, coach, counselor, or relative) wants to speak with your child about sexual orientation - presume that person is a predator.
Childhood sexual abuse ruined the first half of my life; and the resulting anger and hatred ruined the second half. In the meantime, the need for revenge has only destroyed me. For as long as God keeps me here - I'd like to have peace. I pray for the same for all survivors.
@JBPpod
What about the 46% of gay men who were same-sex molested as boys? We were groomed, duped, and abused - and no one cares. In the US alone, 400,000 of us died of AIDS as a result.
The day your child comes out as LGBTQ-is the day your life changes. Start:
1. Praying. My dad prayed the Rosary 8X a day-that's 424 Hail Marys; pray the Jesus Prayer non-stop.
2. Fast
3. Sacrifice
4. Endure-because hardship is coming your way.
5. Live with a joyous heart.
Love
I did so much coke, I blew a hole in my nose. Hemorrhaged, went to the emergency-room, and got the lesions cauterized. Unbelievably painful. My nostrils stuffed with gauze. I went home and got wasted by mixing coke with Everclear. Addiction is a living hell. Christ is freedom.
Banning pornography will resolve nothing. Just like prohibition did not reduce alcoholism. Men need to learn self-control. Orthodoxy has the answer—a strict regime of fasting; control your body and you can control your mind.
If someone is born gay - you would not need to be convinced. There is NO biological evidence to explain homosexuality. The LGBTQ cult is a religion; those who disagree with the "born this way" dogma are treated like heretics. No one is born gay - they are initiated.