Hi friends. I'd like to reintroduce myself 💖 While I am still "Tragic" who loves retro gaming & hype nights with the crew, I'm ready for more transparency. To show the good, the raw, the ugly. To fully be me. So hello there👋 You can call me Tragic... or you can call me Emi 💕
I hid my body on Twitch & didn't post full-body pics for years because people in my life told me to. Then I posted a pic of me in cosplay the other day and somebody DMed me that I'm a whore. So here is another picture and a reminder that I am not letting people hide me anymore ❤
Serious question: do y'all think women on Twitch are more likely to have to deal with backseating during streams? I realized all the streamers I know that heavily mention !backseat commands or have "no backseating" on their overlays are women.
Hi friends. After speaking with
@ashsaidhi
I have created a UserVoice asking
@Twitch
to reconsider gift subs being included in the new Partner Plus program. I believe in Twitch, I believe in us, and I believe more can be done here for all of us to succeed.
(Not an April Fool's Joke) Friendly reminder that it's ok to ban long-term members of your community if it is to protect you/your space. I had somebody repeatedly overstep boundaries with me for years that I defended for far too long. Finally banned them today. Feeling free 💕
Hi. I don't share this part of my life super often, but as of today I've been sober 8 years. I've officially been sober longer than I was ever using. It's pretty surreal. 🥺
Hi my name is Tragic and I never thought I would be confident enough to do the RE3 cosplay but here we are 👉👈 My journey with accepting and loving my body has been a long one, but I am so grateful to be where I am now. Twitch has genuinely taught me comfort & confidence 🥺❤
(TW) Thank you to anyone who ever gave Chaos a treat on stream, or played his alerts, or used his emotes. Chaos was part of our Twitch community from day 1 hanging in the background of my streams.. Today he crossed the Rainbow Bridge. I am heartbroken but glad he isn't hurting.
Friendly reminder that you don't need to be Partner or even have a ton of viewers to be a good streamer. If one whole person takes time out of their day to hang out on your stream, I think you're doing something right. ❤ (Maybe this reminder is more for me lol)
7 years ago I had no choice but to get sober. I was 23 years old with nothing to my name but a drinking problem + undiagnosed mental disorders. I was miserable and broken. From rock bottom, alone, and no direction in life... to being here with yall today. Proud to be sober AF. ❤
As a woman in retro (or woman streamer in general?) I get comments in my chat every day about how much quicker a man finished the game I am playing on their first try. Heads up: it's not the flex you think it is.
Streamer friends: how do you react to somebody saying they are unfollowing during a livestream? Do you ignore it? Try to resolve the situation? Say thanks and goodbye?
Hi I'm on a self-care vacation and I got my hair done today 👉👈 (also I think this is like the first no makeup selfie I've posted here so enjoy a strawberry filter 🍓)
Hey y'all. This is so uncomfortable and I'm so sorry in advance.. but the user who has been harassing me for a year is now making donations to streamers with my username saying I want them to harm themselves. Please know this isn't me and I apologize if he comes to your stream.
So I'm officially in my Emi era~
I'm grateful for my time as TragicOnTwitch, but I'm ready for our new chapter. I am motivated more than ever to build an online home with y'all for neurodivergent & neurotypical gamers alike.
I am Emi. I am neurodivergent. I am Emidivergent. 💙
Hiii my name is Tragic and I'm a full-time streamer who has barely streamed recently 😅 Navigating my physical+mental health right now is a real journey, but I'm so grateful for the patience and understanding of my community 💖 How does one ever balance life sufficiently tho? 🤔
I'm honestly really insecure about smiling in photos, but this weekend I've just been so dang happy and grateful. 💜 It's a really special feeling to be so fortunate to receive support, understanding, and encouragement from the community. It inspires me daily to be better. 🥺
It's official yall! My "TragicOnTwitch" journey ends this time next week. I'll be changing my username to better reflect who I am now and my ongoing mental health journey. Be on the lookout for Emi_________ on the 27th, it only gets better from here ❤
I've lost more followers during Silent Hill 2 streams than anything else recently because how strict I am about no expectations/spoilers/fun facts/etc. I like to genuinely be immersed and have others be immersed with me. If you don't respect that then we don't vibe I guess 🤷♀️
Seeing a bunch of tweets about
#ClaireRedfield
and Code Veronica today ❤ Reminds me of my Claire jacket and my casual look of her~ Should I try another Claire cosplay soon? 👀
✨Dreams are coming true in 2024 ✨
In January of 2019, I started streaming with a small setup and a goal to share retro games with others. An
@elgato
capture card was one of my first investments.
