Blue Madrigal 💾 @BlueGoesMew Twitter profile

Last Seen Profiles

@TannishthaC

@official_clev

@fasant96

@e_rwt10

@JahnBarris

@Takeback_Iran

@atypical_fellow

@RuchiChandel333

@MlCI6RuZ96gMnbK

@AlexWootton9

@hamoud_1010

@TnTurfAssoc

@Mountain_Jack24

@9216Sahin

@Support2Life

@baby_arabia

@_nayoooon

@robsonte

@M0NST3R_P0P

@alpof290130

@lolzsx123

@zszloyal

@matubeltran

@haramifalcon

@jsixbdjujq

@azinovaa

@Sullyellow

@StanfordCrypto

@tsukasan666

@wsesdedse9

@179a14

@fishball____

@RPiskie10867

@gaoshu494530281

@StormTheTiger

@Jimsoogi

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Byron, I wish I could have helped you. We all do. I’m so sorry I couldn’t. Thank you for being a part of my life. Love you always.

143

704

17K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Yes, it’s him. He’s gone.

321

372

10K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Thank you to everyone who has reached out. I wish he could see how much he is loved and all of the sweet things people have said to honor his memory. Remember, your words/tweets affect people, even the famous people. Please be kind.

64

320

7K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

Happy birthday Byron. I think of you every day and I hope your soul lives on and is shining bright. Miss you my dear dear friend. I will always carry on your memory

51

313

7K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I knew Byron was kind when we first met. I was struggling w/my dad passing away & made a post. He saw it & just showed up at my house after only being there once. He brought his fave movie Almost Famous over & hung out with me all night. I fell in love in that moment. RIP Byron❤️

38

103

5K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Reporters are trying to get the scoop from all of us who know what happened. Please STOP. It’s disrespectful! We are grieving.

38

100

5K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

My thoughts on the final day Read:

130

323

4K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I’m so fucked up rn guys. I’m all alone, and it’s just eating and eating at me. I keep thinking about every detail. Every what if. I can’t sleep, I have no appetite. I’m not in danger, I’m just so consumed with grief. I want to hug someone who also loved him & just cry together

168

50

4K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

It’s been two months today since you decided to leave our world. I’m not religious but I find myself hoping you were right about getting to re-roll. 💙🖤

55

144

4K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I’m getting off twitter for the rest of the day. Too painful. Hug your loved ones.

47

4K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

God fucking dammit, I wish he picked up the phone. I knew he was sad but not how sad. I’m so devastated

69

90

3K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I’ve been having a panic attack for an hour. I don’t know what to do.

34

21

3K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Someone I love killed themselves. I wish I could have said something to prevent it... whyyyyyy

38

53

2K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

@andymilonakis Found this pic of you guys on my phone today. Thank you for bringing joy to his life Andy ❤️

11

48

2K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I... I’m at a loss right now. Something I’ve been scared of happening for so long happened. I can’t stop crying. It’s so painful. Please no.

18

34

2K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Looking for that last vid made me find some unseen gems. I really like the one of him taking a photo. 😊

29

33

2K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

A Byron memory. I’m in kidney failure. Only stage 3, but probably one day I’ll need one. B & I were play ninja fighting as we often did, & I karate chopped him near his kidney. He lovingly said, “you might need that one day, be careful.” It was really sweet & unexpected. 🥺💙

22

27

2K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

1 year

A Byron remembrance post. 3 years. Feels like longer. I'm grateful for everything I learned from you. Hope you've re-roled by now 💙

30

52

2K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I keep thinking there’s something I could have said or done... I wish I reached out more

23

14

1K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Today is the first day I’ve felt emotional relief & hope. Thank you all. I know most of us are strangers but so many have reached out. I’ve accepted I can’t change what happened but we can celebrate his life by making positive change for people suffering like him. We will do it!

