@LauraMiers
ME TOO ME TOO 😭😭🥺 the worst part is, my family thinks I’m overreacting and too over cautious. I hate this, I don’t want an “all or nothing” life anymore-I’ve never even fully experienced the “all” part in my life
@chantz_y
“If there was an activity that could cause serious consequences for you and/or people you love, would you still do it?” I phrased this q to my psychiatrist who then explained we “need to socialize for our mental health”
@RealGayArbys
a) I wish that was true b) according to my parents my shielding is “heartbreaking” but they couldn’t come up with a reason why other than “we need to move on from COVID”-like, yes, me too, I actually want to relax and experience life for once
@theBrianaMills
YES!!! Oh my god, the fawning “please don’t leave me” response as a survival mechanism to be safe and ignoring your own “emotional container to fill someone else” because that someone else usually has a lot of power over you and can lash out if you disobey
@cseesit
@DGBassani
I keep praying that someday (when they have a stroke or a heart attack-they’re 59) they’ll understand but i feel very very very alone and sometimes want to give up and go into the death void because it’s easier
@jplarocque
“Just abstain” right now is probably the sanest mental health advice, I haven’t left the house since July because I don’t want to have to think 🤔 about who I might infect or the VERY REAL tax this virus will take on someone with tiny lungs like me
@NjbBari3
“Can we be us again, like we used to? I miss us” Like, me too, but as someone who has never EVER been “healthy” getting used to the world outside again (after barely being in) will take some adjusting-my friends and family’s have NEVER understood
@SusScro58355800
@AndrewHewat
@ChristineLoriol
“You won’t die when you get it, but you might die from complications in 10-20 years-we don’t know yet” I just finished my first bout last month and it reminds me of pneumonia which left me with mental health struggles and listlessness (I’m 27)
@BeingCharisBlog
It me-it’s my 28th birthday today; i was infectedfor the first time with COVID in July and I’ll genuinely be surprised if I live another 3-5 years (I have Cerebral Palsy and am already “age accelerated” I feel 70)
@iseeuliars
Does anyone else wish that you didn't have to do this? Like, if COVID disappeared and you could do out and hug and kiss people and pet dogs without fear of sickness? I hate the fact that COVID caused us all to have shorter lifespans and higher illness
@laurieallee
I’m scared i have COVID again; this isn’t fair I don’t want an early death and lasting complications; I have Cerebral Palsy and feel 65 at 28, my parents have resigned me to this for “normalcy”
@theBrianaMills
This is one of the reasons I loved lockdown so much; I’d love to go to my friend’s engagement party and enjoy my non refundable concert tickets without fear of sickness and death, to make new friends, laugh and enjoy each other’s company, lockdown gave me that chance
@indehisce
Yeah this is lonely and it sucks i hate it-I recently had a conversation with my dad where I broke down sobbing because i’m 2wks post COVID iso and they decided to attend a party and get me sick and isolated for 3wks (I have Cerebral Palsy and they’re my PCAs)
@hillygirl1939
I bought myself little treats and things-thinking “when’s the last time I will ever do this?” I genuinely don’t see myself being alive in 10 months-2yrs because my friends and family have decided to “move on” knowing that they could potentially get someone really sick
@salamasinamusic
I had COVID last year in August 2022, I know my life is at least somewhat shorter now, and I’ve had suicidal symptoms every odd month and my family’s pressuring me HARD to “move on because COVID’S over!” Fuck this, I hate this, I wish ppl understood me
@megabusofficial
I miss the world like crazy; but I also kind of miss the collective "what if this was suddenly taken from you?" in regards to seeing friends and family and soaking up people's energies and being near each other-I have Cerebral Palsy, I've never known youth
@RageSheen