Today I'm so excited to share that I've been chosen as an
#ElgatoAmbassador
🥹❤️
(trigger warning) May is Mental Health Awareness Month and also a really emotional month for me. This pic is May 2020 Tragic, days before getting diagnosed with BPD. It was almost the last selfie I ever took. I'm so glad I kept fighting. Please always keep fighting, friends. ❤️
It's my 6 years of sobriety today ❤️ The catalyst of my mental health journey. 6 years of being my goofy self again, 6 years loving harder and laughing louder. 6 years of being able to have genuine fun even when the balloon doesn't cooperate 🎈 Let's celebrate 6 years tonight!!
Shout out to the toxic people who once shamed me into thinking I couldn't wear heavy makeup & cute clothes on stream. Your words don't haunt me anymore. Looks like I can feel cute and be taken seriously as a streamer after all ❤
Hi y'all 👋 My name is Tragic! 🖤 I'm a retro/variety gamer and transparent neurodivergent streamer... and news on the street is you might catch me on the
@Twitch
Legendary Women shelf this month 👀
I don't want to trigger anybody, but I got the call today I'd been dreading. Chaos' life expectancy at this point is 2-4 months. He has been with me my entire adult life and I am very heartbroken. As streams are my livelihood, I will be around - but please be patient with me. ❤
Hi friendos. I wanted to communicate that I am taking a few days off from Twitch. Right before DreamHack, my dog Chaos had to have emergency surgery to save his life and requires a lot of care right now. He is my furry everything and almost losing him has been really hard. ❤
Wow y'all. Just wow. Almost 5 years as Tragic on this platform ended with a LVL 21 hype train, many tears & laughter, sharing our favorite clips, and getting to kamehameha our way into our new era. Thank you for everything. I'll see y'all officially as Emi in a couple days. 💖
Streamer friends with nice lighting, serious question: are you basically blinding yourself? I just upgraded my lighting tonight and while I'm happy with the quality, I feel like the sun is directly in my eyeholes.
When I was younger I was often told I wasn't very pretty or my body type was too big to wear certain things. Because of this, cosplay has always intimidated me. Yet I took a chance on some new cosplays this October and got out of my comfort zone... and I'm really glad I did. ❤
Hi my name is Tragic and I'm on my 4th shot of espresso today ☕ I have to do my streamer taxes tonight which is gonna take me forever. Pls send good vibes
shout out to that toxic guy (no longer in my life) who told me i'd never amount to anything beyond "begging for money from the same 30 people forever"
❤️thank you to those 30 people who believed in me
My whole life I've felt like a weirdo excluded from the cool kids table. Because of insecurity + BPD/trauma I have pushed away meaningful connections & projected onto others. I work daily now on vulnerability & communication. Twitch and our communities have helped me so much. 💚
💥Real talk💥 I've dealt with insecurity my whole life. How I look, how others perceive me, how I'm doing compared to others... It's exhausting always judging myself. Recently I've decided to just work on loving myself instead. It's been FREEING y'all ❤ Thanks for being here.
Hi my name is Tragic and I just celebrated 4 years of streaming on Twitch! 💜 Streaming has both changed and saved my life in so many ways. I never thought randomly going live one day would lead to here. 🥺 Anyone else feel like they wouldn't be who they are today without Twitch?
Feels post ❤️ I realized today how far I've come since October 2021. This time last year I had just burnt out after getting Twitch Parter and losing my job. Now I get to do what I love with my favorite people. I smile and laugh more than ever. Thank y'all for everything 🥹
I don't normally talk about stuff like this, but I just need to acknowledge that when I first went live in January 2019 I was hoping even 1 single person would watch me without thinking I was a weirdo. Tonight we were at the top of the Retro category at one point. Holy. Wow. 🥹
January to December ✨
Tbh I started January with a lot of hope in my heart and I'm ending December just happy to have made it despite wanting to give up a few times this year. It's ok to just survive sometimes y'all. I'm proud of anybody who made it to the end of 2023 at all ❤
Hello I'm just out here trying to be my silly little self and play my silly little games 💜 I am a woman in the gaming space and I deserve to be here thank you have a good day
I hear it's the anniversary of
#ResidentEvil2
so I'm showing off this tee again ❤ Where does the original RE2 rank on your list of fav games from the series? 👀
I've recently struggled with how disposable I am as a streamer. There will always be someone else streaming, someone else playing the same games, someone to treat my community well when I'm gone. I guess that's how it is for life in general - but things feel so finite lately.
