This is what a priest looks like.
Vitriol can get in the bin.
Hate finds no home here.
Men and male priests, letโs hear some encouragement for our sisters and gender non conforming priests.
#ThisIsWhatAPriestLooksLike
So, rather unexpectedly my Twitter blew up about female preachers.
Know this... God has given women a voice, and I for one am not afraid to use it.
Tell your stories, Gals. Tell them with authenticity and vulnerability.
My precious pup has got a cancerous lump, due to be removed tomorrow morning. I canโt think beyond tomorrow, but if youโre the praying kind, weโd love what youโve got.
Today a member of the congregation came out to me.
She said Iโm the first person sheโs felt safe to tell in Church
She is in her 70s
Iโm both humbled at her offering of truth and furious at the Church for making her hide for so many years.
So I may have โcome outโ and revealed my sexual ethics to my congregations in a pre-recorded video set to release tomorrow reflecting on the darkness of Advent and of *that* video.
How terrifying that it hangs in the air until tomorrow... ๐ฌ๐๐ผ๐ฌ๐๐ผ
Every day I pass a lady on my dog walk who has dementia
Every day she asks me if Iโll dance with her
And so we dance while she sings โIโm alive, Iโm alive, Iโm aliiiiiiveโ
๐ญโค๏ธ
Letโs have a moment for single clergy coping with Christmas/the world/illness/Covid crap with family miles away and so are doing this solo. It is such hard & exhausting work.
You are brilliant, I see you, keep going you hero!!
I could not be more proud. My first pride as an out bisexual clergy woman. Feeling threatened and judged by no one and wholly and wonderfully loved. And so I shouted it from the rooftops
@pompey_pride
Hereโs one for the haters.
My first Eucharist as President
@PortsmouthCath
exactly one year on from priesting. Hereโs to me, and Jesus, for this crazy vocation.
Today some visitors from India who are catholics popped into the back of church as I was taking a baptism. They said theyโd never seen a female priest before, then very quickly asked for a blessing. What a joy.
Heโs home. Very dosed up and lethargic and not the cheeky Alfie I know but his tail still wags and heโs safe.
Continued prayers and good thoughts much appreciated for us both.
Masked older man in the street: โWhenโs this all going to end, Rev?!โ
Me: โOh I donโt know but Iโll put in a word.โ
Older man: โthanks love.โ
โบ๏ธ
So, my Curacy is done.
Tomorrow I move to Gloucester, with no job secured and no clear next step.
But I go knowing that is where Molly is.
And where Molly is, there is life and love in abundance.
What does this queer priest do, partnered to the best human in all the land when the church berates our very existence and denies its blessing?
Baptise babies, bless homes, say mass, meet grief with love, be unashamedly proud of who God has made me to be.
It is my joy to announce that I have accepted the role of Associate Vicar of Tewkesbury Abbey.
I look forward to working with the local community in Priors Park and with specific responsibility for children and families.
Licensing @ Pentecost evensong - final deets tbc.
This is my
#beautifulstory
queer face (and now Iโm well and truly out... ๐ฌ) who has this week prayed with a deceased man and widow and today took his funeral.
Purity culture told me that my body was shameful. That my body should be denied, safeguarded, delicate. That my body was a temptation to men.
Rather I have discovered Gods profound healing, freedom and deep joy in all my bodily goodness.
And I celebrated it. All of it.
Something beautiful is happening in my life at the moment and I am relentlessly grateful and happy and joyful and I want to keep it all to myself but also shout it from the rooftops.
So there you go, Twitter, a little timeline cleanse.
Older gent outside supermarket: Are you a minister?
Me: I am indeed!
OG: It is so wonderful to see such a vibrant young woman around here doing what you are doing, thank you!
DAY. MADE.
Some personal news: it was announced this morning that I will be completing my curacy at Portsmouth Cathedral, meaning an imminent move off-island. Iโm excited and relieved, and ready for the next chapter.
Wedding at Cana sermon tip: WHEELIE BIN!
Around 150 gallons is around 3x wheelie bins, way more than the gathering could even drink. Take your wheelie bin to church. Evidences the abundant generosity of Jesus.
And credit me ๐
Iโve just had a solo lunch in Wagamamas after church (in my collar) and I have never been stared at so much in my life.
Iโm telling myself itโs because my hair looks great today!
In the last week Iโve been called a satanist, a fake, monstrous, evil, abusive, not a real priestโฆ.
Well guess what, this priest is blessed by God to be a blessing to the last, the lost, and the least. And thatโs whatโs getting me out of bed today.
First time presiding this morning. Iโm early and no one is here yet so Iโm taking a breath outside with the birds.