I WISH THEY DID, intranasal “miracle vaccines” were touted as the solution 2 years ago-I really really wish it were a bullet cure for COVID and long covid ills, some of my friends are NOVIDS and I’d love to attemy friend’s engagement party and not get sick
@Guiness_Pig
It probably might be for some folks-as with all high risk situations, Covid included, they’re will unfortunately be some who wring their hands in discomfort going “screw it, too much mental gymnastics” whereas someone like myself who has Cerebral Palsy has 0 choice
@TRyanGregory
“We’re all going to get it, and we’re all going to get it multiple time…you can’t keep us from living our lives, you’re being crazy” My mum after letting me know that some of my brother’s friends all slept over (unmasked a la 2019) I JUST GOT OVER MY FIRST COVID LAST MONTH
@theBrianaMills
I called my mom “ableist” today after being screamed at about shielding and about how “I need medication for my COVID anxiety” (currently being forced on cipralex) and I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO-it helps me sleep sure, only reason i like it
@catladyactivist
I need bullet point responses to the “Covid is milder now/it won’t kill you/putting restrictions on others behaviors is harmful to their mental health” when I ask that my home, my sanctuary be a place that enforces indoor mask wearing
@StephTaitWrites
My parents are literally threatening to pay a team of psychologists to institutionalize me to “make me go back into the world” because I’m happier isolated 24/7-I’m 28 and not a child, they need to leave me alone
@theBrianaMills
HOLY SHIT YES! And there are benefits to accepting and "reality shifting" for me I've found : ie more compassionate, more imaginative, more creative, kinder, more playful, open to seeing other's perspectives and realities etc;
@BeingCharisBlog
ME TOO! I miss people watching, absorbing people energies, vicariously snatching bits of conversation drama 🎭 I miss feeling safe out in the world and then going to my own little hobbit hole space to decompress
@theBrianaMills
HOLY FRICKING HELL YES!!!! Honestly it was beautiful to finally feel understood and as “safe” as I could; I felt an amazing sense of belonging that’ll never return, I miss the camaraderie and connection that comes from reduced physical mobility
@PeteUK7
I honestly wish this wasn’t the case, I miss outdoor potlucks and family get togethers (held outside in the summertime) I typically don’t eat much in front of others anymore-I miss sharing a meal 🥘 sometimes
@jplarocque
My parents insistence on “oh we’re all going to get it so who cares in the long run?” is maddeningly frustrating-“Yeah, you could get in a car accident or get cancer” NONE OF THOSE THINGS ARE CONTAGIOUS 😷
@Jasperlope
@1goodtern
I hate this, i wish Covid would go away forever so we can all live without fear of sickness/early death 💀 I wish i’d never gotten covid in the first place-and I’m happy never eating in a restaurant again and hybrid work rules!
@SleepyJim0
My family are forcing me to “move forward” from COVID and that’s terrifying, I need a response to their question “why do you think you’re special and exempt from getting sick? How do you know you’ll get sick?”
@theBrianaMills
My parents want to send me to an inpatient clinic because “I changed after I got COVID” and “you’re not high risk you just need to get out more” it’s so frustrating and particularly why I self isolate as much as I can-no one masks anymore so no, it’s unsafe
@keetmuise
AS SOMEONE WHO WAS BORN A MICRO PREEMIE IN OCTOBER OF THAT YEAR 3 MONTHS BEFORE I WAS DUE-AND SPENT 3 MONTHS IN THE NICU ON OXYGEN I WISH FOR NOTHING MORE THAN A STERILIZATION VACCINE 😢😭
@theBrianaMills
Even if I could just leave the house on a short masked walk, or if I could pop into a store safely 2-3x a week, that'd be epic (I've never been one for massive events on the daily-pre-COVID they took a week to recover from, I have CP)
@LauraMiers
@greg_travis
@Andre__Damon
“Very few people are immediately dying anymore! Yay!” Great, but they’re still becoming disabled and dying, just years later/without any “supposed reason” and the elderly and immunocompromised are still getting extremely sick later on-HOW IS THAT BETTER?
