Bitches are gonna be so mad when we collab in our final forms and me and her get in our REAL coke whore bag, this girl held me down for so long and was only sweet and is the biggest sweetheart I met in music β€οΈβ€οΈππ
i have a drug problem and a lot of envy in my heart. i left music because i have a lot of insecurity in the person i am, and to see others succeed doing what i couldn't is obviously where this stems from. i still feel "ripped off", but that doesn't matter.
i'm not a popstar bitch, i will never be trying to please 40 year old gay men on steroids living vicariously thru women. (or teens for that matter) i come from being a psycho bitch online, and i been telling ya'll. unfucking follow me
I'm not scared of "pre-t' pics lmfaoooo, my man seen many of them and so have all my friends,,, cuz I live in reality. My man knows my dead name, my mom, my dad, this shit don't scare me sorry. Idk if it should but it don't. Lol I don't live to impress the doll planet
i could be dead inside and ready to meet jesus, but that
" p u s s y i n b i o " shit will emit such a chuckle from me and have me thinking everything will be just fine
so if i do this w yall, can the actual vinyl be pink instead i'm not a splatter type gal, like,, a nice blueish-pink. also dont forget the glowy parental advisory on the front :)
please please pleaseeee unfollow me cuz the pop shit is over. i'm back to my fucking roots. cola la flare zuzie what the fuck ever. im not gonna be controlled by prep user stans who want me to make goofy ass poopy sex songs. shout out to the REAL FANS who know the real me
shout out to the 4 for 100$ wig store at santee alley for the confidence this summer. i need to go back it was really fun and i was enjoying bangs for the first time in forever
SO, with that being said! i will be releasing horny.4u with as many of the original songs as possible, and not with a new tracklist. I'm gonna try my best to work out good splits with original producers, and the songs i've made will be copyrighted and officially belong to me.
the mcrib is back! check your local mcdodo for the mcrib sandwiches. i will (most likely not) give a mcrib to 1 special listener of this song. terms and conditioners apply. must be 51 or older to enter
and shout the fuck out to azealia banks. i'll never fully understand what you go thru, but i get a lot of it. and i relate a lot to how you think. you showed me that i don't have to do this shit THEIR WAY. i love azealia and she will always be someone i look up to
so, i had this idea, and i might do it next week, but how would ya'll feel if i did a "concert" on livestream, where i go thru the entire ayesha erotica discography and take a shot everytime i forget the words?
i love slayyyter shes the prettiest pop bitch ever. i love chase icon thats my sister for life and im sick of this big people copying her and paying her dust. shout out spencita. i love him more than life itself.
right after h4u imma drop it xxxx,, the final cut is so amazing shout out fuqtv and shout out dog for hyping me up when i was being scary sdfsdf also shout out to my papi for everything and being my world. im so happy i met someone who loves me for me and has my best interest
I'm not no cunty boots mama ass bitch, i go to 7 eleven with 5 o clock shadow and matted hair, being iconic pretty and unclockable is the least of my worries, I grew up eating ketchup out the fridge cuz there was no food.
for the first time in forever, i love my life! and i love me! outside of this fucked up character i created around myself. there was so much happiness for me, and i didn't even realize it until this year, when i left my stuffy ass room to go pursue it.
love my mom sm she been thru sm and i hope one day i can afford to treat her the way she deserves and get her the house she always wanted <3 hope ya'll can do the same one day
confirmed tracklilst so far: aatw, we can do it! (original w rap), cum c my tits (new beat same concept), anna nicole, superpuss, how great is our god, control & control the finale, delicious (reprouced), alice, h4u theme.
my idols are lil kim and azealia banks. they are REAL WOMEN who paved the way to do whatever the fuck you want to do, and i'm gonna keep paying homage to them in whatever way i can.
also idgaf if control "leaked" sdsds that song was officially out so many times and was just a fun pop song to tack onto what was to be my pop album, its not that deep. please enjoy it! everything will come into place, and if you like my music, great!
(i'm not going to bed, im gonna go get a soda and freak out about missing the people i love even more!!!!!!<3) (i love my loved ones<3) (the soda i'm getting is a squirt<3)
Might drop 2 videos soon and then just drop the music under a new name becuz I don't care to battle over being me, I'd rather keep it pushing, we shall see what the future holds.
I'll end with this: hoarding videos of teenagers is weird, even if they are notorious, I kinda vomit in my mouth thinking about how people have folders in their Acer laptops of pictures and videos of teenage me... Let alone nude videos and pics, that's suspicious as fuck
the dream is columbia. they have helped me out a lot but i don't think the higher ups fuck with me, so i'mma do this shit indie until someone actually wants to fund. i'm not tryna make slut pop:vegas, i'm tryna do sth more emo and me. might just keep dropping and let fans recoup
btw im aware of "that" spotify account, and so are lawyers, but spotify and dsp's move very very slowly w this stuff so... hey. but ykw, at least i have been good with my whole sugar free diet thing. thats an upside to this week. hee hee
As for "Henry" "Eugene" or whatever, I live everyday in my truth. My man knows I'm a tr*nny and still loves me, as does his family and my family. Y'all know I'm not scared of shit and the more people you hack and do weird shit too the more everything lines up for a case
the mixtape is coming when it comes because i'm a perfectionist, and don't have access to a setup where i can really mix this shit right, and mary was the closest to that, so for now, its on hold, but not for too much longer, def gonna be performing a lot of the tracks at h3ll
yes but my producer alias is now "beats by boobie". also wow this song is good u should listen to it and enjoy it while ur with ur family this holiday season
Happy Birthday Jesus! U are so loved and I'm so proud to call u my king β₯οΈ thanks for all the hard lessons and filling me with more and more strength everyday! I'm not the best child but I'm the best I can be for you!