32

23

1K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

Can't believe it's been a year. Love you B. Glad I got to see you today 🤍

48

29

1K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Three years ago :( Now he really is an angel

Deus

@Deusmorte

7 years

@BlueGoesMew

1

4

96

10

29

1K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

Dang my iphone put this together. This is how I try to remember him. Happy and silly. Good times, ya goof 🤍🤍🤍

32

27

1K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I miss him. Tears are flowing. Guess I’m playing wow again just to hang out with him from time to time. 🥺

Wowhead💙

@Wowhead

4 years

Blizzard has paid tribute to Reckful by adding him as a Rogue Trainer NPC, located in the Cathedral of Light, in Shadowlands. #Warcraft

358

6K

39K

18

24

1K

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Byron broke into dance more often than most people. We marathoned all of Gilmore Girls and this dance... happened a lot 😅

20

24

982

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

A bunch of pictures from Byron's phone that he posted on imgur back in 2015 I found on fb. Nice memories. My grandma in these pictures also passed away this year. I hope they get to hang out. Glad to have these. This one of him and Gary is my fave.

12

23

942

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

memories!

Reckful

@Byron

9 years

we grillin y'all http://t.co/GjzrxkLEE4

34

3

223

12

6

845

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

A day we all walked around downtown. It was his mom’s 70th birthday.

_______

@Bee_Purrs

4 years

@Gary_Bernstein @reckful

1

94

7

13

834

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I'm tearing up like crazy trying to write something so I'll let these pictures do the talking. 😊💍 AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

88

1

795

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Found out I tried getting ahold of him 15 min after he had passed, which means he basically said his last tweet and did it. I spent too much time trying to say the right thing. :/ Idk if I was more worried that he didn’t see it or that he did and did it anyway. Now I know. 💔

37

13

769

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

2 years

2017

30

5

759

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Some of my favorite photos with Byron. RIP B, I hope wherever you are, it’s peaceful. Love you always. 🐙🐬(he always sent those two emojis when he was trying to be cute)

14

17

742

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Byron used to randomly declare outloud, “I’m AWESOME!” when he did something well. It has rubbed off on me. He taught me to celebrate my successes outloud. It’s really helped my confidence level. Let’s celebrate his life by taking the good from it and incorporating into our life

15

32

725

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I’m so ready to move in two weeks. I won’t have roommates who have loud friends, and I can just play video games, tend to my plants, and watch anime in peace. (First non-grieving tweet attempt😬)

25

3

722

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

The nod that he gives me. 🥺 I loved this day. He streamed at a toy store in Austin. He was obsessed w/this bird. He flew it from our balcony & instead of landing on the street, it landed on top of the bldg across the road never to be seen again. Missing you extra today, B.

25

21

719

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I needed today. I’m happy I road tripped to LA. Grieving together and telling happy memories is healing magic. So many good laughs. Even laughing at his high-pitched goofy laugh. 😂 I know you hear it now, yw. A lil bit of the hole has been filled in with love. ❤️

14

7

697

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Happy new years, guys! Got some champagne and it reminded me of this moment. ❤️☺️

17

16

696

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

7 years

I graduated!!! Hook'em Horns! Computer Science, dawg! :3

40

6

609

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

I'll never forget when he went to my probability math course with me for fun. Was like a scene in goodwill hunting. My prof loved him. He'd answer all her questions without having studied, coming up with the formula himself. She had no idea he wasn't actually in the class lol.

18

0

615

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I was finally inspired to look at texts from B. Hanging with @Celest565 . He sent me this photo in the last few years. There’s a store in Austin with our names and we took a pic. 🥺🥺🥺 I’m glad for these memories

15

14

617

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

The good ole days. So much happiness and fun times back then. Thanks for introducing me to my best friends, B. 🤍

5

7

608

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

He really loved food 🍣 Uchi was one of his fave places to eat in Austin :)

15

8

594

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

2 years

Doing my best to smile and be happy while being in Austin for the first time since. I wore his skill capped shirt he gave me to honor his memory today. Byron lives on in us all in so many ways. He's immortal 😊

18

0

593

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

32 today! Lucky to have had a life full of lessons and beautiful memories. Looking forward to the rest of my revolutions around the sun. 🤍

51

3

574

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

A friend sent me this photo from 2016. Made me smile. My shirt says “I miso you” on the bottom. I miso you Byron.