Hey y'all. I hate to do this but I need to warn everybody about this guy who has been harassing me for a year then harasses (even doxxes some) people who ban him. He has messaged me from alt's telling me it's my fault if he unalives himself, accuses me of discrimination, & more.
Streamer friendos, I've gotta ask: how do you handle streams when you know you're not at your best? I'm trying to break a toxic loop of canceling every time my energy isn't at it's best... but when my energy is lower, my streams obviously aren't the same. Feels like a lose/lose.
I entered 2021 hoping for happiness. Then I entered 2022 hoping to be a genuine full-time content creator. Today I enter 2023 happier than ever and living my dreams. Thank you all for everything. ❤ Here's to our best year together yet ✨
WE GOT THE OFFICIAL EMAIL I'M SO EXCITED 🎉🎉 My community has done so much for us and I'm so glad that this will bring even more value to their subscriptions. LET'S CELEBRATE TOMORROW NIGHT; OUR PPPP WAS A SUCCESS 🥳🥳
My community got a lot stronger when I stopped being who I thought other people wanted me to be & started being who I really am. Friendly reminder to myself plus others that life gets a lot easier when you're genuine. Forever grateful to those who have been part of my journey. ❤
Hi friendos. I wanted to communicate that I am taking a few days off from Twitch. Right before DreamHack, my dog Chaos had to have emergency surgery to save his life and requires a lot of care right now. He is my furry everything and almost losing him has been really hard. ❤
Got my Undertale tattoo facing me so it can ground me daily ❤ Where are my friendos with sentimental video game tats? (It's hard to get a good picture of the inside of my arm btw 😂)
I have emerged from my hidey hole today. ❤️ I hope people who follow me are already aware of my openness regarding mental health, but this will likely now include grief too. I heal publicly not only for myself but in hopes to help others feel a little less alone in their journey.
I remember the times I used to raid bigger streamers and they didn't care about my small raids. I can't imagine being like that today. It means so much to me everytime somebody raids or hosts me. Don't yall ever forget how kind it is when you choose to share your community. ❤
Goku taught me there is always room to be kind. Bulma showed me I can embrace being a strong smart woman. I used to rent DBZ VHS tapes weekly from Hollywood Video. I played Budokai for my final TragicOnTwitch stream. Reading all the sadness tonight and the community is hurting 💔
hi I'm being extra celebrating my 8 YEARS OF SOBRIETY on Twitch 🩷 Let's see if we can finish chapters 7 & 8 of Paper Mario N64 in 8 hours 👀 Also new 8 alerts! Let's party like I'm 8 years old again 🎉 (Ironically I was 8 when Paper Mario released lmao)
Hi. I don't really know how to get back to "normal" or navigate streams again after the loss of Chaos. I am being fairly communicative in Discord but just wanted to make sure I said here too how grateful I am for everybody's patience with me. Sending love and missing y'all ❤️
I'm so excited to share that I will be featured on the Together For Pride Shelf on Twitch not only this month but all year long! 🌈
You can catch this hype neurodivergent Ace gal trying new makeup + cosplay while playing horror, RPGs, retro, and more! Happy Pride y'all!! 🖤🤍💜
Hi. I don't want to be a bummer on main but I felt I should maybe communicate beyond my Discord that a family member passed away yesterday and I'm not myself right now. I know I've asked for a lot of patience in recent months but please know I am trying my best for streams. ❤
Hi my name is Tragic and I cancel streams when I have bad brain days 🧠 BUT I have a really cool new Scissorman tee + a Wesker body pillow so life is still pretty great ❤
I've been saying I want to get into speedrunning for multiple years but I'm always too scared I will fail, or my community won't watch me, or some other excuse. But watching SGDQ has really reignited my passion to pursue it. Any speedrunners have tips for an anxious beginner?
