My heart is so full.💍
Sam and our friends planned a surprise trip for me, tricked me into thinking we were going for a meal but instead it was to a little cabin with a private garden. Our friends were there, performing The Outer Wilds soundtrack as Sam proposed. I cried a lot.
TW: ED/suicide
Thinking about 19 vs 29.
Want to celebrate how far I’ve come.
Obese at 19 followed by an overdose.
5 & 1/2 stone anorexic by 21.
Making the most of life at 29. No more cutting or self harm. Only self care. For anyone who needs this, things can improve.🌸
Couldn't resist making a highlights edit of
@DaftLimmy
and
@alzasto
's DBD stream from last night with the 'follow Limmy and miss the skillchecks' redemption, as it was the funniest thing I've ever watched on Twitch.
Yesterday I grabbed food with
@boba_witch
. We were debating for a while what this white fluffy cloud substance was. Was it salt? Coconut shavings? A new form of fluffy rice?
I confidently scooped a heap onto my fork and into my mouth, certain it would be tasty.
It was salt.
The first image is 10 years progress between left and right.
2nd image is 6 months progress.
I’m proud of myself and I’m getting close to my first chin up. Building muscle has been so fun!
My journey has been so long, but it’s a reminder that everything takes time. ❤️
Anorexia recovery leaves me stressing about my appearance & weight. I normally need to edit photos of myself before I can upload them. But today I felt okay being who I am and looking how I look. So this is not photoshopped and no filter. Silly, but it’s a big step for me
I know 5 months isn’t a big milestone or anything but honestly I’ve just had the best time with
@03gibbss
. We’ve pretty much seen each other everyday since we met and I couldn’t imagine a happier relationship or more perfect partner. Thanks for being my player 2 for 5 months Sam.
6 weeks ago I quit my job after working as a front end developer for 2+ years. It was my first salary job after 12 years working in retail and hospitality.
I love coding. It was hard to quit. But here is why I left my job and why I am nervous of finding a new one.
TW: sa
For anyone struggling with spending time alone- I sometimes have gone up to 9 weeks without hearing from anyone outside of work related dialogue over the years. Learning to be okay alone is exhausting and scary but here are some things I try to do when I’m alone and struggling.
Sam was the first person to ever buy me flowers in my life, 18ish months ago he surprised me with a bunch of roses for the first time and I cried because I didn’t know how to respond. He still surprises me with flowers now and it makes my heart so fuzzy. ❤️🌷🌹
@03gibbss
Celebrating 18 months since my guy
@03gibbss
asked me to be his girlfriend in a tent at Arctangent Festival. We’ve made so many great experiences together and I’m so excited for all our future plans 💕😊 x
Happy birthday to my best friend, my soul mate, my inspiration and my player 2,
@03gibbss
. You’re the kindest, cuddliest & most hard working person I’ve ever met and I treasure every second I get to spend with you and you really make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world.😊
@1goodtern
Hey, first of all I love your account. It has helped me feel so much less alone. Secondly I wanted to share with you experiences I’ve had literally this past week, despite everything going on. I feel like I’ve become an exhausted broken record having to explain how c🦠 works.
@RealGayArbys
Hi! I’m Nikki!
I’m a full stack web developer and I’m in the process of learning to make apps as a hobby. I love running, weight lifting, painting, sewing & playing games. I love horror films & tv shows. I’m also getting into writing. Enjoy messaging my friends silly things too.
A while back
@03gibbss
took me dress shopping because I have breakdowns about my appearance when I go clothes shopping and always worry stuff would look better on someone else. So he picked this out for me. Wore it out on today’s walk. I also caved and cut bangs back in. 😅
It has been almost a year since our lives were completely changed when Sam tested positive for covid.
We’ve lost so much this year, in most areas of our lives. It’s hard being left behind.
It’s okay to miss things.
#pots
#CovidIsNotOver
Was given flowers for the first time ever in my life, went for a nice lunch, in the evening went to some bars and took this handsome guy for a meal at Pasture. Had a beautiful Valentine’s Day with
@03gibbss
. I’m so lucky 😊💕💕🌹🌷
Bought these cat dungarees second hand from Marzia’s Depop around a year ago and I adore them! 😭
I’m really starting to feel confident, I’ve made some lovely friends over the last few months, started fun personal projects and have been getting fitter & stronger. 🤗🥰
TW: Sexual Assault- ‘r’
I’ve been on the fence about saying anything as I really don’t want to share too much- but I want to raise awareness about the ways people have at times responded to me about serious incidents and how s/assault seems to have just been normalised x
I was complaining to
@03gibbss
that they never sold figures of Mouse from Reboot back in the day despite her being a pretty main character in the show 😅 so he got one custom made for me for Christmas to go with my other existing Reboot figures 💕
#ReBootRevival
#reboot
I woke to some pretty awful news this morning that my uncle passed away very suddenly from a heart attack. He was only 60 and I’m finding it challenging how much of my family pass young. As a result I probably won’t be streaming this week. 💔
I lost my phone today on a walk. After retracing footsteps in the rain we had no luck and presumed it was stolen. Then we got through to a couple who found my phone. I got them some chocolates and flowers in return.