just got confirmation from baby zionov on star! <3 star wil be on the tracklist as well! excited for how well this is shaping up. thank ya'll for holding me accountable and i'm very excited to get this project done the right way after so many years.
aweee thanksies, tbh whats to come is pastrami sandwiches and potential retirement as i feel like weirded out with life rn and ready 2 either die or get help. prolly gonna dump everything ive been working on in the next month then disappear/songwrite
I Dream Of Zuzie coming soon! Don't lose faith! Also this just a demo mix... but it'll be on there. and it's produced by Dj Birdo,, my fave producer... and my fave person. ever. love ya'll <3
really wanna submit music today but my name/likeness is blocked from distrokid and many of the other distributors that i'd feel comfortable using. i could use a new name but that literally defeats the purpose. so i will just get chipotle and rock back and forth :)
there is no new me :) i'm just growing up :) slowly but surely. and anyone who actually knows me, knows who i am and who i really was back in the day. i'm not who i was performing in 2015-2019, i'm a lot more. that's a very very small piece of my life. i'm just a goof.
i promise u....put the body glitter down and get a job in the medical field, this music shit is whack and I can't wait until my job is to make dinner and watch big bang theory with like a single family home in henderson and a pony
gonna take a break, and stfu online for awhile, i've posted enough previews of the new music i worked on, i've answered more than enough questions, i'm gonna get to work, and i'm not taking this situation for granted! <3 thanks for still being here after all this time
i should get off but then i see music questions and i really like those, they peak my interest too much and i just start trembling with excitement to let the world know how much i love certain tunes, im like, oh my god no, i have to spill, this is too much to hold inside
so i know i change my mind alot and be passive aggressive asf sometimes, but i really do really wanna thank you for still being around and making my comeback easy. i definitely do reply to hate or sassy comments too much, and am trying to re-focus on all the love!
but yea, suck dick, die slow all that! and if you wanna fight me i got time and i do fight! not on twitter <3 i'll be in the bay for awhile so if you see me lets do it!!!! <3333333
Me commenting on Kimβs transition in any sort of way is really out of line, and I should have just shut the fuck up, but I let my impulsive nasty thoughts get ahold of me and i said some out of pocket shit about someone I donβt even know, which I regret and am sorry for.
outtake from my ing post but i love this custom vest from
@iwgiveaway
i'mma wait for a music video to fr wear it tho cuz i want it to be the perfect outfit... anyway,,, cop some giveaway asap!!!
i gotta stop reading that subreddit i just be wanting to type paragraphs back sdsfdsfs. gotta love the essays on what i should or shouldn't do tho, considering you can always pick up a phone or computer and just make some damn music yourself
they were meant to represent the full length projects. so to be clear, we're voting on me dropping Horny.4u (the long awaited album) or I Dream of Zuzie (the passion project i worked on leading to my return). want ya'll to decide cuz i read the subreddit and its conflicting
okayz, i am going to sleep, this was actually very nice, and thanks to everyone who asked about what kinda music i like and stuff! it makes me really happy to talk about music i'm like :D, and then i'm like :-). please wish me luck as i drink this squirt and miss my loved ones
Anyway, moral of the story is, no bitch can bully me especially discord fruits who Google PUBLICLY available information, I don't hide nor will I be forced into hiding by disgruntled /b/ users who are mad I got a lil attention on tiktok
@loonathewap1
no shade at all but labels def want to put me in that lane which isn't my lane anymore at all. kim does her thing but me and slayyyter and chase and spencita been doing that exact shit for years. im moving on to making music that transcends. *in my madonna ray of light accent*
so final update: as close to the original tracklist/files as i can get (still reaching out/talking to the producers of VBS, Anal Queen, and Iconic so we shall see.) Original artwork. March 5th is my goal because idk the date sounded nice lmao, and it will obviously be up on DSP's
I appreciate the support for the stuff i have put out, and this is not a goodbye. but it is my wake up call to stop lashing out when things don't go my way and to keep my focus on myself and not on social media.
i was so locked into what i thought i deserved, or what i thought my life should be based on my upbringing, that i neglected the fact that i'm an adult with free will and a whole REAL LIFE world around me. and i'm greatful for that!!
alright, i'm out!!! gonna eat some cheesecake and finally catch up on joselines cabaret. need to learn the dunchacha choreography asap. imma work on a light mix for a song for the mixtape at the same time, this one is called "like snooki" and its really fun. sleep goodly!!!