7

11

568

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

8 years

This is real life! Met @OJessicaNigri at the Warcraft premiere! Eeee! 💖

9

26

528

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I would like to add, that while moments before he died he was talking about Becca, his death has nothing to do with her in any way. I hope she knows that. He’s been sick since before he was even a teen and has been through so many manic episodes. This one just did him in. 🤍

8

5

522

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Byron’s old shirt he wore. I’m never going to wear it(I have others)& rather than taking it to Goodwill (cleaning my closet) I figure one of y’all might like it?? If you’re in the US I’ll pay to ship it. Tell me how B impacted you. I’ll pick someone tmrw 8pm PST & dm you. SizeM❤️

76

21

511

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I’m going to start compiling a list of your suggestions. We can make changes with our numbers guys. Thank you.

13

6

488

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Byron took this photo of me many moons ago. He often took photos when you weren’t looking and caught unposed life as it happened. :)

15

3

488

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

2 years

This twitter acct is 99% a byron remembrance account. I come here to post about him and talk with people who also miss him. I still don't know how to deal with his death. I'm grateful I have you all to talk with about it.

30

4

486

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

2 years

A memory I'm sharing with you all. They were out of regular carts so he used the kids cart at Trader Joes.

21

0

473

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

2 years

I'm sad. Wish I said more.

20

2

456

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I’m sorry I haven’t gotten to everyone’s messages. I’ve been able to read most of them. Waiting until the weekend to sit down and get back to y’all. I just needed a mental break. Thank you so much for the comforting words and fun stories and memories you have of him. ❤️

17

2

451

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

7 years

Birthday dinner time! :3

29

6

426

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

Introducing Gus to Byron. Lea met me in LA with her son Gus on the anniversary of his passing and we sat at B's grave and shared stories and updates with Byron on our lives. Miss him so much. 🤍

10

0

432

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

I know I talk about B a lot. I usually tweet about him when something happens that I'd normally text him. I guess in a way telling you guys helps me still feel connected. I'm healing and I think this is part of my process. It feels nice to grieve w/yall. Don't be judge-y

28

1

421

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

Lil update. I got married y'all. 😊 We eloped in Muir Woods & it was so cute! 🤍 The past year was devastating but this guy helped me through it. He's amazing at communication. So many video games, so much anime. His heart is so kind and I'm so glad we get to do life together.

51

0

420

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

6 years ago today. If only I knew then what I know now and could change what happened. Miss you B.

14

0

413

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Post 2020 Apocalyptic Pikachu ⚡️

23

3

416

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Pretty sure I’ve mentally aged 10yrs in 6mo. Just think what life will be like after this all passes. It will pass, and we will be stronger and more empathetic for it. Sending you guys love. 💛 As my mom would say, “keep your chin up!”

8

2

406

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

Met Byron 7 years ago today at PAX South. A photographer taking a picture of me had a cool light up pen. He said he got it at the Intel booth so I went there to get one for my CS classes notes. There I randomly met Byron. That one decision changed my life forever. Miss you, B.

19

6

401

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Every day I’ve felt the entire spectrum of emotions. Dealing with suicide aftermath sucks. I keep dreaming of a giant snake (3m diameter) chasing me no matter how far or fast or high up I go. Therapy is helping a lot, but I’m mentally exhausted. Just wishing for more smiles soon

22

0

391

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

2 years

Saw this today. Please consider marking yourself as an organ donor and telling your family. I don't know Beth, but I hope she finds a kidney.

5

25

388

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I’m tired of people trying to blame me and his friends for B’s death. He’s attempted suicide many times throughout his life. The one time he tried while we were dating I saved his life. He lived 4 more years bc of that. We’ve been broken up 3 years. I live nowhere near him. (1/3)

20

3

380

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Took a break from work to take this photo because the lighting was nice. 😅ok back to coding👩🏻‍💻

18

1

379

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

6 years

Found a real life cat bus.

3

91

373

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

7 years

Graduating :3

30

4

368

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

You can call me Azul 💙

18

1

371

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

7 years

Hard to be sad when I look at Byron holding Sir Banana :)

13

16

360

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

6 years

Birthday! 🧐

27

5

339

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Well... I got a new job and doubled my salary. 🤙🏻 Hello six figures. Weird time to be sharing a financial success, but I went through 6 interview rounds to get this coding job and... dammit I feel accomplished. 🤓💰

33

0

355

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

My brain constantly battles between anger and peace with Byron deciding to kill himself. Not a day has passed since 7/2 where I haven’t felt that juxtaposition. I can’t get the details of how he passed out of my mind. Wondering what went through his mind his last moments.

