In the waiting room for my first session for alcohol counseling! I am determined to get sober and this is the first step I'm taking! I'm actually excited! I got this! 💪
Hey! Today I'm 1 week sober! If I get thru tonite that is, but I know I will!💪 I have support in person n also the alcohol counseling program, but seriously the support I get from you guys? I cannot tell you how much it means to me n how it helps me. ilysm n tysm! I can do this!
Going to a meet & greet at 3 for petsitting! I know I kinda have a dark look n have all these visible tattoos so I really hope they don't discriminate against me. I know it's 2022 but ppl can be really weird about these things n judge a book by its cover. Anyway, wish me luck!
Today is my 6 year sobriety date from drugs! It hasn't been easy, it **still isn't easy, but I'm doing it, literally day by day. Sometimes moment by moment. It's still a struggle to stay sober tbh but it's so doable. My life has improved immensely and for that, I'm grateful 💕
Alright so confession time: As some of you might know, I recently admitted that I've relapsed (alcohol) n I seriously have gone back n forth w myself about posting that I'm quitting again bc I'm scared I'm not gonna be able to do it. But fk it, I'm gonna try. Wish me luck pls 😬
Sober for one full week today! I'm a little proud, at least I made it this far even tho it's just 7 days, it obviously had a hold on me considering it made me so upset to go w/o it, so yeah! Kinda proud! Thank you for all the support!!
Last night we were watching Carol Burnett video starring Betty White. I thought she looked so much older than she really was (through out her whole career too) n its bc of her hairstyle. So I Googled it n found this pic. A different hair style literally took 20 years off of them
Today, 8.30.2022, is one whole year that I quit smoking cigarettes! I never thought I'd be able to get out of the grasp they had on me but I surprised myself. I'll always say it's one of the hardest drugs to quit. Good riddance 🚭
5 more minutes until my birthday. Fkn mess earlier today literally lying flat in sand, sweat dripping down my face, trying to get a 39 year old tortoise out of a deep hole he dug 3 feet underneath the two properties. Coaxed him out w/ a tomato. Got the video too if interested 😅
My date of getting off drugs is 6.6.16, BUT prior to that, I DID have a handle on my alcohol consumption n would have a glass of wine w dinner. Well this xmas it really got outta control. At my age, it's not cute, it's not fun, it's pathetic. So I'm now COMPLETELY sober 1.3.23 💪
1 month sober today!! I know that this is just the start of my sobriety though. I'm at the very beginning. I wish I could say I have 20 or more years like a lot of you can say but I know I will get to that point 💯 I got this 💪😁
My birthday isn't today, it's tomorrow. I wanna celebrate being clean off drugs because the day falls on the 6th; my sobriety date is 6.6.16 n so it's been 6 years I've been sober! That's a lotta sixes, so good time to celebrate, don't you think ^_^
#RecoveryPosse
#soberlife
Right before I was about to get my mammogram. I was nervous but my gut said everything was gonna be fine. Was going thru my gallery and thought I'd share bc it's a pic where I think I actually look semi decent. I do try to spare you from the ugly ones. (Well, for the most part)
I haven't looked at notifs yet but I wanted to say I got thru last night n stuck to my sobriety! My wife said this morning "I am SO proud of you!" n I'm telling you I will *never* get tired of hearing her say those words to me. All your support means the world to me too! Tysm🥰🫂
3 months sober today. Man, it's a depressing day tho. So overcast and dark n I usually love these days, but today is just meh. I'll post about my sobriety again (if) when I get to 6 months.
And I'll give myself the chip
Sure. Meanwhile, in reality, a walk in the woods while unmedicated would have me looking for a sturdy tree to hang myself from. What a ridiculously erroneous meme made by people who've no doubt never experienced crippling depression
I'm really getting sick of walking on eggshells around my friends n worrying about their feelings all while they say whatever they want to me. I'm tired of feeling like I said the wrong thing n them misunderstanding me over stupid shit. Sorry for the rant, I'll get back to jokes
Ok fk it, I went back n forth about sharing this selfie I took when I was out this morning bc I'm never satisfied w how my dumb face looks in pics as far as smiling not smiling etc
but... I rly love what Im wearing today n I love wearing hats! N it's cold so I have an excuse lol
I graduated the Alcohol Recovery Program! My therapist and I both cried n hugged goodbye as she was congratulating me. I just feel so sad I won't get advice from her anymore. She was the best therapist I've had in MANY yrs. I told her I'll come by n say "Hi", an that's on God too
My Mazi boy is home! We didn't have to put him down! We're gonna have him get a shot every month for the pain and the visit was a big bill but I got my boy! He's home with his momma!
Oh! I forgot! Yesterday was my 2 year anniversary of quitting cigarettes!! ok fck it, I'm proud of my*self* bc imo, it's one of the hardest drugs to quit. You might laugh but I literally was addicted to crack at 19 and even THAT was easier to quit than cigs, js fwiw
🖤 I almost missed it! Today my wife and I are 1 week sober!! Very proud of ourselves bc last time we tried to quit, it only lasted one night until we got another bottle. Trying to get to 2 weeks so the habit is broken n hopefully it gets easier there on out! 🖤😊
Check in, guys!
Mood. I'm seriously just over life. Over ppl (except for the genuine ones). Over the bullsh/t of being kind, polite, happy n smiling at ppl (irl) just for them to be ass*****.
And I'm sorry for being negative. No one wants to hear someone b/tching, but I'm just so sick of it all
I'm fully aware of the ppl who are only here for the dumb sht I post but I don't care about being vulnerable n opening up. As far as staying sober, its not a good night. Dw, I didnt go out n buy anything but I am SO frustrated bc I want it so bad. Surprised it has this hold on me
My brothers 😌
I love my family. And now I know they are all I have. n thank God I DO have them. Cant expect anyone else to stay for the long term, but my family will. Plus I know my family wouldn't, n never has verbally or physically abused me.
