Just a cautionary tale for other small vtubers
A lot of commissioned content you see advertised by bigger vtubers as examples won't be the same quality *you* receive
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So um.. I need to take a little hiatus away from this account until my mental health gets better
I don't want to vent too much, but my mother broke me in a way that's going to take a long time to ever feel okay again and I'm sorry everyone
@Theholisticpsyc
I just can never click with people, and I find myself falling into people pleasing mode, which drains all my energy when interacting with them
If you don't have a large enough audience to expand their name/brand -- they just don't give a shit about your commission whatsoever.
Luckily I had my most recent commission refunded, the other two would not refund.
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I would like to add that the company reached out to me a offered a free BG in exchange for me removing this post
However.. I don't feel like receiving special treatment just because I called out this behavior is appropriate
They then requested I just remove it regardless
@noroarashi
I mean this with absolutely no offense, but both of you just look like bishonen anime protagonists
It's like the people comparing any pink haired cat girl to nyanners. Nyanners did not invent this concept and neither did shoto with his common haircut.
Please donโt listen to it
I've commissioned several things -- music, backgrounds, and other assets I never bothered using because it was obvious they rushed the piece because they never showcase your piece, ever.
Be extra cautious with who you commission, because it seems to be a common theme that
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daily reminder to try to be understanding of people with chronic illnesses
Please don't call someone lazy just because they don't make enough content for your standards, not everyone can do that
so long story short I recorded a clip and shadow play didn't take the in game audio, SO I DECIDED TO MAKE THE SOUNDS MYSELF
yes this is what I chose to spend time on
Pros of dating me:
- Sharp teeth to bite you
- Will let you look at my shiny rock collection
Cons of dating me:
- Can't cook
- Endless bad puns and dad jokes
- 4'10'' energy
- Very shy at first
- Sleeps a lot
- Tsundere
Nyehe an update on the model ๐ค I finished the eye and skin textures.
I'm still fiddling with the hair because I'm not 100% happy, and I'll have to look up tutorials on attaching the wings and tail because I give up trying to make them in vroid ๐คก
@PietranJello
I feel a wider representation of bodies would only serve to help interest in fashion
Artistically, I find the same androgynous slim bodies pretty dull after a while
@weeniedesu
We grow around our grief, and the pain never really vanishes entirely. Be gentle with yourself and allow yourself plenty of time to grieve. Whether that be weeks, months, years, or forever. They were important to you, and that's all that matters.
Announcement of sorts: I need to relax a bit with streaming to focus on work. I won't stream as frequently until I turn my financial situation around to where I'm not constantly in the danger zone
I'll probably only stream a couple times a month going forward, my apolocheese
I think the trait I hate most about myself is that I'm a people pleaser. I'm pretty much the type of person who'd apologize for bleeding on someone who stabbed me.
The second is my tendency to shred little pieces of paper when talking to people.
I've been feeling down about my art and avoiding drawing for a long time, but I figured I should try to push through and develop a new skill as a means to motivate myself
so I have begun work on chibi haru!
do y'all ever make everything deep and sentimental, then get hella embarrassed when no one else does the same?
I set myself up for failure thinking people care to the extent I do time and time again
BREAKING NEWS
If any
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need backgrounds for their streams, please check out Vui! He just finished this gorgeous piece for me ๐ฅบโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
you can contact him for commissions here:
AND PLEASE PAY HIM MORE THAN HE ASKS
Well I got some bad news and it might be the end of me streaming for a very long time due to finances, I'm a little emotional right now so I'm panicking but if it happens I'll probably just post edited content on yt after a break
I'm feeling a bit better from when I announced my hiatus, I still can't stream suuuper often due to work buuut I won't let the toxic shit my family has done destroy me any longer, and even though all that lost time sucks, sulking just results in more lost time
Seeya today, yea?
@Psamatheh
it'll be the same quality for 2x the price, the battle passes have been awful for a long time
absolute garbage quality cosmetics with like 1-2 "okay" outside of the reactive skin at the end
Well, I'm gonna make my first avatar with vroid, and maybe another one in blender once I actually learn how to rig facial stuff.
I'm gonna export the textures and fiddle with them outside of the program since it's rather limited, but this is the WIP! โค๏ธ
@kuramekira
I mean there isn't anything wrong with hiring based on chemistry, that's healthiest for the longevity of the project
But I personally think the auditions and art contests are just for engagement farming on social media - feeds the algorithm, keeps eyes interested in them, etc.
in two months of apex I have acquired 400 hours of training and went from absolute dogshit to trash
you too can achieve your dreams if you set your mind to it
I've had a lot of people reach out to me, and I'm okay. I'm just very sad. I shut down when I'm sad, and I don't like talking to anyone. I prefer not being around people when I feel this bad about myself and my life.
How could I NOT enter a galaxy theme!?
#GalaxysCutest
Behold, my cute space goat-draconic girl โ๏ธ๐โจ
Software: Clip Studio Paint
Higher Resolution is available if needed
I love when people trace art then demand to be credited after someone else fixes their rushed job
Be careful with artists you hire if you're interested in becoming a vtuber. There's a lot of scamming going around
i gotta learn to live for myself
i mentally pause so much to retweet stuff because i know a mutual doesn't like the media for whatever reason and i don't wanna annoy them with it being on their timeline jbdisfdbvi
I wonder what the people who are no longer in my life are up to sometimes
do they even remember me? Did I make as much as an impact on their life as they did mine? hmm