26

1

348

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

2 years

@xQc Sounds like @Byron . I'm sure the few other people in y'all's shoes can relate. I'm sorry I don't know the solution while continuing to be a streamer 💔 Gotta learn to trust people and how to be a genuine friend to those that are there.

3

0

336

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

You can block me if you want, jerk. I can grieve how I want to in my public forum that largely exists due to Byron. No one’s asking you or anyone else to interact with me. I’m sad about it, ok? Happened 4 mo ago. Go be uncomfortable somewhere else.

~My$tic~

@mitchy_page

4 years

@BlueGoesMew I feel like every other tweet is you mentioning byron and his choice to commit suicide. I understand its a terrible thing and obvi you were close to him, but its starting to feel like you dont know how to function without mentioning his name and its uncomfortable.

16

0

2

34

0

327

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

@partylikemerk I love you merk. I’m glad you shared this. We tried our best. ❤️

0

319

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

I’m giving myself the sads. Weekend of Everland stress test. May 17th. The ones closer to his death hurt too much. We planned to talk the day he died. It crushes me. I wish I had known. Last time we talked on the phone was May 25th. Last time I saw him in person was Feb 12th. )-:

10

7

319

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

20-30% of pregnancies end in miscarriage in the first 8 weeks. Around 1 in 4. I found out a few days ago that I just lost my pregnancy at 6 weeks 2 days. It's important to talk about. It's hard, but so many of us deal with it. Be gentle to yourself. You aren't alone. 🤍

23

2

324

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

2 years

Met @Byron 8 years ago. 8! Turned my life upside down. Saw everything in a new way from then onward. What a whirlwind. Grateful for that fateful day despite everything. Miss you dearly, old friend. (He took this pic a few days after we met) 🤍🐙

12

1

322

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

7 years

:3

15

7

311

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

8 years

First day of working at my dream job complete!! So happy to be at NASA/JPL 🚀 i love being a programmer!

31

9

310

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

7 years

Happy New Years from me @notdiscomania and @Pokket ✨🥂😊

9

3

312

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

2 years

It's my birthday!! 34 years for the lore of Blue. I'm old. 🌸🌺🌹

41

1

318

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

10 months no cigs! Nicotine sucks y’all. Don’t start(including vaping). Trust me. :)

26

2

304

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

7 years

Resident ex-emo office software engineer here 👋🏻

16

6

296

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

7 years

Birthday! =^___^=

49

4

302

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

Most of B’s friends have their own mental health issues. We did our best. Byron decided to go, it was his decision and he wouldn’t blame anyone for it. I get some of y’all want people to blame, but no one is at fault. (3/3)

25

1

295

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

7 years

Brown contacts. Hi. 👾

24

3

282

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

I was trying to explain to someone what made Byron himself, and they didn't understand or appreciate his awesomeness. Made me realize no one new will ever get the joy of getting to know that silly and brilliant guy. 💔 Miss you my friend.

14

0

288

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

7 years

Yooooooo 🐬

26

2

282

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

I am going through... a really bad depression episode. The worst in like 10 years. My life is the best it's been, and apparently your brain can start unpacking trauma when life is stable. I'm seeing my therapist today. If you are struggling like me, wish I could hug you so hard.

32

0

279

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

8 years

Guys.... take note, dressing well is important to us lady folk. 😍😍😍 Hory Guacamore

30

8

265

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

6 years

C and I are about to hit the town in Phoenix 😈

25

1

258

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

6 years

When u leave ur phone unattended for 10 min and find pics days later 😒😋 hahaha

8

4

256

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

People say I should have been there for him, and his friends let him down. That we didn’t do enough. It’s a slap in the face to all the people who made Byron’s mental health and friendship a priority even when he pushed us away. Covid has been hard on everyone. (2/3)

3

1

257

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

4 years

:/ just membering our last few conversations

14

0

253

Blue Madrigal 💾

@BlueGoesMew

3 years

The person in front of me at the drive thru pharmacy has WoW stickers all over their car & drives a nissan rogue. I hope they know who B is. I'm so damn glad he lives on in others. Just imagining they did makes me happy. He's been on my mind a lot lately. Sry for all the posts

14

2

249