I want to thank everyone who has reached out. 2024 has been full of so much loss and been so hard for me. The community + camaraderie have honestly kept me going this year. I promised Chaos I would use my life to love just like he taught me... I want to lead my spaces with love.
(TW) Thank you to anyone who ever gave Chaos a treat on stream, or played his alerts, or used his emotes. Chaos was part of our Twitch community from day 1 hanging in the background of my streams.. Today he crossed the Rainbow Bridge. I am heartbroken but glad he isn't hurting.
Happy 123123 day, goodbye 2023 👋 Tbh 2023 was a painful year. I'm so grateful for my community, for moments like the Sonic Expo, and for the people that told me not to give up.. y'all kept me going this year. 💙 Here's to a 2024 of hope. Let's start the year hopeful together. 🫂
🎉 I'M TURNING 31 Y'ALL 🎉 Full transparency (and trigger warning I guess): I spent a lot of years saying I probably wasn't gonna make it past 30. Well I am. And I'm freaking celebrating this all month long. Celebrations begin TONIGHT 💜
Hi. I am trying my best to keep my head above water these days but it is difficult. I miss everybody a lot and could really use some good news. ❤ Would anybody mind sharing a win they've had this week? Twitch or IRL or whatever - I just wanna celebrate something with yall 👉👈
Between personal things/taking time off for the expo/now getting sick again, I've missed a lot of streams this month. I'm upset at myself but I'm trying to be kind to myself today instead. My amazing community always tells me to take care of myself & I'm so grateful for them. 💕
I believe in growth. In making mistakes and learning from them. In experiencing the struggles so I can come out stronger. In recent days I am putting my energy where it really belongs, and I notice I'm genuinely smiling more. Thank y'all for being on this journey with me. ❤️
(Trigger warning)
Today is the last day of Suicide Prevention Awareness Month. Last year, this was emotional for me as I reflected on my last suicide plan from Summer 2020. This year I didn't even think about it. I am so much happier than I have ever been and I owe it to yall. 💜
Hi I'm Tragic & I'm seeking advice from fellow neurodivergent streamers ❤️ How do yall deal with being overstimulated while live? I love streaming more than ANYTHING but sometimes I am not my best self due to overstimulation + not recovering well. ND friendos pls help 👉👈
Full transparency: I've been struggling to get back into my normal routine since getting sick + dealing with a bit of burnout. Balancing life just seems so overwhelming right now. Anybody else ever feel like this and/or have any tips? 💜 (pic from the other day just because lol)
Mother's Day is a difficult day for many of us (myself included) so instead I am focusing on being a mama to my furbaby today 🐶❤ Chaos says share your pet pics!
Tonight I drove away from "Dad's house" in Texas for the last time. The man who gave everything to raise me as a single father, my rock, the reason I am who I am that has always been a short drive away.. He packed up & moved 1,000 miles away tonight. Guess I gotta grow up now 😭
Happy Women's History Month 💙
I'm super hyped to share that we will be on the Together for Legendary Women recommendation shelf on
@Twitch
for not only this month, but an entire year!
Catch me this month on my Resident Evil journey playing as some legendary women in gaming 🎉
Streamer friendos: I don't get to support a lot of you on Twitch these days because my weird schedule. But you can bet your bottom I try to like every tweet, TikTok, Insta post, etc I see. Supporting you from afar forever ❤️ Sincerely, not a creep for liking 10 posts at once ok
💙 HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONIC 💙
In honor of this special day, I am sharing this embarrassing photo from when I was 18 and spent my entire first adult paycheck at the ancient relic of Toys R Us 😂
THANKS SONIC FOR CHANGING MY LIFE, HAPPY 32 🦔💙
Some good news for today - I got accepted into
@eyesonbee
stream team The Trepies!! Stream teams help me meet people and develop meaningful connections, and I'm so excited to get to know the amazing humans on the team! 🎉
I just met my hero, the Sonic that's been there for me a million times during the past 20+ years, the cool blue hedgehog from my favorite game of all time. He hugged me and I was a champion and didn't even cry 🥺 Thank you
@RYANtheDRUMMOND
for a day I will never forget. 🦔💙