Just a reminder that there is good in the world ❤️🌹
Now that the stream has ended I finally let myself go and have a little sob off camera 😅 feeling very emotional. Thank you so much to
@DaftLimmy
for the raid. Today I had a follower goal to get to 600 and everyone helped me smash that to 746 followers. Thank you so much 💕🌸💕🌸
This day last year I was with
@03gibbss
at Arctangent, where he asked me to be his girlfriend. Saying yes is the best decision I’ve ever made, he’s changed my life and not a day goes by where I don’t feel like the luckiest girl in the world. Love you so much Sam, happy 1 year. 💕
I’m already having the best day with
@03gibbss
and the Pokémon Center hasn’t even opened yet. Been here 2 hours now and it has flown by 😊💕 2 hours to go until opening!!
#PokemonCenterLondon
PT sessions 12 weeks progress! Before and after.
+2.2kg of muscle
-2.5kg of fat
This has been such hard work but it is paying off! Whilst I’ve still got a long journey ahead, I’m delighted with the progress so far. 🥰
Excited for the next 12 weeks. 💪
I’ve had thousands of messages ripping my appearance to pieces and others posting photos of me across the internet over the past two weeks.
My body has loved my fitness journey and in turn I love my body back. Staying as strong as I can. Here are some photos I really like ❤️
1 year since I started my job as a front end developer. I can now do backend development too and do: PHP, HTML, SCSS, JavaScript, VueJS. It’s a challenge, you have to criticise yourself all the time and look for ways to do better, but you get there.
#100DaysOfCode
#womenintech
When
@03gibbss
said he’d booked something for Valentine’s Day I didn’t realise he meant a hotel with petals, a balcony with a beautiful view of Bath, and a free rubber duck called Oliver! Love you so much Sam 💕
Our cat Kratos is feeling sad that people are only tweeting about the game today and not the real god of war himself. So here he is, so he can stop feeling left out.
On Saturday it was 3.5 years since
@03gibbss
asked a little goblin to officially be his gf. We didn’t get to spend it together =[ I’ve been on my own for a little while and the past few weeks have been pretty rough.
But I wanna share how lucky I am to share my life with him💗
This little fluff celebrated his first birthday this week. Me and
@03gibbss
didn’t get a chance to share some pics of how well behaved he is around our dinners and the pretty faces he makes. Happy birthday Kratos you silly monkey 🐒.
Sometimes I get down because I feel like upper body workouts, and eating more veg and doing facial exercises goes nowhere. Sometimes you have to look at photos to see how far you have come. The left is a year ago, the right is today, I weigh the same but have more muscle now!
It's here! VSRDLE is live!
An online word guessing game where you compete against others to guess the word first! Instructions below!
As a warning this has only been thoroughly tested on Chrome, and ios mobile so other browsers/devices may have bugs!
These are pretty vulnerable pics to share. But I also want to give a training update on my loose skin as I was so surprised today. ❤️
I struggled with loose skin tremendously throughout my 20s after weight loss which was too fast. Bottom photo is last year, top one is today.
Happy 30th birthday to my best friend in the whole world
@03gibbss
. He’s such a skilled, kind, funny and supportive person. I feel incredibly lucky to get to spend my life with him. He deserves all the love and birthday wishes today. Welcome to the 30s club. 🎈🎉
Our baby Kratos is 3 today! 🥳
Happy birthday you massive cloud. Maybe by your 4th birthday you’ll stop growing, you’re the biggest cat I’ve ever seen now 😅
I can’t believe I’m saying this, but here is makeup-less me thriving and being cute with
@03gibbss
because I really like my appearance 🤗. I feel pretty. And it feels amazing. 💞
Bristol Half Marathon was a blast and such a beautiful morning. Thanks so much to all who donated and supported- I raised £198 for
@ItsInTheBag
in memory of my buddy Jeff. 🧡 Massive congrats to
@03gibbss
as well who smashed the HM in 1:41:50, honestly so proud of him 🧡🧡🧡
I can walk again! The last few weeks have been terrifying. But I pulled through. There will be more flare ups, and I’m so scared for them, but I’m treasuring the small things right now 💞 thanks
@03gibbss
for basically being my carer the past few weeks, you’re amazing. ❤️
I’ve been absolutely spoilt for my birthday today by
@03gibbss
. I feel so blessed to have him in my life, he’s helped me through a really tough week, as have some wonderful friends who’ve helped me smile and laugh. More appreciation posts to come! 🥰
If you’ve been following my insta stories you’ll have seen our home renovation spam. In just under a week we’ve made some really good progress on the main bedroom (still not quite finished). We changed flooring- repainted- removed an old wardrobe and the tree. Before and after.
@1goodtern
I keep stubbing my toe on the table leg. It hurts a lot but I just can’t help but keep stubbing it. I could put slippers on or move the table but I don’t think that’s the issue. Some have said I just haven’t stubbed my toe enough, so I need to keep doing it until it doesn’t hurt.
Put the Christmas tree up today. Have really mixed feelings around everything. I’m looking forward to some rest & time off but Christmas Day also marks a year since Sam got sick with covid. It marks a year since a life we once knew was destroyed, & a year of barely seeing anyone.
It’s official!
@03gibbss
handed in his keys to his old place today and is all moved in. After 3 difficult years of living alone with my cat, I now get to live with my best friend and a second kitty. Everything has been worth going through to be in this position today. 💕🤗🏠🐱
In a year of so much grief and sadness, the best birthday present in the world is having
@iamsamgibbs
not in hospital and walking a little bit.
Took it nice and easy today - at one point this year I thought he wouldn’t be here for my birthday. And I’m so grateful he is.🧡
Finally had time to try out the drawing tablet
@03gibbss
bought me for my birthday, this was my first attempt! Excited to get back into illustration and drawing regularly.