Hold me this morning as I hold you all at the holy table where all is made new ๐๐ผ๐๐ผ๐๐ผ
Quick reminder: Godโs greatest blessing is not marriage and children.
And for those at the back: Godโs greatest blessing is not marriage and children.
Happiness is Molly-shaped.
The Revd.
@MollyBoot1
, my best friend, IPA drinker, silly song maker, jigsaw puzzle sorter, adventure seeker & sleepy compline partner.
Happy Ordination Day!!! Cheers to you, cheers to us! โฅ๏ธ
Ministry at Tewkesbury Abbey is going well, thank you for your prayers & support.
They have the best vergers in the whole of the UK.
Seriously though, Iโm thriving and itโs the greatest gift.
So Iโve taken the plunge and booked into a swanky spa hotel for a night away - on my own.
The solo dinner experience is joyful and the bed is enormous. The dream. โ๐ป
Iโm taking on a thankful lent. Iโve bought several packs of thank you cards and will be writing them each day to those who have blessed me, loved me, championed me.
Iโm taking up a thankful lent. Join me?
I just got a RIDICULOUS discount on an expensive swim wetsuit just because Iโm clergy.
The owner looked at me, with tears in his eyes, and said โyouโll never know how much it means that youโre hereโ
I blessed him and his business and thanked God for beautiful encounters
Tomorrow I am licensed as Associate Vicar of this holy place.
Pray for them as they receive me and all I am and pray for me as I meet them on this crazy journey of life.
6pm. Iโd love your prayers ๐๐ผ
This week I came face to face with someone who said I should be removed from public ministry because of my sexuality
And so I talked all the more about how all sexuality is healthy and beloved by God.
To the lady who told me to โwash my mouth outโ when I told her I had a same-sex partnerโฆ
โฆmay God bless you with grace and understanding for those for whom love is wild and beautiful and gentle and free. ๐
Iโve reached 2000 followers. ๐คท๐ผโโ๏ธ
Iโm a gobby Yorkshire queer Rev who loves life, banter and Jesus.
Iโll remind you over and over that you are loved by God and are worthy of love. ๐
Today I swam in the sea.
Today a 12 year old girl said to her mum โlook, those ladies are swimming, I want to swim tooโ
And so she swam, wetsuit-togged.
And I cheered and whooped at her bravery.
Heading headlong into ordination retreat today, starting with a lovely coffee and sit down on the ferry to the big island.
Will be off here for a short while & Iโd so appreciate your prayers while I become a priest.
Big love to you, Twitter fam ๐
Weโve been told we have around 6 months left of each otherโs company.
His health is fragile, but his company is fabulous. Iโm gutted but planning 6 months of adventures, treats and joy to send him off in style ๐๐ญ
The hardest thing about doing ministry is doing it as a single person.
After tricky meetings or events there is no one to cut the corners off
For those doing ministry solo, I see you, you are loved and brave and courageous. We do this together
The words โlimitingโ and โfactorโ are beyond painful to those clergy new in the job who have faced their hardest year in ministry alone and through a global pandemic.
And so Iโm taking a break for a little while.
Peace, my friends ๐๐ผ
Itโs my final day as curate in the Newport parish on the IOW. Iโm preaching and presiding 3x back to back. Iโm already exhausted and itโs only 6.30am.
God, go with me. God, be with them. ๐๐ผ
A conversation with my non-tweeting mum recently led to her saying โTwitter is part of your ministry, itโs part of being visible and authentic. Itโs very Hannahโ
So here we are being sunny and visible and queer and authentic. โฅ๏ธ
Nearly two years ago, I met my favourite person. What a joy. What a gift of God.
Completely delighted to love you and to be loved by you,
@HannahBarraclo8
. โจ
I donโt have the emotional capacity for more papers telling me that my love isnโt holy or good or edifying. So instead
@MollyBoot1
and I will just hang on to each other until this storm passes.
This morning, on this
#safeguardingsunday
I am finding the bravery to speak out about the abuse I received at the hands of the church. At the hands of a theological training institution there to care for me.
Today Iโll speak truth to power.
I made it and Iโm still smiling. One of my fave ladies brought in a white rose flag to celebrate my last day, with the words โTa-ra our lass. Go do it for the girls.โ
And so onwards I goโฆ
On this
#LesbianVisibilityDay
we praise all those glorious lady lesbian Vicars doing all they can to turn the tide on the tirade of homophobia in the Church
Iโm here. Itโs time.
#clergymaltclub
#clergychampagneclub
Alfie wonders what this God forsaken hour is and I presided at my first midnight, without being heckledโฆ Iโd say that was a win. Cheers friends, Merry Christmas ๐
My very first Valentine. What a kind-hearted, gentle, intelligent and wise human this one is.