We got each other. All I need 💯
This café is called 'Sweet Little Rain'. It is served with a cloud of cotton candy. The steam from the coffee rises to dissolve the cotton candy, and the cloud begins to rain on the coffee.
You can't smoke weed (in any form, no edibles either) for 1 year, at which point you receive a direct deposit of $500,000 in your bank account. Think you could do it?
Oh yeah! Today marks 6 months of being cigarette free! Even with the loss of my dad and other major stressors!
Someone bake me a cake!
I prefer French silk... which is a pie, so scratch that, someone bake me a pah!😀
Just wanted to show you the split pea soup with ham that I made for dinner tonight! This is pretty much a tradition after every Christmas ham... I use the bone and cut up the pieces around the bone to make a delicious meal ^_^ Whatcha think?
Shanny's kids got taken by CPS. She's saying she wanted them to go so she can get over the cancer she doesn't even know is she has, but we all know it's bc the kids told the social worker they were scared of Jason. She made her choice apparently
At this point I'm only trying to be friends with people who would have been burned as a witch or lobotomized had they been born at the turn of the 20th century
I wanted to share this pic of when I was 16 years old. It's my favorite pic from my teenage years because it was taken right before a big piano recital and every time I see it, it brings back memories of my grandma. One of the songs I played made her cry. I miss you so much Mémé
First night sober n I want to drink so BAD, having water w dinner is so boring n on top of that, I have a Journey song stuck in my head 😒
I think I just havta get thru the first week or two, to get outta the habit n it'll be easier. But the craving sure is kicking my a** tonight
#100ThingsThatMakeMeHappy
Day 1: My wife.
She was extremely instrumental in my getting clean. She's helped shape who I am today. Gracious, loving n nurturing, patient, kind to everyone and with the biggest heart of anyone you will ever meet. I love her beyond love itself
Pretty much have gotten through 2 days of not smoking! You have NO idea how hard this is (Well, I'm sure some of you do!)
Please wish me luck or pray that I can keep going!
I'm open w my addictions n if ppl wanna judge me for it I suggest they look at their own life, their own issues n the skeletons in their closet. bc ain't *no one* on this earth perfect. Every single 1 of us are fkd up in some ways n have done fkd up sht whether u admit it or not
I'm not in a good way. We're making plans to get me into a mental hospital (voluntarily, ofc)
So if you don't see me for the couple of days, that's why. However, i don't want to go into the ones in this area, they're sh!t. So if I can't get into the one 2 hours away, it's a no go
Happy Lesbian Visibility Week from my wife and I 🤍
Lots of ups and downs in our relationship but we get through each and every one of them with love, trust and honesty.
We've known each other for 14 years, been in a relationship for 13 and were finally able to marry 11.20.2020💕
Taking my wife and our daughter out to eat to celebrate Mother's Day as she'll be working all day on the actual date.
Love this woman! Shes not only an amazing mother, she's pretty much everything to everyone in her life 💕
My wife, or I guess ex wife now, just asked me earlier before I was leaving to go to the store, to pick up some beer for her while I was there, and I did, but I think its pretty fkd up for her to even put me in that position while *knowing* I'm in active sobriety counseling
I relapsed, yeah. Unfortunately.
I knew this time was going to be harder than last. We're going thru a lot, not just me but my wife as well n we're dealing w it in this unhealthy way. n idk how to stop.
Sooo.... 🤍
You guys can check in too, if you'd like. Might be encouraging
I got my cheek pierced! Well I had it pierced last week but the bar he put in was way too short and my skin was literally growing around the piercing. I just went there and he changed it out w no problem! Which is surprising bc most places are asses about it. So I'm very happy
So lately I've felt jaded like I'm starting to lose faith in people. I've always loved humans, you know.. like ppl in general.. and now I'm starting to build up this hate for people bc I keep getting hurt. So I wanted to thank you guys for all your kindness. Sincerely. Thank you.
Ex wife is in the hospital bc of irregular heart beat. Keeps going from 40 to 100 beats every 10 minutes or so. They ruled out Bradycardia and said she's very close to having a heart attack which she's already had 2. Just venting, not asking for tots n pears but I love you guys
so idgaf to say I was so excited y/day to see my baby girl n *I* had to remind, "Hey I'll be leaving at 1 to be at your place by 1:45!" So fkn excitd this whole time only to be told gramma pickd her up n will be watching her.
So excuse me while I feel sum type a way
I was just outside and farted really loud. I heard my neighbors giggle next door
So for the past 10 minutes I've been having a fake conversation with them in my head, "So what? Like I'm the only person in the world who farts?" "Oh, YOU don't fart, get outta here."
Good times 😏
My drug use was getting out of hand and consuming my every thought! That's no way to live. I can't say that I really like myself, however I guess I respect myself enough to know that I deserve a better life than that. So I went into detox. That was 6 years ago... (1.2)
I am NOT cis
I am a woman
And if you want me to respect what YOU want to be called
then respect ME with what *I* want to be called.
Respect goes both ways.
It is disrespectful to call me something I do not want to be called.
But as w all narcissists, respect is a one way street
My bro n SIL both togther created the most beautful, unblemishd n perfect baby ever. She is perfect n I cannot wait to hold her again!
Shes the biggest reason I quit drinking. I wanna live longer to see the developmental milestones!
I am so grateful she was brot into this world
If I lose this account, how will I find all of you again? I know most of you, but some of you don't interact and I cant member all the screen names. If I lose this account, try to find me again.
Just know my stalker made a duplicate account of mine, but it's locked. thats not me