@chantz_y
I wish so desperately that it was safe for EVERYONE to resume “normal life” to hold big parties with buffets and concerts filled with bodies swaying and everyone could touch and not get sick 😷
@indehisce
❤️💯 this is why i’m “overly generous and “kind and giving” no one owes me anything in this life and I want to make it as cozy and comfortable for as many people as I can-I have the financial capability to do so, but i’m also 2wks post COVID iso
@LauraMiers
The skin looks aged, like I know *everyone* is going to look that way at some point but I had COVID for the first time last July (2022) at 27 and now I feel 60 at 28 😭😭 I don’t want any of us to die yet (but please take me in my sleep)
@theBrianaMills
I seem really really antisocial and i hate it, I’ve always seemed sort of antisocial and “off in my own world” but COVID really amplified the “turning off and on for my own survival” by making the threat everyone, everwhere, everyday
@DebHolloway
Since others don’t want to wear a respirator in public spaces, I have no choice but to keep distance and/or stay home as much as possible-my family is wearing respirators “for me” in public spaces but they resent having to treat the world like a hospital
@Guiness_Pig
There’ve been seasons of my life where I’ve had 0 bodily autonomy or choice whatsoever-i cope by a practice called “imaginary empathy” whereby that doesn’t keep me bitterand resentful; in fact, there is some freedom because you just do without thinking of it
@MeetJess
I really really wish we didn’t have to “submit to potentially harmful biohazard” anytime we go outside our homes and paint those who want to avoid diseases as unreasonable and unrealistic-vox did the same in early 2021 and it’s painted as “anxiety”
@catladyactivist
@Magnolia_613
My mom remarked how “creepy” it was for me to window-watch the neighbors use her pool (she lets them during summers all unmasked) and just goaded me outside to talk to them; they’re loud and I’m trying to get work done; “We can’t live like you forever”
@MCM54321
I miss my family and friends so much; my neighbors are engaged-I have a new cousin in law, I HATE COVID FUCK COVID FUCK COVID I WANNA HAVE ADVENTURES TO SHOW MY LOVED ONES
@theBrianaMills
HOLY SHIT!!! I needed this right now, thank you thank you thank you!!!! I try and teeter on “you can’t control other’s safety and responses” from “there’s a lvl 3 biohazard ☣️ infecting literally everyone and making them sick to varying degrees of recovery” FUCK ME
@theBrianaMills
I’m sick with a fever and I PRAY it’s not COVID again-I was quarantined for 3 weeks last July and I know if i get it again it’ll be so much worse and no one believes me and im scared 😱 AF
@broadwaybabyto
I just had a panic attack when my unmasked brother and his unmasked girlfriend came into the room i was in unannounced-I was masked, with open windows and enovid just in case, but Covid through the ears makes me panic spiral
@theBrianaMills
I’m feeling tired of unsafe gatherings, of being gaslit that “we need to move on and COVID’s over” Like, the only way I would feel 💯 comfy right now is if there were transmission stopping vaccines/masks were like hard hats and safety goggles or hats and sunglasses
@emilyesfraser
I know I won’t make it till Christmas-I had hopes and plans for the year ahead but with the way everyone is acting and with the COVID surge it’s easier to just go, I got my booster last week and I feel sick with symptoms now
@theBrianaMills
I miss the world so very much; but a lack of precautions are making things so very unsafe right now-I'm okay with never eating in public again, until we have better treatments/safer vaccines but I'd love to go out into the world again
@BeingCharisBlog
YUP YUP YUP 👍 Also, it sucks, I HATE IT HERE-there’s a part of me that just wants to give in to the doomsayers “I’ve had a great run at this ‘life’ thing, 27 is a good age to go, never thought i’d even be alive this long”
@Nobody35810036
My own parents are like this, I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it here; they’re now treating me like I don’t exist; I’m preparing for a slow death 💀
@xabitron1
I wish it was safe to do things out in the world and that socializing and parties didn’t come with death risks-both my mom and my doctor chastised me for “exessive” Covid precautions during my visit yesterday
@lyluancake