To love and be loved in return is the greatest gift. ๐๐
Happy Valentineโs Day to everyone whose love โ of all kinds โ adds light and colour and fabulous, quirky, queer joy to this world.
And, the happiest Valentineโs Day of all to
@HannahBarraclo8
, who has brought more love into my life than I knew it could hold. ๐
Hello to all the followers Iโve gathered who think Iโm marrying
@josierones
Whilst youโre hereโฆ.Youโre loved. You matter. Who you are matters. Be blessed today ๐๐ผ
And yet once again, Molly and I depart before the sun has risen, for another week apart. Each baptising, presiding, preaching and leading worship in our contexts and communities.
This is holiness. But gosh is it hard doing it with 100 miles distance.
Iโve amassed an enormous number of you in the last week.
You are loved, every inch of your being, every failure and flaw, as with God there are no shadows.
Thank you for all the love ๐
Nearly a month at Tewkesbury Abbey.
Iโm not sure of the birettaquette yet but Iโm getting thereโฆ
What a deeply joy-filled place this is to minister within.
Shoutout to the chap who spotted me buying wine in Lidl post-funeral, who asked โdo you have to buy it as well as consecrate it?!โ
And I respond โitโs been a hard weekโ.
Getting my eyebrows waxed (in-between meetings) in my dog collar and the beautician wants to talk about heaven and hell
This. This is why I do what I do
(Socially distanced) Walking with an older lady in the congregation yesterday when she stops, looks me in the eye and says โlove is love, Hannah, love whoever you feel called to loveโ. And cue ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
No idea how Iโve managed to gather 3000 followers...
But as youโre all here... You are loved, with every bit of your hurting, angry, disappointed, abandoned and questioning bits.
Every bit of you is loved, and made for love.
Iโve always felt that
#clergymaltclub
on Christmas Eve feels like joining a boys club (letโs face it, thatโs the CofE ๐) and so this year Iโm championing
#clergychampageclub
open to all!
Beautiful, faithful LGBTQI+ siblings in Christ.
You are worthy. Worthy of full inclusion at the table of reconciliation.
You are free. Free to embody the fullness of your baptism.
You are a part of the great cloud of witnesses. And are so loved.
In Lidl part II: man spots me, looks me up and down, checks out my Docs and dog collar and says โrock and roll vicar, nice oneโ.
To which I reply โthank youโ.
Him, slow nod โyouโre very welcome.โ
The last few days my tweets have received a lot of love. I am immensely grateful.
But there has been one single comment that rocked me. One homophobic, bigoted comment which made me feel small.
Well, hey, big guy, thank you for putting the fire in my belly to do what I do.
Gah, being a single female Priest in *all of this* is hard work.
Iโm tired of having to assert myself and my boundaries, tired of missing gentleness and physical touch, tired of claiming myself and my voice as valid.
My stole. Based on the Japanese art Kintsugi. Broken pottery is repaired with lacquer made from gold, so that, the break is highlighted rather than disguised. A parable in the modern form. God, when he heals our brokenness, it does not hide our history 1/2
Wouldnโt this place be much nicer if we *chose* not to take offence if none was intended?
I am a tired clergy person, tweeting as a tired clergy person. With never any offence meant.
Today the funeral director promised me a hug when this* is all over.
Funeral directors are the best sorts of people. They know loss and they know love.
*gestures wildly at this sh*t-show
Just had the most amazing conversation with the sex shop owner round the corner from Church.
He apologised. Told him there was no need to apologise.
Ministry is bloody tough but bloody beautiful.
This moment is one where I had an enormous palpitation and couldn't quite believe what I was doing
But this is not about me. This is ever-increasingly about God's grace. God's abundant, miraculous, offensive and never-ending grace.
Three years ago, a former pastoral tutor offered me โalternative therapiesโ
That letter has mortified me. There are school chaplains, DDOโs, priests etc who continue to will teach that sexuality and gender cannot be anything but heteronormative.
Lord, have mercy.
Today I turned 34. I have never been happier or more contented with life in all its colour than right here, right now.
To all my glorious pals, thank you for loving me so well. It means everything.
A beautiful Muslim woman just told me that I have a beautiful heart that radiates into my face.
We spoke about priests, sin, fasting, cleansing and beauty. These liminal spaces being a priest fully present in our surroundings is what I am made for.
Today I travel back to the island to pick up my curacy after some time off
I have had what can only be described as an adrenaline detox. Iโm scared Iโll be in that same space again
Good thoughts and prayers most appreciated ๐๐ผ
There are some deeply hurtful, inarticulate and theologically shallow interpretations of scripture circulating on Twitter asking God to โdrive wedgesโ between faithful, loving same-sex relationships & the church.
We exist. We will not be silenced. We ask God for justice & mercy