I’m in love with this, I’ve fantasized about going to my friends engagement party and using non refundable concert tickets and having an awesome time-“but COVID’s still here and we need to live with it”
@Nobody35810036
Honestly, if Covid treatments were to appear tomorrow and increased life expectancy I'd make as many friends and lovers as humanly possible and live with as much with integrity and compassion as I possibly can, because in the end all we have is death
@Nobody35810036
Ok, this is me with my parents right now, FUCK I HATE THIS! FUCK COVID AND FUCK HEALTH ANXIETY-I continue to ask my family members “why do you not try to keep me safe?” Their response: “Why are you trying to restrict our freedom to live life?” 💔💔🤢
@TRyanGregory
I have LongCovid and I feel like I’m slowly being poisoned and will probably die quick🤢 but I’ll have to take that over my non CP having family being like, “you’re masking again? Ugh” and when I’m inevitably proven right they’ll just be like “😭🥺”
@theBrianaMills
I used much more colorful language, but screaming at my family that they’re ableist and will kill me faster was extremely cathartic-my mom’s response “you’re already dead 💀 😭” this is the same woman who told me she’d exclude me from traveling when she was 22
@theBrianaMills
AS someone with CP who's had to adopt "ER waiting room" behaviors for most of her childhood-none of those things were really accessible to me until 7-8 yrs ago, and even them most are huge privileges both seen and unseen; CP and post COVID can suck at times (28, feeling 60)
@DebHolloway
I hate COVID, it is not a resilience test, a testament to bravery, or a lesson to be learned, IT’S A FUCKING BIOHAZARD ☣️ THAT WILL PROBABLY KILL YOU EVENTUALLY-GODDAM I WANT OFF THIS SHIT FILLED RIDE, my own family thinks me insane
@salamasinamusic
I really really wish I didn’t have to treat human beings like flammable paint cans-💔 My brother’s chilling with a very small group (3 ppl) and I swear to god someone will very likely get sick 😷 tonight-FUCK COVID I WANT TO BE AROUND OTHER HUMANS COMPANY
@iseeuliars
Like, I’m masking around her no exceptions at this point but I’m praying she doesn’t end up with COVID again because i’ll have to run the household and I have Cerebral Palsy so the things I can make are limited
@RealGayArbys
I really really really want to not treat humans like flammable paint cans anymore-I hate it, I miss hugging humans, sharing food, sharing stories, laughing and eating together; I’d LOVE a sterilized vaccine so transmission stops forever
@BeGillz
My family is this way and I have no idea WHAT THE FUCK to do; I am immunocompromised and scared 😱 AF; more fearful than i’ve been for 2+ years because protections are all gone; I’ve called them all “ableist *****” more times than i can count; i hate this-FUCK COVID
@hanolliver
@sleepyknave
“You’re going to get COVID again and again and again-you’re preventing us from living our lives” my parents (I’m 27 and have CP-they function as my PCAs) I’ve thought about suicide to “relieve their burden” after they said they wouldn’t care if i died
@chantz_y
An abundance of over cautious behavior has saved my mental health since forever (I live with Cerebral Palsy) and Covid lockdowns were a great time to exercise my caution muscles because EVERYONE HAD TO LIVE LIKE ME IN THE NAME OF BASIC SAFETY
@LauraMiers
And what’s worse is 85%+ will self-gaslight: “but I’m as healthy as a horse and haven’t been sick for 45 yrs, WHY THE HELL AM I SICK ALL THE TIME 😭😭”
@salamasinamusic
I have a weak heart and lungs 🫁 if I continue to get COVID I might die; I really really miss the world but I hate all the sickness and I hope and pray for a sterilizing vax because i miss hugging 🤗 and cuddling dogs; simultaneously i also miss lockdown because alarms
@DonEford
I hate brain 🧠 fog, I don’t want to walk on landmines anymore, just take me in my sleep please I’m ready to go 😭😭❤️ my family and friends DGAF about it’s severity and i miss them like crazy
@catladyactivist
You're basically constantly "sick" even though your labs might be normal, not to mention pre-mature heart attacks, strokes and death-my mom announcing somewhat proudly to a coworker "I gave it to her" because I got pneumonia COVID last summer and haven't gotten it since (1)
@LordOfTheYeti1
I hate COVID so very very much-we all have ro jump through hoops to socialize and avoid getting sick and it’s costing us our health and livelihood; i wish we had a sterilizing vaccine but there seems to be no want of the hard things to move forward
@jubunnies
@noralove
I’ve been taking ENOVID 2x daily; if I could jut do that and never get sick I’d be happy-I spent the lat week in quarantine cause I got the stomach flu from wildfire smoke 💨 and I had to miss my dad’s nephew’s wedding (forever pissed about tht)
@LauraMiers
I miss the world so much-disabled people are often asked to be hyper-aware and hyper-empathetic to others without consideration of what we're thinking and feeling. My family thinks I live an isolated life, but prior to being infected with Covid last summer my life was joyous
@SleepyJim0
“Believe me, I wish I didn’t have to treat humans like biohazards ☣️ and I miss eating with other people so very much and laughing and enjoying each other, but COVID’s not over so here we are”-my response
@Nobody35810036
My family has gone on full minimizer and are shutting me out as a result; i’d like to just be left alone for the next few more years, that’d be a nice thought, as I fight for survival against COVID
@LauraMiers
“If it’s not happening to me it’s not happening at all”
2-3 infections later: “OH SHIT WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME? I WANT MY NORMAL HEALTH BACK” 😬
@CIssyvoo
@eatonhamilton
See i wish we didn’t have to because we deserve to feel light and free and happy and not surrounded by landmines and death nells
@BeingCharisBlog
❤️❤️ i just wish things were different-for a while I felt cared for knowing that EVERYONE HAD TO HAVE MY MINDSET for basic survival, now it’s “out of sight out of mind” I wish COVID were truly over
@SleepyJim0
“Oh but it’s only the vulnerable that need to be worried” DUDE I’m vulnerable-I need to live like it’s 2020 for survival reasons, it sucks, I hate it, I want to go out and experience life, I’m disabled, I deserve it
@TRyanGregory
“The world’s not an ER on a deck patio” sigh 😔 I wish i had that level of risk assessment-I mask outside my home and outdoors no matter what, cause you never know! I miss when the world actually took “behave like you’re in the ER” seriously
@VeronikaSain
@skymelilemyks
@CovidSolidarit1
@M8Void
But what if that was him, his mother, grandmother, aunt, sister, wife?! I seriously think he’d change his tune and shut the everloving hell up if he knows someone who gets sick, seriously ill and close to death from something
@theBrianaMills
EXACTLY! And hey I miss hugging people, I miss eating in restaurants, I miss getting to offload the “ambiguous grief” of disability and CP on sitting and laughing with friends, sharing stories and food in each other’s homes and enjoying each other’s company
@indehisce
“You seem like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders and we hate seeing you like this”-my “Covid is just the flu” family, meanwhile I’ve been dealing with migranes, neuropathy, neck and chest burning and heart palpitations for 3wks
@DailyJLee
So i have a conundrum: I’ve been quarantined since Tuesday with a suspected 2nd COVID + but i keep testing - on RATs; I feel extremely sick, like my skin is melting but no one believes me; I feel like Chicken Little
@iseeuliars
I’m currently catastrophizing because there was a worker 0.2 ft from my mom (both unmasked, both outside) HOW MUCH RISK ARE WE WILLING TO TAKE AS A SOCIETY!!!!
@apmalong
Honestly my family’s given me gripes over this for the past 8 months (since protections dropped) the ONLY time I haven’t masked during a potential exposure was because we were outside (my family was with friends who’d traveled), and lo and behold I got COVID
@StephTaitWrites
The thing is, 3 or even 2 summers ago-THE OPPOSITE WAS ACTUALLY ENCOURAGED; I have a sore throat now because some neighbors were around me unmasked last night and I’m extremely scared of COVID again, but at the same time willing to accept sweet peaceful death
@catladyactivist
As a tendency towards how "resilient" I am-I've told my family "I hope you never endure what I've had to" in regards to my Cerebral Palsy and all that comes with it-28, feeling 65, being told "you have your whole life ahead of you-let's plan good things for our future" (2)
@ElleSteinhagen
I hate it here; I have my friend’s engagement party and 1 non refundable concert in 2 months-I DO NOT LIKE THE SCENARIO WHERE I HAVE TO WEIGH POTENTIAL MITIGATIONS OR ACCEPT SICKNESS/DEATH-I hate it here; WHY WHY COVID WHY????